Well…I just sat here and cried and cried…now i’m just….so crazy feeling…. so sad but so relieved….so calm….but so hysterical. Oh, i’m going crazy-I know. But everything will get better in time..thats what he said..thats what I believe. He’s one of the only people who I believe when he says everything is gonna be ok…He’s my best friend….

In other things…school was long today. I don’t remember anything..i never do….im so scared that I won’t be alone any more to email him back…we just need time to straighten things out. we can do it..right? Friendship like we have can’t die..I know that for a fact…because it never has…I mean me and megan still talk….ah i burnt her a nirvana cd….only good thing about today was smells like teen spirit was in my head.

Well…pray for me…and all the others          xoxo, hil*