I’m really upset right now…..because I’m trying to be mature and christian-like…and it’s backfiring on me. I apologized to Jonathan and Jessica on her xanga because we said some pretty hurtful things. I’m just scared that…she wont understand why I did it. I need a hug. I think i’m gonna throw up. Why when I try to do the right thing…it goes outta whack?

I’m asking people for advice….Arlene said I did the right thing and God will work out the rest. Brad said I did the right thing, too. But i’m still really upset although Arlene and Brad made me feel better.

I’m about to cry…or throw up. or both. Brad keeps making me laugh. and Arlene keeps making me happy…but..gah

LilLeNe42: u did what u felt was right and the good thing is that u told her b4 it was too late ya know and the good thing is that u did what u believed u didn’t back down even though things are crazy now

Seth said: If you did what your True Will drove you towards, then yes, you did the right thing

Now im about to cry because I love my friends… hehe…i need will or kaylin…i mean, everybody has given me great advice…but I really just need Will & Kaylin……..where are you?? Well, I can’t worry about it…that wont help any

He’s right. I can’t worry anymore. Thank you everybody, I love you guys. All I can do is pray about it….thanx yall
Well, im gone now. Pray for me please!!!! xoxo, hil*