Yeah, im sittin here and im kinda real sad. I miss James…so much. And Sam’s like CALL HIM!….Yeah right. Im like about to cry but I dont want to since my mom is like right here in the same room and she’ll be like WHATS WRONG?!?? Yeah, sometimes I only cry out of my right eye. lol So anyway. Sam could go see James tomorrow if she wanted to….and I miss him terribly. 😦 😦 😦 😦 😦 😦 😦 But she’s being a super great friend and she’s like I dont wanna see him without you…but…I dont want her to miss out!! Yeah im just real sad.

Carribeangurl05: well id rather not think about that
noSHOESluvsJESUS: Yeah, me too.

Anyway. Well let’s see. We rented White Noise and Garden State last night but I havent watched either of them. I started White Noise but it kinda got….ehhhh. Sam got sleepy, so yeah. Anyway, we didn’t go to sleep at all last night. This mornin about 7 we went to Sonic and got breakfast and then came home and she left and I slept til 3. Yeah, im a LOSER. And i’m not goin to church because i’m a bigger loser. *sigh* I dont feel good….my stummy hurts and im just all blah today!!  I MISS ARLENE AND JAMES!!! GAH!!!

Ok so…tomorrow is Thursday. I think Aunt Sharon is coming down. She better!! I miss her!! And she said Bryan might come down unless he has to work!! YAAAAY! So..lets see! Grandmother’s party is Saturday! Her 81st birthday party and her birthday is Monday! Im SO happy! Yeah, im still all sad so dont think im gettin happy, lol.

I been talkin about GBC and my old friends and stuff this morning and i’m just ready to go sit in mah room and cry about crap but im also not in the mood to feel sorry for myself because I HATE doing that. Well, I really dont wanna keep writing about pointless things that won’t matter in the long run.

Some advice : Life really does fly by when you’re not looking. Enjoy it because one day you’ll wake up and your old friends will be gone. You’ll understand way too much stuff and you won’t be that sweet little kid anymore. Of course, I still am that sweet little kid, but I wasnt for a while. =( But all my friends? Well, they’re not exactly all stayin in touch. We’ve all moved on. Also, your opinions of people…they’ll change. There’s this guy I used to be in LOVE with…I mean ask anybody. I was forever talkign about him and yeah..i so wanted him. And now, I wish he’d just stay out of the way. It’s really kind of depressing to think about, but i cant STAND him now.

My parents just left for church. Oh, im sooo…not feelin good. Im sad and lonely. Sam’s goin to Natchitoches w/ Julie for freshman connection or something and she won’t be back ’til Saturday. Kylie and I…have some tension right now. I’d call Jessica Alger but i’m afraid I’d get off on one of my “Im depressed..” kicks and she never understands mah problems, lol. Everybodyz at Driver’s Ed and I should be there but mom wanted me to take from tammy this fall. GAHHHH…* Cries * I’ve got to quit writing. Byeee xoxo, hil*