“Pulling myself away from you might just be the hardest thing that i’ve ever had to do”

I survived without him before, what makes me think  I can’t do it now? I tried to be strong, I did. I’ve tried not to think about it all day…but i’m not strong….im just not. I miss him so much…and i want him to miss me that much. And alot of my friends are upset about stuff right now…things just aren’t good. I’m so sorry you guys….I’m so sorry. It’s all so horrible…..Its just i know things happen to build us up..make us stronger..but like sometimes you just dont see it…like i still dont see it in my situation. You know they say farther along we’ll know all about it…farther along we’ll understand why….but its hard….it’s so hard. I’m crying now…..I think God’s punishing me for not being who I should be…..Im gonna go now…..Pray for me…and my girls. And Aaron.

A Cupfull of Tears, xoxo, hil*