hehehehehehehe. I soo love that..like so much. Ok, it’s been a pretty craptacular day. Nothing went as planned..Coach Johnson turned evil and so moved me. I prolly failed that test..that Carl CRUMPLED UP. I had to write an essay on Volleyball in second hour…I was all by my lonesome in third hour and so I drawed…(yes, drawed) with markers. Fourth hour, Mr. Hillman tells me I made a 72 on my Alg 2 test..way to start out a new six weeks. I went and got my all academic paper that’s due tomorrow and pretended like I was gonna go to ULM so I could get an ugly bracelet that says “ULM. IT’S WORTH IT.” I forgot to turn in my magazine thing in Spanish. I think Miss Jones gave me a horrible grade in 7th hour. I miss Mrs Hilbun so much..it makes me wanna cry. 6th hour made me happy, though. Jeff played with paint..and then he killed our cult. So at recess, me ‘n Jessica ran around recruiting again! It was FUN-O!

I have so much school crap to do before in the morning..so I better get off and start. Define them functions…(dont have my book.), Write a 2 page essay and all the stuff that goes with that. I think that’s it. I’m planning on writing Sam ‘n Aaron though. Sam wrote me a letter today that made me think like..a bit. It says “IF YOU’RE NOT WHO I THOUGHT YOU WERE…THEN WHO ARE YOU??” and it made me think…I’m not sure who I am. I’m just growing up..and learning who I am.

“On the subject of Kurt Cobain”

BlueRainBliss: he also said “Drugs are a waste of time. They destroy your memory and your self-respect and everything that goes along with with your self esteem.”
LilBeatnik77: haha yeah i know
LilBeatnik77: he only said what ppl wanted to hear…
LilBeatnik77: so that goes against everything
BlueRainBliss: yeah
LilBeatnik77: so he had no clue who he was
BlueRainBliss: just like most people
LilBeatnik77: yep
LilBeatnik77: he was mortal after all
BlueRainBliss: I got a letter from Sam today and it said something to the effect of “you don’t even know who you are” and i was like yeah..you’re right. im growing up, im learning who i am

I’m gonna leave you with some Cobain quotes. Have fun..and pray for me. YAY, I GET MY CD SATURDAY!!!! Rain, Smurfs & Fairytales, xoxo, hil*

“A friend is nothing but a known enemy.”

“Don’t expect me to cry for all the reasons you had to die.”

“I really haven’t had that exciting of a life. There are a lot of things I wish I would have done, instead of just sitting around and complaining about having a boring life. So I pretty much like to make it up. I’d rather tell a story about somebody else.”

“ I’d rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not.”

“I’m too busy acting like I’m not naive. I’ve seen it all, I was here first.”

“If you ever need anything please don’t hesitate to ask someone else first.”

“It’s okay to eat fish because they don’t have any feelings.”

“My generation’s apathy. I’m disgusted with it. I’m disgusted with my own apathy too, for being spineless and not always standing up against racism, sexism and all those other -isms the counterculture has been whining about for years.”

“Punk is musical freedom. It’s saying, doing and playing what you want. In Webster’s terms, ‘nirvana’ means freedom from pain, suffering and the external world, and that’s pretty close to my definition of Punk Rock.”

“Rather be dead than cool.”

–edit–Ok, I feel alot better than I did earlier because I just walked outside and the cool weather is glorious. I found out who I’m gonna write my essay on, but I can’t tell you ‘cuz it makes me laugh -so- much. I’m waiting on Megan to bring me her Alg 2 book if she ever will. I need to deliver a FD to Jessica if ever my parents get back to the house. I still dunno what I’m gonna do about my halloween thing, but I’ll think of something…I always do. And if all fails, I’ll turn it in Monday and they can be mad at me. Look like I care?? I’m thinking about going to the fair tomorrow night..like me ‘n Jessica! I’m so excited. I hope this weather stays like this forever!!!! Talk to you cats later. ❤