Today has been soooo lazy. I didn’t wanna get up this morning…I went to bed pretty early last night, though. Before 11. I streched ‘n exercised, read my bible and then went to bed without even calling Sam.

Coach Johnson moved me AND Jessica today…which made me sad. I liked walking in PE..we talked about Halloween ‘n stuff. I’m so excited about the edge of madness, the fair, halloween as a whole…., going to the costume shop…oh it’s so awesome! THE CANDY! I wanna do a scavenger hunt, though. MEL CAME TO SCHOOL THIRD HOUR! It made Hilary happy. And yes KAYLIN…I DO CARE!!!! *cries* hehe. But not really, only kind of…..ANYWAY. There’s nothing to say about school besides the fact that it sucks. I got a letter in the mail from Jess today and an email.

Do dreams carry any meaning?

Assuming that dreams do carry meaning, what are their roles in a human’s life?

Assuming that dreams do not carry meaning, can they still play a role in one’s life?

Jeff broke the skin on my arm today….but “oh no, you did that yourself.” Yep, i’m so…talented, am I not? I wonder what i’m doing tonight. Tent…..Awana…sleeping. I’m wanting the nap..

reality Sucks

no more holding it in
how many years can i pretend?
nothing never goes the way it should
no more sitting in this place
hoping you might see it my way
cause i dont think you ever understood
that [what im looking for] are the answers
to why these questions never go away….

so you buried all his clothes and
burned the letters he wrote,
but it doesn’t make it any better. does it make it
any better? and the plaster dented from your
fist in the hall and where you had your
first kiss reminds
you that the memories will fade.

And there’s nothing more I wanna do than waste some time with you ❤

Rain, Smurfs ‘n Fairytales, XOXO, HIL*