–edit–Remember that part of my heart that was so empty because the house was empty? Well, it’s not so empty anymore! THE GRANDPARENTS ARE BACK! *jumps for joy* I AM SOOOO HAPPY. haha you guys dont even have any idea how HAPPY that makes me..Aww..i think i’m gonna cry i’m so happy. –edit–

You know what they say about junk food when you’re sad…..

Chedder ‘n Sour cream Lays + Bottled water + music = happiness. I just need chocolate.

I have a hard biology test tomorrow and a World Geography test..an Alg II test Friday and that essay due Friday. I feel like quitting school sometimes. It’s so freakin’ stupid. But, that’s okay. I think today’s Aaron’s seventeenth birthday, but i’m not positive. Earlier… I listened to “Everything Changes” by Staind and called Jessica and we talked about it for a while..she was like ‘dont be sad..please don’t be sad, it’s not worth it.’ but we both feel bad for sending that letter. I don’t want him to know I cared alot..but I dont want him to think I never cared at all..because I did. So I wrote Sam a letter…and studied for World Geography. I’m now “taking a break” while my peoples are at church and i’m about to study for Bio, I think.

” Where is your boy tonight? I hope he is a gentleman, maybe he won’t find out what I know. You were the last good thing about this part of town.” – Fall Out Boy ( Grand Theft Autumn)

I just miss…..that one day.  GOSH, I KNOW, SHUTTUP. It’s my journal…lol. if you don’t wanna hear my whining, don’t read it today. I’m just gonna post icons.  Rain, Smurfs ‘n Fairytales, xoxo, hil*

I found the cure to growing older
And you’re the only place that feels like home
Just so you know, you’ll never know
And some secrets weren’t meant to be told
I found the cure to growing older

I’m the first kid to write of hearts, lies, and friends
And I am sorry my conscience called in sick again
And I’ve got arrogance down to a science
Oh, and I’m the first kid to write of hearts, lies, and friends

[Chorus: x2]
Douse yourself in cheap perfume it’s
So fitting, so fitting of the way you are
You can’t cover it up
Can’t cover it up

Find a safe place, brace yourself, bite your lips
I’m sending your fingernails and empty bottles you’ve sipped
Back to your family cause I know you will be missed
So you can find a safe place, brace yourself

They call kids like us vicious and carved out of stone
But for what we’ve become, we just feel more alone
Always weigh what I’ve got against what I left
So progress report: I am missing you to death

[Chorus: x2]
Douse yourself in cheap perfume it’s
So fitting, so fitting of the way you are
You can’t cover it up
Can’t cover it up

Someone old
No one new
Feeling borrowed
Always blue
Someone old
No one new
Feeling borrowed
Always blue
Someone old
No one new
Feeling borrowed
Always blue
Someone old
No one new
Always borrowed
Always you

I found a cure to growing older
I found a cure to growing older

[Chorus: x2]
Douse yourself in cheap perfume it’s
So fitting, so fitting of the way you are
You can’t cover it up
Can’t cover it up