Surrounded by your glory, what will my heart feel?

yeah

I’m sitting here listening to Staind. Everything Changes. It’s probably not the best song for me to be listening to. I’m actually supposed to be either at lunch or in Spanish 2 right now. But, I had to come home. I couldn’t concentrate..I couldn’t breathe in that school. I feel so drained…like every little bit of me has been drained out. I haven’t been sleeping well. It’s that time of the year..my favorite time of year..that brings everything back and makes me realize that everything…does change.

Last night, I went and saw Mercy Me and Audio Adrenaline in Bossier. It was a really awesome show. I had so much fun..and just an amazing time praising God. Everything was perfect. Seth had so much fun, it being his favorite band and all. I had a lot of fun with Audio A..but it was like one of their last shows and it was really sad when they sang the Goodbye song. Almost cried….seriously. I -loved- the My Father’s House song! I had SOO much fun with it. 🙂 It was also really cool being with 4 of my best girls, Rachel, Sam, Jeska & Kylie. But, we didn’t get home until 1:20 or so. Once we got home, I had to do my lab report and then take a shower. By the time I got to bed, it was almost 2:30. I woke up at 6 this morning and I realized a whole lot of stuff. So, I went to school and finally got through Chemistry (although I’m not too sure how.) Advanced Math was hell for me. I couldn’t concentrate on a single thing. I kept trying and the numbers would just swirl together… So, in Coach Cross’ class, I got him to call the office and now I’m at home.

I don’t like the feelings and the memories flooding back by the handful. When I close my eyes, I just get the feeling of the end of September. But really…life is just running away from me at such a quick pace. I don’t wanna miss it. Coming back to this September takes me back to all of the Septembers in the past….September and October have always been my favorite months…and contain the most fun and the most memories. It’s just something about that cool weather. I miss old Septembers. But, everything is going to be okay. I am happy, I’m just tired. The reason I’m not sleeping much is just because I’m busy…..or because it’s all in my head. But everything -is- perfect, I do know that. It’s just me that needs to change along with the seasons. I think I’m ready.

From every tear that had to fall from my eyes
From every day I wondered how Id get through the night
From every change life has thrown me
Im thankful for every break in my heart
Im grateful for every scar
Some pages turned, some bridges burned
But there were lessons learned

No life is a waste. The only time we waste
is the time we spend thinking we’re alone.

Years from now i won’t remember every
friday night or the things that made us
laugh so hard til our stomachs hurt, but
i will always remember that they were
the ones who was always there.

In life, God does not give you the people you want. He gives you the people you need ; to teach you, to hurt you, to love you, to make you laugh…to make you exactly the person you should be.

you learn a lot about people
when you listen to the songs
that mean something to them.

Okay, since I am oh-so-scared-I’m-shaking-in-my-socks about being a JOCKER, there was ONE icon and ONE quote from some chick’s site. Blinkblacktears with some x’s in it or something. Oh well, it’s not important! Have a good day!