tequila loves me even if you don’t

DANGIT.

It’s been such a bad day. I’m just glad my week is over with. I was supposed to stay with Sam tonight, but she’s in Monroe with her family. Jeska didn’t want to stay with me because she was busy and had a lot to do, but Jeff’s over there. Guess she wasn’t too busy.

Eh, I’m just kinda lonely. My parents are in Monroe and so is Rachel & Dock. So I’m alone….have been alone for hours….and I just feel bad. I don’t know, I just feel really let down. Guess I’ll talk about my plans. Tomorrow, I’m volunteering at the nursing home at 2 with Jeska unless she has other plans. I missed Columbia Height’s Christmas party and I’m really mad at myself for putting my plans in the hands of other people again. Wooo. Tomorrow night is my family Christmas party and I’m going unless my plans change in the Lizzie McGuire department. Sunday is going to be SO busy. I have church at 10, eating at Uncle Earl’s at 1, contemp. service at 4, practice about 5ish, play that night….AHHH!

I need somebody to hold my hand tonight. I’m sorry I’m being lame….forgive me.

“no matter how careful you are, there’s going to be the sense
you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin
that you didn’t experience it at all. there’s that fallen heart feeling
that you rushed right through the moments
where you should’ve been paying attention.”