Oh how it feels so real

Me & Jeska are about to hit up Caney Lake.

I’m uuuuuuuuber excited, ya dig?

I hurt myself today to see if I still feel..I focus on the pain, the only thing thats real.

I need to get away from this place.

I can’t believe it happened. Marvin’s funeral is tomorrow.

Don’t blink.

I’m gonna lay outttttt for like hours until I’m brown and my book is over and my life is in order.

And I’m gonna eat until my heart is full and my belly is happy. Oh yes.

The best part is…I’ll have ZERO communication to anybody and their petty drama mess. Don’t bother talking to me until Sunday night. I probably won’t talk back.

So Oprah didn’t come to Jena. But she is the love of my life woman wise besides Kate Hudson, so..go away.

What do you think about the Jena 6? I think it’s ridiculous. I think that the white boys should have been punished more severely..possibly even a hate crime. And Michael shouldn’t have been tried as an adult, but it’s all stupid! White people, black people, we’re all the same. So quit being racist. Racist people are below so many people in my mind. I hate racist people. GRRRRR!

 some people live in memories
but then there’s the other people
that make their world
revolve around those memories.

you know i’d fight for you
but how can i fight someone
who isn’t even there.
–O-Town

“if you ain’t gonna live fo’ something, you best must die fo’ something”–Tupac.

xoxoxoxoxoxox, hil*