I’ve drank so much water today. I’m really wanting to start back my diet again. I weighed today and I haven’t really gained all that much. But i’m ready to lose again!
I got a doctor’s excuse without actually having to go to the doctor, so that’s a good thing. And they gave some awesome medicine to me to rub on my wrist when i’m feeling sick. It’s amazing.
I hear Kurt on my radio!
I have so much to do! I’m going to wake up early and straighten my hair if I can find that alarm clock tonight. And i’m going to wear my Starry Night earrings that Jeff bought me for Christmas. I haven’t worn them yet and they’re so beautiful. So I want tomorrow to be special! I also have to make up a Calc and WH test I missed today and have a random English quiz tomorrow. I’ll look over that crap first hour. Jeska, Jeff, Kolter, possibly Roy and I are going to the movies! That makes me smile. I need a night out. =] And then on Saturday, I work 11 freaking hours. But I get my check! And if anybody wants to do something on Satuday nightttt at midnight *cough*, CALL ME!
In the morning, I’m eating oatmeal! I don’t think I like it much, but I do think it’s healthy. If I don’t like it, I’ll just end up eating fruit.
I don’t care if it hurts
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
Yeah. I’m ready to turn 18.
I’ve decided that menthols are just the cigarettes for me. There’s just something about all others that make my stomach hurt. I mean, I have and I can smoke others, but I’d rather just smoke mine.
I hate all these little 89 lb girls who are crying because they think they’re fat. I just want to slap them and say hey, shut the fuck up! I mean, you’re not fat! But people like that are SO fragile…They need someone to love them.. They need to love themselves. I mean, it’s so silly for ANYONE under 150 lbs to claim that they’re fat! If you’re not really overweight, then you have nothing to gripe about. But you can’t just tell people that.. Sighs.
I don’t know what to do for the rest of my life. Got some things taken care of w Tech today. So college is looking brighter. And I finished Departures! I’m ready to finish The Shining. It’s good though.
Kk, see you kids later! Don’t forget to comment!
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I kniow suicide isnt the answer 😦 but sometimes I feel it it the only way out.. I dont know.but I tottaly agree with that quote you have in this blog- “I don’t care if it hurtsI wanna have controlI want a perfect bodyI want a perfect soul”I would do anything to be perfect.Ive had a low self esteem since I was in 6th grade. I didnt feel like I had the right friends..II didnt grow up the life i wanted to. Have you seen the movie “The Devil Wears Prada” ? That movie kind of explains what I want to do when I grow up, but I cant focus or have the talent to get there. sigh..idk im starting to ramble on again >< Thanks for the comment =]
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