I’ll give you enough time to regain your composure

I’m not mad that you’ve been at Jeff’s every night instead of my house. I’m just upset that you couldn’t include me. That you and Jeff spend every moment together while I’m at work–and whenever I have a night off, you won’t give up time with him to spend with me.

I went to Kristin’s tonight! It’s so funny because she’s my boss now. haha But anyway, it was pretty fun. I just sat on the couch w Kolter and watched this movie about killing people. We were playing this game like whenever somebody dies, you drink. I wasn’t planning on drinking anything, but I drank a whole smirnoff in like 10 minutes. But that’s all! Because I don’t get drunk anymore. Even when Catfish begs.

I was upset. I’m still upset. Jeska & Jeff came to see me at Sonic today and it litterally broke my heart. Whenever they left, I started crying. I just can’t handle this at all. It’s happening to me again. I thought I’d get through my senior year without another one of those periods of my life. I just wanted to be happy this year. I just wanted to get through my senior year with my best friends and be happy. Please, God..Please let me just end this school year happy. 

I ran into Megan at Amber’s on the way home. Amber & Lee were fighting and Megan was drunk w/ Amber’s parents. It was quite strange. I’ve lost my cellphone. I’m pretty bummed about that.

The miles of air and road and land, that separate me from all my plans. Were havin’ fun, but something tells me I miss someone

My mom woke up when I got home (at 2) and bombarded me with questions about Jeska and I. *sighs* Lies again.

Got to see my uncle Blake today! I never get to see him and I just miss him so much!