Today was almost perfect. (: I skipped Sunday school and went to check on my work schedule and look for my cellular device (no such luck.) And then I went to church. Afterwards, we had gumbo plates!! So, I went over to Rachel’s and ate with her & Dock. And I watched Varsity Blues 🙂 I was very happy about that. I took an hour nap and then went to work. Work was fun. I closed with Porche! Her and Lance got into it and I couldn’t help but laugh. It was hilarious. Lance is really psycho. I love working with Kristin! She’s the best. She bought my food tonight 🙂 hehe. I loves her a lot! My life has recently changed, I think. And I haven’t really noticed it shifting, but tonight, I realized that’s it’s just different. Not necessarily bad…just different. I’m off Wednesday! I’m so excited to see Third Day, DecembeRadio & Sanctus Real!!!! I’m still having some issues.. I mean, I’m still sitting here trying to make myself into what people want me to be and it’s really difficult for me to just be myself. But I’m seriously trying! It’s like I’ve played a role for so long that I’ve forgotten myself. I’m pretty sure my Mom knows about my random alcohol consumption in the past few months because she keeps sending me e-mails about drinking and printing out random “girls entering college’s drinking” papers. Today, I was driving around listening to Third Day. I was listening to the “Tunnel” song..and I started crying. It was so amazing to just hear the words, “There’s a light at the end of this tunnel for you.” Alteshia ruined my life today, haha. I can’t believe that Blue song says, “If I was green I would die.” Couldn’t BELIEVE it! I can’t believe I’m almost an adult. When did this happen? And how do I make it stop? She fooled all of her friends into thinking she’s so strong, She’s calling out to you, this is a call; this is a call out,
but she still sleeps with her light on,
and she acts like
It’s all right on, as she smiles again her mother lies there sick with cancer,
and her friends don’t understand her,
she’s a question without answers,
who feels like falling apart.
She knows, she’s so much more than worthless,
but she needs to find her purpose,
she wonders what she did to deserve this and..
‘Cause everytime I fall down, I reach out to you,
and I’m losing all control now, and my hazard signs are all out,
I’m asking you, to show me what this life is all about.
Throw up your rawkfist if you’re feelin’ it when I drop this…
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that’s the sound when the rock hits……sanctus realllllll i want to go to that concert. But I probably won’t.
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do you make all of those icons????? thanks for the comment!! that meant a lot!
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Ya know, it’s nice that even though we don’t talk much, after a lond break from xanga, you always manage to leave something on my page. =)
Glad to hear you are working! haha it’s nice to make money. Once you get used to it, it’s really hard to go without eh?
God Bless!
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I think you’re amazing. That doesn’t really define who you are, but everybody needs to be told that more often. It’s just the fact that when we hear it we block it out. YOu just have to remember to do what you want to do. And don’t get lost in what other people expect of you.I love you.
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