“It may have been in bits and pieces, but i gave you the best of me.”

“We all take different paths in life, but no matter where we go, we take a little bit of each other everywhere.”
-Tim McGraw

I’m currently very happy. A lot of stuff should be making me sad, but I think I’m going to be okay. I don’t have to work until until Monday and that makes me very happy. =] I went to my dermatologist appointment today and that was fun. I got a shot and was very happy about that. Hopefully everything is going to clear up and I’m going to be amazing and happy Friday! We met my sister up there and she took me shopping. I bought a new blue jean skirt and a pretty shirt and a halter top as well. They make me very happy. Not sure which shirt I’m wearing after grad tho! So, I ran into Daniella today! It was hilarious and I couldn’t believe it. But it made me very happy. I’d missed that girl so much! I helped her friend pick out shorts, haha. And then we found Rachel a graduation dress && such. I bought Mr. Hillman a card and my parents one. 🙂 Just to thank them for all aiding me to be the person I am today. Now I’m sitting at Rachel’s watching CMT…because that makes me cool. I’m an international harvesterrr 🙂 hehe.

Matt Ballard called a minute ago. He’s ridiculously hilarious. So I talked to him for a while and then talked to Eric, Penguin & Justin Carr. They’re the best. I think me and Eric are now cool-lol. We’re just going to say it was the jack talking and leave it at that.

It honestly hasn’t been the best of times lately. I’ve been fighting with my parents a lot and the other night, I left. Roy came and picked me up and I stayed over there that night. Weird, I know. Believe meeee–I know. But, it was fun! We played Ispy! haha. And I’ve been talking a lot to Jody & Kaylin. And Penguin. Me and Penguin have been hanging out almost every night at Sonic until one o’clock in the morning. Before he moves to Nebraska, we’re getting close just to make me even more sad when he moves.

I’m still continuing to have those best friends problems I’ve been going on and on about for months. It hasn’t gotten any better. In fact, it’s gotten worse. But everybody is begging me to just chill out and not worry about it. Graduation night was supposed to be our night, correct? Idk if I’ll even hang out with them after graduation. I mean, I know I’m going to the after party with Katelyn and Mallory and those girls. And then hanging out with everybody at Jesse’s, methinks. I just plan on spending the night with people that I love and who make me happy. No matter what else happens.

Now I’m watching Hannah Montana. You gotta appreciate her and Billy Ray. Mix it all together and you know that its the best of both worlds.

You only want to hang out with me when you’re drunk or planning on getting drunk. It’s the only time you call me. When you need to keep a secret, you call me. It pisses me off! I hear you’re choking on your words again; the secrets in your throat!

It’s like a thousand paper cuts soaked in vinegar.
that’s the way it feels when I see him touching her.
It’s like falling face first into a bed a of broken glass.

His anguish was plain; I yearned to comfort him, but I was at a loss to know how. My hand reached toward him involuntarily; quickly, though, I dropped it to the table, fearing that my touch would only make things worse. I realized slowly that his words should frighten me. I waited for that fear to come, but all I could seem to feel was an ache for his pain.

there are a lot of things about me that arent
what you thought. but if you love me, you
have to love all the things about me
– dirty dancing

I wish that I could make him realize that he’s worthy of being loved. That he could be someone’s world. That somebody thinks of him every single night before she goes to bed and every single morning when she wakes up. That someone nearly dies with yearning thinking of his arms around her. That somebody loves him more than anything because he’s fantastic. He is that special