Black then white are all i see in my infancy.
red and yellow then came to be, reaching out to me.
lets me see.
as below, so above and beyond, I imagine
drawn beyond the lines of reason.
Push the envelope. Watch it bend.
Life is so different. I’m so different. I’m so happy.
I just got home from Disneyworld today. It’s a magical little place. The fireworks at Cinderella’s castle almost brought tears to my eyes. I’m talking…amazing place.
I missed my friends, I rode a lot of rides alone and I didn’t smoke all week. But I had FUN.
Sam threw away my cigarettes, so I was BITCHY all week. Not my fault, haha. Take away things I’m craving and you deserve bitchiness! Duh! That’s how life works.
My best joke all week was definitely –> Dock – “It’s two doors down.” Me – “Or THREE DOORS DOWN!!” haha.. Love it.
I’m over this
I’m tired of living in the dark
Can anyone see me down here
The feeling’s gone
There’s nothing left to lift me up
Back into the world I know
I’ve lost interest in those boys I was interested in. Especially the one I’ll be seeing probably a lot come August. In fact, he told me that he’d pretend like nothing was ever said..nothing was ever discussed..nothing ever happened. It’s not like I liked him, though. I mean, he cured boredom and more things..more than once. And whenever I learned that there were other boys who were interested in being the cure, as well, I looked to them first and foremost. But he’s still there when I’m feelin’ restless. But he isn’t as fun as he used to be when it was all new. (How did all this BEGIN, anyway?) Now, the only time I mention sex, it’s with the one person who will probably ending up taking my virginity. Like I haven’t given him enough of me, right?! ha. I’m still not positive about that situation but we’ve been talking about it seriously. It’s almost fucking funny. Like, we recently discussed the afterwards situation and everything…
Hey, Brian Ryan wants to do something RIGHT NOW..so I’m going to go see what I can do!
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