Let’s see.
It’s almost the weekend and I still haven’t written about last weekend.
I was drunk all last weekend actually. Friday, we went out to Cecil Kelly’s house in Ward 5 and I drank some beer. :]] The best moment of the night was when Jessica was walking with me to the car to get a beer and I couldn’t find the lock to unlock the car and was stumbling around. Jessica says, “HILARY! YOU’RE SO DRUNK!” And right about that time, she runs smack dab into somebody’s tailgate. It was beautiful. Something happened with the cops getting called and pressing charges about something, so we all headed out. None of us were fit to drive, but Carr drove my car anyway. And we stayed at Carr’s.
Saturday…I took church pictures. (I’m so glad that’s over with.) And then I hung out with Jessica for a while until Eric and Rusty got back from Monroe. And then we all hung out :]] We went to some party in Hebert at Josh Hogg’s house. I took 2 shots of patrone, about 20 jello shots and then I drank a couple beer. It was intense. And Jess n me slept at Rusty’s. It made me so happy to cuddle up to him again. To hold his hand as he slept. It was precious :]]
This week has been alright. Next week, I have to write my research paper and I’m so upset about that. It’s due really fucking soon. Oh shit, oh shit, oh shit. I’m NERVOUS.
light your cigarette
and kiss me
love me.
As we grow older, it becomes difficult to just
believe. It’s not that we don’t want to, but
too much has happened and we can’t.
++Now & Then
When I sleep, I dream of you.
And when I wake, I long to hold you in my arms.
If anything, our time apart has only made me more certain
that I want to spend my nights by your side, and my days with your heart.
++Nights in Rondanthe ; Nicholas Sparks
I look at people holding hands in the hallways, and I try
to think about how it all works. at the school dances, I sit
in the background and I tap my toe, and I wonder how
many couples will dance to ‘their song’. in the hallways, I
see the girls wearing the guys’ jackets and I think about the
idea of property. and I wonder if anyone is really happy. I hope
they are. I really hope they are.
++the perks of being a wallflower
We did not change as we grew older.
We just became more clearly ourselves.
++Andy Warhol
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