And avoid that circumstance where there’s no second chance to tell her how I feel

1]Why was I always second to someone else?

In all honesty, you didn’t understand the real me. The real real real me deep inside. You wouldn’t even listen to me about the boy problem I had for years because you didn’t care. Whenever I tried to talk to you about the thing that was eating at me, you just acted like you didn’t care because you hated him. And I didn’t care if you hated him. I just needed someone to talk to. So I found someone. As we grew up, we stopped “clicking” and whether that was my, your or nobody’s fault, it happened and I just found people who I did click with.

2]Have you realized yet that I’m not judging you?

Not really. Maybe I’ll understand that someday, but I still see judgement in your eyes.

3]What happened to the BCM and Bible studies that you were going to the first week of school?

Corey proved to me that even the “oh so Christian guys” are just all fucking douches when he tried to have sex with me. And afer he hurt me so bad, I couldn’t go back to any of those places where I’d run into him.

4]Why are you partying so much?

I’ve stopped partying so much. I still drink occaisonally whenever I want to. It’s fun. We have fun. Like Tupac says, “Even though they sold drugs, they showed a young brother love.” It’s what the people that love me the most do. And plus, I looove taking drunk pictures ^.^

What’s the point of doing things you can’t even remember?

So I’ll have stories to tell my grandkids someday.

5]Do you think we’ll ever be close again?

No. Sometimes, you have to move on.