Each day begins with hope

I hung out with Fisk & Heather tonight. 🙂

And now I’m eatin sunflower seeds. And drinkin cream soda ^.^

Yep, it’s surely summer.

I feel like there’s so many people in my life that could really love me, but I won’t open up to them. I don’t know how. I’ve lost myself. Everytime I open up to someone, it backfires on me. I barely opened up to Jessica at all. Which was definitely a good thing because she’s done with me, too.

I still have dreams about you. I know I’m over you, so why does it keep happening?

I still don’t know what I want or how to get it. I’m as confused as ever. And the people who I need to talk to…aren’t ever around.

I really hope Jeska is back from Shreveport by Friday so she can go to SC with me. I really need to spend some time with her. I just need to hold ONE conversation with her. She gets me. Please come home. Please.

I don’t know where I want to live or where I want to work. I don’t want to be too far from you. I’m losing my inspiration. I just thought “this is my time with you until we both change for good.” And I haven’t thought that in a while. I think we need another talk. I think you need it this time just as much as I.

Without you, I fall into my old self.

Christian schools help you to have good (or better) morals and usually have a better education. However, you are shielded from the world. You rebel too late in life and it seriously robs you of your adolescence. Just sayin, yo.