I smoke my Newport to the butt like its the last motherfucker left.

Yea. You ain’t never had a friend like me.

I should be in bed.

Funniest part of my day: watching Stu try to open a pack of gummy fruit stuff. Whenever he finally gets it open (with his keys), he pours the entire bag into his mouth. (High people gotta eat, yo) And then he realizes that the fruit tastes like shit. And trips out. It was hilarious. Jess, me n Chris laughed for a straight five minutes. It was amazing.

This has always been my thinspo.

I hope one day I can be her. But for now, Im stuck as me.

 

Math sucks.

My friends say I should act my age.

What’s my age again?

What’s my age again?

What’s going on in my life?  Let’s see. My roomie moved out today. I was pretty bummed about it honestly because I don’t know how to live by myself. But I think that I’m going to learn to love it. Especially since I just realized I can now smoke out my window. And burn candles. ^_^ And expand my stuff into the entire room. But I do have to buy the essentials now. Like a microwave and a fridge. That basically sucks big time. Now I know what I’m getting for Christmas. Damnit.

Being grown up isn’t half as fun as growing up
These are the best days of our lives
The only thing that matters is just following your heart
And eventually you’ll finally get it right.
         – The Ataris

All I want for Christmas is a couple bottles of wine so we can play I Never and get happy drunk. :] Oh, and you. I always want you for Christmas.

I want a replay of last year really bad. Waking up, Jeska picking me up in her new mustang and us going straight to Rusty’s to drag him outta bed. 🙂 It was the best. And then adding Nathan, Hill, Brian & Fisk as the day went by. Those times were beautiful. ;]

Today, I was walking to class and I tripped. And fell. Tore open the scar on my knee for the second time. And it pissed me off! I always feel so incredibly juvenile whenever I fall down..I feel like a small child. So it made me so mad; I didn’t even go to class. I went and found Jeska and Kaylin. They always brighten my day. Every time.

The truth is that I’m afraid to be your friend because I’m always going to want more. But then I got to thinking that I’d rather have you in my life as a friend than not at all.
          -Just Friends

I have my first test this quarter tomorrow. I haven’t studied, but I plan on it all morning. The test isn’t until 2 and that’s all I have all day.

 Jeska ‘n I took Blake to Wal*Mart today. I feel like a good person whenever I do that. Plus, he bought us both Subway and Hawaiian bread, but I think we left that at Allen’s. Whenever we took Blake back, we helped him bring in his groceries and then waited in their room until Ankur and Wade got to Neilson. Talk about awkward. I don’t know what to say to Corey anymore. [I never really did.] And he really is an idiot, so it was quite teh annoying.

I’m sitting in my room right now in the dark. Not doing anything. It sure is lonely here by myself, but I’m going to be fine. Hanging out with Jeska means that I’m never at my dorm, anyway. So it’s fine 🙂

It was a good evening 🙂 In fact, it’s usually a good evening for me. I need to find someone to pass the “Rusti” onto, so I don’t lose my direction, lmao. Says he, anyway. Sometimes, I realize that I really should listen to Rusty. He always tells me before I’m gettn myself into something I don’t need to. I just never listen. I love his silly ass.

If we go out and half-ass it ’cause we’re scared, then we’ll always wonder if we were really good enough. But if we go out there and give it all we’ve got… that’s heroic.
        – Varsity Blues

I think that’s what i find most strange about this world, nobody ever says how they feel. They hurt, but they don’t cry out. They’re happy, but they don’t dance or jump around. And they’re angry but they hardly ever scream, because they feel ashamed. Nothing’s worse than that. So we all walk around with our heads looking down and never look up and see how beautiful the sky is.
       – Uptown Girls 

 

I’ve never known anyone like you, you look at the world and you think you can make it better.
–Dirty Dancing

There are two kinds of people in your life.
People that are there to pick you up and the
people who are there to push you down.
In the end, you’re going to thank them both.

 

lately i’ve been tired and uninspired

My life be SUCKIN!

I gotta freakin’ smoke smoke smoke smoke smoke…SMOKKKEEEE!

I’m so addicted to..all the things you do..

I stayed with Megan last night ^_^ I love her so much.

I saw my girlyfriendy today. :] She likes the drama.

And Megan is jus a crunk bitch!

I already miss Rusty…honestly. Mygosh… I love him so much.

I also talked to Brian a lottttttt the past 2 days. He knows my secrets, lmao.

“We have to call Brian” “NOOOOO!” Brian is like my daddy. I’m always scared of what he’ll say. Him and Megan are mommi and daddi. They always have been. I can’t wait to see him on the 20th!

Sometimes I wanna be your lover, sometimes i wanna be your friend, sometimes i wanna hug ya, hold hands, slow dance while the records spins..

Jess suggested that I have a nice, long talk with God tonight. In fact, I shall. Let’s have secret time.

Mothers are always right, correct? I hope so.

RHNcaboose (10:58:56 PM): You and Rusty will make up.
It would be no fun if you didn’t get to make up.

Oh Ruston’s not so bad.

Hung out with Jeska, Antonio, Ankur, Stephanie and Kaylin today at Kaylin’s. :]

Ruston is jus not so bad anymore.

I still will miss home, I still do miss it.

Hanging out up here is just easing my homesick-ness.

Ate with Corey and Blake. Talk about awkward. I just wanted to leave the whole time.

Some people don’t know how to let things go.

But I’m chillin. About to go to bed probably. Don’t have class until 12:30 tomorrow though. So I guess I’ll get a good night’s sleep, wake up early and go get breakfast! =]

 

I’m a lesbian.

I’m a crack whore.

I’m addicted to crystal meth.

I’m pregnant.

I sold my soul for a QP.

So the other day when I was being a lesbian, practicing witchcraft, high as a kite, drinkin some jack daniels while driving through the back roads with all my friends in the car, the radio maxed out feat. Lil Wayne, passin around a blunt… (:

(if they’re gonna talk, give em somethin to talk about, eh!)

I decided that you people should get outta my life.

I don’t know who you think you are…

but my life is none of your business to broadcast.

RAWR, I’m crunk
and I kill people before breakfast time

Actually, i’m a lover-not a fighter. Don’t laugh, I can’t help it. I’m a hippie at heart and everybody knows it. Morgan influences my hippie lifestyle. 😀

 I hung out with both Jessicas, Rusty and Eric today. It wasn’t awkward; it was just like old times and I was very happy about it. We saw Role Models and it was fantastic.

Mom tried to have another talk with me about my life.
Some day, everybody will realize that second to God, I’m in charge.

And they’ll quit trying.