I mean, I wish he would just text me. It’d been being really great. I don’t know what happened today, but now I just feel like everything went weird. I mean, it was sweet because it wasn’t random anymore. Yesterday and today were completely consistent.

Last night, Jessica and I stayed with Corey n Blake. And for me, everything was just completely chill. I made out with Corey in front of Blake. It was hilarious.. =] And, I felt really bad whenever we made Corey sleep on the floor, but it was all okay. He kissed me good morning whenever he left for class..and everything was just so sweet.

Then, we went to Monroe by ourselves today and things got really shitty for me. He acted like he was making fun of me because he knew I liked him and he could have me anytime even though he didn’t like me like that. Like he just was using me…building up to when he fucks me and then that’ll be all it is.

Roy should hurry his ass up doing homework so I can print out my paper and we can smoke with Lindsey n Ashlee. I’d love some Roybird in my life right now.

It’s still not emo time. I miss church again. I need it tomorrow night. Don’t let me forget.

When life offers you a dream so far beyond any of your expectations,
it’s not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end.
++Bella Swan; Preface of Twilight

I might smoke this weekend. Rawr. We’ll see what happens.

Hardcore whiskey? That’s how they do it in Dixie.

Dumbledore would have been happier than anybody to think that there was a little more love in the world.” — Minverva McGonagall; Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince

I loved Nick n Norah’s Infinite Playlist. Holy shit. New favorite movie. =]

I feel emo and angsty towards life right now. It’s annoying. I’m glad I finally talked myself into writing my paper. Hell yea.

How would you like to just dance anyway?

Whiskey in the morning one more time.

I wonder how long I can hold on to my innocence…

It’s fading faster

everyday.

I remember everything. And it always makes me smile.

College is still fantastic. I have a lot of work to do, but everything is decent.

After Psychology tomorrow, I’m through for the day, so I’m going to the library and working on my paper! WOOT. I should be doing it right now…but I can’t concentrate.

That stupid boyyyyyyy. That’s all I got to say about that. I’m just a slutbag whore. haha =]

I’m on a diet. Kinda. I’ve been eating way less. It’s sweeeeeet.

I talked to Jeska last night. You don’t know how….good it felt. I miss her and have since we split. I want to see her again.

Last night was intense and my emotions went CRAZY. Haha, it ended up well though! YAY

I got to see my cousin Amber and her friend Allison…and stuff. =]

I’ve been smoking about a pack a day. It’s intense and hurting my lungs.

I love my life. I love my friends. I love CoreyRoyBlake[usually]MaryErinAllTheBenchGirls and everybody. EVERYBODY

I spent the evening at the park today with Blake, Roy, and Corey. And at Cook, it felt like home. It’s my new favorite spot. I never imagined Ruston would feel so much like home. But, it does. I’m very content with the decisions I’ve made. I love Ruston. I love everything about my life right now. I feel sometimes that I lose direction and am not concentrating hard enough on school stuff, but every other aspect in my life is perfect.

Maybe I’ll get drunk this weekend! Who knows! As long as I’m happy =]

 I might not be making much sense right now, but that’s the way I see it. I find myself in you. I know that’s some totally cliche line, but it’s really the only thing I can think of right now to explain this. out there, in the world, I’m lost. but with you, everything is clearer.

I love college.

I love church.

Church 5/7 days is my favorite.

I will live like this for four years.

It’s the happiest I’ve ever been.

Your mom goes to college.

When I woke up this morning, I had the sweetest text message ever. It read, “You know, you really are a beautiful individual. Both physically and spiritually.”

I’m making friends left and right. Not close ones yet. But friends nevertheless.

I spend most of my time with Jenn and Roy. Sometimes Julie and Jill. Sometimes Corey and Blake.

College is happiness. I’m learning a lot. And I’m just…..

Church makes me happpy.

Who is excited for Sociology tomorrow? Ughhhhhhh.

Who ate my volcano taco?

I love Roy and Jenn. They make college happier.

My life reminds me of church camp. I love it.

I’m about to try to finish Breaking Dawn…

and then go to bed early.

Loversssss and friends ❤

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This is the funniest shit in the world. “Shut up, bitch!”

Haha, I’m laying in my bed. =]

I dyed my hair black. It matches my September-ness.

I’m so happy. I’m so unSeptember, but it’s like I want to fall back into it. Been listening to HIM today. And laying under the covers.

It’s like I can’t breathe
It’s like I can’t see anything
Nothing but you
I’m addicted to you
It’s like I can’t think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You’ve taken over me
It’s like I’m not me
It’s like I’m not me

Well it’s chillin! I’m going to church tonight! Finally! 🙂

More later.

It’s not as awkward as I would’ve imagined.

I smell ravioli. I wish I was eatin some!!!!

I’m socially awkward because I’m a virgin.

Eat that shit up.

Messing around isn’t sex.

I’m not losing my soul.

=]

Oh, but you can take it if you wantttttttttttt.

So, I moved to Ruston yesterday.

I’m sooooo sore. Even my fingers ache. Yesterday was sooo long. Jess and I unloaded the cars of all my junk and then helped Mom disinfect and clean the entire room. And whenever the room looked decent, we went to Subway and Walmart with the ‘rents. 🙂

SO, I met my roomie. I loves her just like I knew I would!

Kaylin came over and saw Jess n I and we ended up going to her house ‘n watchin tv with her roomie. =]

Erin and Bekah really wanted us to come to Sigma Pi, so we showed up..and omg, it was boring as hell. SoOoOo, we got out of there asap. Right after Erin spilled beer down my back. =P Silly girl. I loves her.

Jess and I chilled by the Lady of the Mist for a couple hours just talking. We decided we’re really more of “just a couple friends kinda girls” and not party girls. haha So, anyway, Corey came and met us and we caught up and talked shit for awhile ‘n then picked up his roommate. We rode around ‘n got ice cream and ended up watching Underworld at his dorm. Except I didn’t watch it. I fell asleep. -Ish. ^_^

Got back to my dorm around 6am and Rach was like wtf?! haha. I love college.

So what is with me always being good enough to mess around with..but never relationship material? I don’t GET it! I’m chillin tho! Whatev happens happens!

Marry me today, yes I’m wishing my life away with these things I’ll never say.

So my sister turned 26 today. Wowwww. 

Jess and I had a ridiculously amazing day. It was almost summer again. We were loud, obnoxious and amazing.  We love each other, it’s true.

There’s nothing like the deep breaths after laughing
that hard. Nothing in the world like a sore
stomach for the right reasons.
+The Perks of Being a Wallflower

Bir-duh. I wanna sit around and watch disney movies and play board games. Lets do it Friday night.