…Dirty Dancing is like my favorite movie.

I gave Jeska a letter last week about going to big sisters. It’s not even that I really enjoy doing big sisters, but it’s the -only- thing Jeska and I actually do together. But not anymore. Either Jeff comes or we don’t even go. I like it when Jeff comes, I just sometimes like to have girl time! But if Jeska doesn’t like girl time, it’s okay. I can find somebody else to spend time with me. Damnit.

I talked to Dawn on the phone today! ^_^ That made me super happy. I loves her. Her and Angela coming to see me in May! I’m so excited! It’s going to be tons of fun!

I’ve been so down lately. Jeff’s grandmother passed away on Friday. That night, me Jeff Jeska & Roy went up to Monroe and ate at Applebee’s and went to the mall to buy Roy shoes. We were going to the movies, but they aren’t playing Charlie Bartlett anymore. I’m so mad!

Saturday, I worked the complete WHOLE day..11 hours! Sunday was the funeral and then I went to work. I hated to see Jeff in such a state, but I wanted to be there for him and I know he’d do the same for me.

Melissa’s brother, Darren was killed early Saturday morning. And then, yesterday, Dock’s grandfather passed away. Sighs, I can’t believe I missed the funeral today. I hate having to work because I don’t get to do a lot of things I otherwise would.

RAWR. I get off Tuesday and Friday this week! So I’m going SHOPPING!!! =D I’m excited. I wanted to do it tomorrow and get Jeska to help me pick out some stuff, but since Jeff is coming, I think I’m just going to go on Friday or Saturday morning by myself.

I’ve drank so much water today. I’m really wanting to start back my diet again. I weighed today and I haven’t really gained all that much. But i’m ready to lose again!

 

I got a doctor’s excuse without actually having to go to the doctor, so that’s a good thing. And they gave some awesome medicine to me to rub on my wrist when i’m feeling sick. It’s amazing.

I hear Kurt on my radio!

I have so much to do! I’m going to wake up early and straighten my hair if I can find that alarm clock tonight. And i’m going to wear my Starry Night earrings that Jeff bought me for Christmas. I haven’t worn them yet and they’re so beautiful. So I want tomorrow to be special! I also have to make up a Calc and WH test I missed today and have a random English quiz tomorrow. I’ll look over that crap first hour. Jeska, Jeff, Kolter, possibly Roy and I are going to the movies! That makes me smile. I need a night out. =] And then on Saturday, I work 11 freaking hours. But I get my check! And if anybody wants to do something on Satuday nightttt at midnight *cough*, CALL ME!

In the morning, I’m eating oatmeal! I don’t think I like it much, but I do think it’s healthy. If I don’t like it, I’ll just end up eating fruit.

I don’t care if it hurts
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul

Yeah. I’m ready to turn 18.

I’ve decided that menthols are just the cigarettes for me. There’s just something about all others that make my stomach hurt. I mean, I have and I can smoke others, but I’d rather just smoke mine.

I hate all these little 89 lb girls who are crying because they think they’re fat. I just want to slap them and say hey, shut the fuck up! I mean, you’re not fat! But people like that are SO fragile…They need someone to love them.. They need to love themselves. I mean, it’s so silly for ANYONE under 150 lbs to claim that they’re fat! If you’re not really overweight, then you have nothing to gripe about. But you can’t just tell people that.. Sighs.

I don’t know what to do for the rest of my life. Got some things taken care of w Tech today. So college is looking brighter. And I finished Departures! I’m ready to finish The Shining. It’s good though.

Kk, see you kids later! Don’t forget to comment!

Acts like summer and walks like rain

Bends the rules

Colors the world with her magic wand

Dances in the rain

Ends each day with a prayer

Finds beauty in simple things

Goes with the flow

Heart on her sleeve

Isn’t afraid to be lost in the crowd

Jesus is her best friend

Knows better, but is too young to care

Loves with her whole heart

Music is the blood that pumps through her veins

Nighttime holds her by the hand

Overboard to the point of the crash

Preaches “make love, not war”

Quotes movies and songs

Reads on her front porch swing

Sings her heart out

Talks about making something of herself

Unity holds her heart

Ventures into worlds unknown with Jeska & Jeff by her side

Wishes on shooting stars

Xanthippe

Yesterday is gone, she says.

Zealous for peace, love and music

❤ Hilary Nelson

1. Unity

2. Literature

3. Live music

4. Thrift stores

5. Myspace

6. Photography

7. Rain

8. Crawfish

9. Spending time with my friends and family

10. Religion

 

 

 

So, I had a great weekend! I worked Friday night and then woke up and worked from 11-3 on Saturday. Then, I decided I’d randomly go stay with Sam! So, I drove to Pineville about 7. 🙂 I had so much fun w her. She lives in this amazing, beautiful house w this couple who is just great! I had a really great time. We went to DQ for ice cream and then hung out at the house watching youtube videos and talking until I fell asleep about two! I went to church w/ her at Philadelphia the next morning. It was a really nice service, but her preacher kept cracking me up! “DANGEREOUS!!” So I kinda got distracted. Good message though! It was about growing in your Christianity and how staying a baby Christian can be really bad for you and your future. The worship was beautiful! And the guy who sings Ain’t Nobody Gonna Love Me Like Jesus shook my hand! lol. Phil from Philadelphia, haha ^_^

So, I’m randomly off until Thursday which is good and bad. Good because I have time to RELAX–finally! And bad because I don’t get $$! But, it’s all good. Because Aunt Dolores & Elisa are here!! I’m pretty happy about that. Tonight, I’m going up to visit with them at Grandmother’s! 🙂 Even though it’s supposed to be horrible weather. [I really hope so!] I love storms!

Today during second break, the [posse] was at Roy’s sitting on the porch and it was raining and Roy was playing the guitar and I felt really at peace. I’ve missed spending time with the loves of my soul. Spending so much time with Rusty and those guys really messed up my relationship w/ Jeff and it hurts my heart. I just miss him so much.

I’ve been having some weird dreams lately. Friday, I dreamt about Tony’s family. Saturday, Rusty. Last night, my mom. They all are scary, too. I know they have hidden meanings, but I can’t grasp them right now.

Things to do: walk on treadmill, exercise, shave, write some letters, read, find that book, drink water, buy some smokes.

Happy Leap year day!!! ^_^

You’re supposed to do something crazy today because it won’t occur again until FOUR years from now!! But alas, I have a job. I have to work from 430 to close tonight. Ugh! I hate closing. I hope I get off early!!!!

I lost my keys today, so I’m really bummed about that. I can’t find them anywhere! So Kylie ended up bringing me home.

First break, me and Amber went to Sonic and hung out. Second break, everybody went to Johnny’s and it was so yummy! Even Penguin showed up!

Anywho, me and Kylie talked the other night for a while. I think we’re going to look past the what happened and our differences and try to hang out again. I mean, I’ve missed her. It’s weird though, I don’t know. And I don’t want Jeff to be mad at me for it because I know that she was horrible to him back in the day. But I also believe that everyone deserves a second chance.

For some stupid reason, I’m “fighting” w Rusty. I mean, not really, but we’re not really speaking much. That’s probably for the best though. No temptation to party w/o a party house. But if we don’t resolve this, I really will miss him. I mean, me and Rusty were getting closer and I do love him to death. I just don’t know if I can handle his bs. I mean, for someone who he talks crap about all the time, he sure does pick her side. It’s just a funny thing and I guess I don’t completely understand it.

The osse [long time since I’ve used that] is going to Lafayette today to visit Audie. Except I’m the one who isn’t going this time. I hate having to work. It really makes me misss out on a lot of stuff I’d enjoy. The money isn’t worth wasting my time. All I can say is I hope I work with people I like today and go on break with someone fun. I’ll need cheering up. I hope Priya or maybe Porche.

*sighs* I’m going to get ready for work now. See you guys on the flip side. Next time I write, it’ll be March. And Justin Morgan’s 20th birthday. Hopefully I get to see him tomorrow! And Matt and Tony and Kyle! Maybe. *sighs* xoxo, hil*

 

For once, I just to be the number one person in someone’s life.

Just once.

I worked from 4:30-11:30 tonight. I’m so tired…

Work is so gross..i’m so sore and restless right now.

It’s a good job, it’s just TEDIOUS.

I’m off tomorrow–THANK GOD. But I have to do 4-close Sunday night.

mean who wants to trudge through life doing everything just right? Taking no chances means wasting your dreams.-Crank<3

 

I went to my campus tour at ULM today. Holy mistake, yo. It was raining so bad! I practically swam to and from the car. And the umbrella was pathetic! It kept collapsing on me! But all in all, it was pretty fun. I got to meet a Psych professor =]] He talked about geology and random other things, haha. And we didn’t get to tour the dorms because the dorm guy wasn’t in. But I got to see Hannah!! ^_^ It was the highlight of my day! I loves me some Hooda Thunkitt. And I ran into Chris Hall, lols.

After the tour, me and Jeska met up with Amanda & Kateland at Mohawk..and I had some killer amazing fish! Yummmm Yummmm! I love spending time w/ those girls, so it was a blast.

I had work at five. XD Oh yeahhh, I’m a workin’ girl now. Psh yeah. Actually, I didn’t do much. I made the drinks, and fixed some ice cream and filled the ice machine and cup dispenser and rinsed some malt dishes and such. But nothing extravagant. I really enjoyed it actually. And I love my coworkers! Priya, Sam, Kristen & Autumn are the best! I think we’re going to have a lot of fun! I hope so, anyway! I hope I get to work with them the majority of the time.

Janet..didn’t order me a shirt. So all they had was a 2X…I was so sad. I’m supposed to be wearing a Medium in Sonic shirts!!! ;_; This is me crying. Plus, they were out of visors so all I had was a cap!

I think I’ve broken my iPod….I’m going to shoot myself.

http://www.teenidols4you.com/thumb/Actors/taylor_lautner/taylor_lautner_1185120400.jpg Taylor Lautner has been casted as the Jacob Black for the upcoming Twilight film! Get excited. I don’t really think he’s the best pic. Especially w/ short hair! But, he’s alright.

I’m pretty ticked about the new Sisterhood movie. They’re covering the THIRD book with the second movie! What is that! And alllll of a sudden, Effie is thrown into the movie when she was MISSING from the whole first movie! I’m so pissed at the movie producer. They sucked it up!! 

And sometimes it just hits me out of nowhere,

All of a sudden this overwhelming sadness rushes

Over me and I get discouraged and I get upset

And I feel hopeless, sad, and hurt and once

Again I become numb to the world

I can’t WAIT to turn eighteen! I’ve got so many people promising to take me out (: Ohhh yes..

Me and Rachel have an awesome idea for a bday present to Grandmother this May!!! But it’s a secret!

After all that’s been said and done,

you’re just a part of me I can’t let go

 

 

“Do what you love,
fuck everything else.”
– * Little Miss Sunshine * –

You know why?

Because

“THIS IS A PENNECOSTAL HOUSE! A PENNECOSTAL HOUSE!!!!”

hehe ^_^

That drunk bitch has my heart, yo..