Arkansauce..was amazingly fun. 🙂 We..did a lot of Arkansauce things. Hot springs arkan SAUCE. Oh yes. Hot Sauce. Anyway, moving on. I loved our hotel room..it was like gettng ready for us to be roomates In college. It was fun..cept when the black guys knocked on our door. Yeah..scary stuff.

When we got home, we went to the Harry Potter party! :] It was lots of fun and stuff. We met this guy..named Steve! He was fun. I like new friends! So..got our book and ran to Susie and drove home.

On Sunday, OBBC left out for Centrifuge ’07 in Ridgecrest, North Carolina! It was an amazing week. I had a lot of fun and it was really wonderful. The worship services were fantastic and James Tealy makes me smile a lot! He sang a lot and he was cool. Jarod, the worship leader was wonderful, as well. Even when he made up words. Our youth had a lot of fun together..even though as always, there was some super girl drama. It ended up being lovely. The good always out weighs the bad.

We got home on Saturday night and I went straight over to Jeska’s to see Aaron. I know, pretty weird. I was really nervous..and I thought I was going to die. I was so confused on how to act. I was happy to see him, but I knew that I shouldn’t be because I was still so hurt.. There was a wall in between us..and every once in a while, I felt myself ramming into it. But, it made me happy with myself because there were no feelings for him there. But, that’s not to say that they couldn’t have been brought up again if he would’ve stayed longer. As things are right now, I’ll either see him again in three months or never again..and that’s fine with me. I want to say that it brought me closure, but some people have brought it to my attention that it’s probably just a false sense of closure, so I have to keep on my toes.

Enough of that. On Monday morning, I left for New Orleans….oh yeah, oh yeah, the Big Easy. I had lots of fun. New Orleans is a really cool place. The first night, we ate at Mulate’s with Ms. Waggoner and Ms. Carnahan. It was weird. On Tuesday, me, Mom and Rachel went shopping at the Riverwalk. I bought Ms. Vickie a lighter. Just kidding. I actually bought it for myself. Yeah. Anyway. :] I might give it to her. If I can even find it. Then, me and my siiiiister went to the Aquarium and saw some fish and penguins. I HATE ALLIGATORS AND SHARKS. Seahorses are amazing. The Imax was weird. I had to use glasses. haha Not like Shreveport at all! :] Tuesday night, we ate at the Hardrock Cafe’ and I want to work there forever. Si.. Then we rode the street car for an hour or so. Wednesday, we slept all day..and then walked around downtown New Orleans. It was amazing. People bombarded us..and it was annoying. I saw a MIME and this wonderful street performer who was great. A middle aged man hit on me. Yuck. Twice. And we got BEIGNETS!! Yumm..and the coffee was super good. We went to the big Cathedral..and it was..a Catholic church. There were Catholic people there. Okay, I’m done.

Im moving there one day. Oh yeah, we went shopping in Gonzalas..and I bought school clothes. EW!! Anyway, I’m at Sam’s now..so I’ll catchayalata!!

I’m leaving for Arkansas at 8:30 in the morning.

I’m in desperate need of a vacation.

Me, Jeska, Mom & Dad are heading out for Hot Springs, Arkansas.

I’m so ready to get away from here.

I wish Jeff was coming.

 

It’s been a while!

Wednesday: HARRY POTTER DAY! Me, Jeska & Jeff piled in the back and Mrs. Sandy, Julie and Sam piled in the front of Julie’s car and headed up to West Monroe. We ate at Wendy’s and it was great. Me, Jeff and Jeska took a SHOT of ketchup. It was SO bad! ❤ And anyway, went to Tinsletown and badly beat Jeff in a game of air hockey. (I play to win.) And then we watched Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix! OMG, it was WONDERFUL. I cried like a baby! Sirius…was..my…favorite.

WEDNESDAY NIGHT: We stayed with Jeff. It was lots of fun actually. We played an acting game..haha. I was Harry Potter..with the scar and everything. And a drunk girl raped me. Not Harry Potter. The old man.

Thursday: Went to eat at 12 with my Mom, Flo & Rosa at Johnny’s. Then, I got my hair cut way too short. Cried. Went to Jeska’s and took a shower and fixed it and stuff and then we went to Mama Kim’s for Mary Kay. Me and Jeska looked like girls! AND WE WERE BEAUTIFUL!

THURSDAY NIGHT: Hung outttttt at Jeska’s, I think.

Friday: Went to the movies and saw Ratatouille with Jeska, Jeff and Daniella! The movie kind of sucked, but I had fun!

Friday night: We watched Jeff’s new concert dvd and went to Sonic and then ate pizza at Johnny’s with a free card! WOO!

Saturday: I layed around the house for ever..and did nothing.

SATURDAY NIGHT: Me, Jeska, Jeff and Roy went to the movies and saw Harry Potter again! I cried again. And then we went to Ball to get DQ..and it was closed. So, we ate at BK! grrrrr. But anyway, I got home at 1 am and I got in troubles. =( SAD STORY! But yeah, we also got pulled over by the cops. I was distressed!

TODAY WAS AWESOME AT CHURCH! ADAM AND NEELY GOT SAVED AT CAMP! OMG ITS AMAZING! I CRIED THE WHOLE SERVICE! I LOVE IT! GOD SI AMAZING! I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!

 

I slept really late today..like until 12:30 and then got up and cleaned a little bit. Around 2 something, I decided I’d go to the bank..so I did that and put my change in the lil machine and got 15 dollars for the concert and 15 dollars for road trip. I’m sure not the best saver. I think Jeff has 200 something saved up. Anyway, after that, I went to McDonalds to get a hot n spicy..and went to Popeyes for fries. Then I went to Sonic to get a drink and ran into Aunt Dana & Memaw Boo..and I ate lunch with them and talked about Milldale and random stuff. They miss the kids! Aunt Dana said Maurly has called like 5 times..and she’s having SO much fun! I’m so proud.

I ran into Jeff & Jeska on the way home..and we went to Rachel’s and spent the whole day laying on the couch watching tv. :] I love them kids too much. And like everybody else in my life agrees. But I don’t care at alllll. We also played hide & seek…it was so much fun. I hid so generically. Jeska hides in cabinets. Jeff hides under bags and pillows. So anyway, we watched mooore tv. And finally went to Jeskas about 10. I met Oscar..which is a dachshund. Yet..adorable. I’m in love. Love at first site with a 3 lb. puppy. :]

It’s been a while since I wrote about this..haha..but as I drove home from Jeska’s tonight..five minutes after curfew because my lovelys kept holding me up, I was just so at peace..and so happy. A friendship is a beautiful thing. They both make my heart smile..quite a lot. Plus, TOMORROW IS HARRY POTTER 5!

I’m going to BAWL! Sirius = the love of my life. I’m wearing my Dumbledore’s Army shirt and it will be SO much fun! Probably staying with Jeff afterwards…..yay! FUN DAY

Look here. It’s already the 10th of July. Where’s the time gone? You know, it’s Landon’s second bday today. I can’t believe that. I miss that baby. I can’t believe he’s already 2. Doing things like that..not seeing him in almost 2 years..makes me hate myself.

I went to Milldale today with my children..and I saw Arlene! YAY! It made me really happy.. and I almost cried when we left. It felt so right being there..and so wrong leaving. I am going next year..no matter what. That place hold so much of me. Walking between the church and cafeteria today was like walking through my past. Memories and bits and pieces of me bounced off the walls. They surrounded me and for a second, I thought I might drown in the realness. I remembered who I was.. but as we drove down Milldale road towards home, it all faded.

I have nothing else to say. BBBS training is cancelled because we never signed up? We’re losers. Or I am anyway.

 

This little light of minee, I’m gonna let it shine!!

Jeska came to church with me this morning for the first time in a while and JJ came, too! We were late because I didn’t wake up until like 915 or something. But we made it by…1020 maybe. Sunday school was full and I enjoyed it. I love seeing a full class of youth! It’s beautiful.

So anyway! TOMORROW= I’m going to Milldale for about an hour or so! haha I’m hauling a bunch of 9-12 year olds there with my daddy! Spending quality time with Neely, Maurly & Adam! I’m actually excited. I get to visit my most favorite location in the entire world. Anddd I get to see my sister. Yay! PLUS, I’ll probably run into Arlene! WOO! Im happy! And Tuesday is BBBS training! That’s going to be fun, too!

Wednesday is HARRY POTTER 5 movie day! Mrs. Sandy bought our tickets for us! It made me so happy. I love her to death. It’s going to be Mrs. Sandy, Julie, Sam, me, Jeff and Jeska! HAHA..Definition of awkward, I know! But seriously, what do I always say? DON’T MAKE LIFE ICKY AND AWKWARD! So, I’m going to laugh in awkward’s face! Because Harry Potter is my NONsecret obsession and love of my life. And even though Sam and I aren’t on good terms..doesn’t really…matter to the plot of the movie! I’ll be leaning on some friends I know..the road and the radio…or something. ❤   Thursday, I have a hair appointment with Kelly at 1:00. I’m finally getting this mess cutttttt. After that, I’m going to Mama Kim’s to talk makeupppp for a while. :] After Thursday, I’m going to go PURPLE! haha. Score. And Friday, I might have to go back to Zachary. We’ll see.

My life = really happy! I feel sick to my stomach though. bahh.

I CAUGHT FIRE IN YOUR EYES

I can’t listen to Dude Looks Like A Lady anymore. It makes me search for cellphones.

xoxo, hil*

So, after an hour of fighting with Sam last night, I made a mistake..I just don’t know if I’ll be caught at it or not. On one hand, I feel bad.. On the other, it makes me laugh…and it let out my anger.

Today was my first shopping trip driving! I did awesome. I’m the best driver ever (ha). Seriously, im not too bad! We went to Antique Alley and my sweet best friend ever, Jeff bought me 3 records I wanted! Ray Stevens, Kenny Rogers and Charlie Rich. Don’t laugh at me! I LOOVE them! At BAMM, Jeska reserved her Harry Potter book (because she’s COOL and COOL people READ Harry POTTER!) anddddd we bought some of those every flavor beans and I almost threw up a lot. The worst..was pickle and earthworm. But I didnt eat vomit, rotten egg or sardine.

I bought a Harry Potter poster (Dumbledore’s Army!) at FYE!! Im excited. And, I bought the new Brad Paisley CD from Target for like 12 dollars! YAY

We ran into SO many people we knew today! Primm, PeigenKolterColePhillip, Mrs Murphy, Mary, Sammy Shipp, Ashley Basset, Jordan McK, Megan from Hot Topic, Ron from Spencers, Picture taking man, BB Gun, this girl–Amber, Meaghan Miller..and probably more. I enjoyed the whole day thorougly.

Oh, by the way, I’m a horrible person. Have I mentioned that?

I started a new book last night called “My Heartbeat.” Im excited! I love starting new books! :] So anywho, I didn’t get to bed until close to 4am and then had to wake up at like 11! I got ready for the funeral and switched outfits close to 730582 times. Seriously. Finally decided on a black shirt and black skirt. Felt like a witch trying to fit into the Muggle world! But I FORGOT to not wear my witch shoes! lol. Anywho, the funeral was at 2:00.

I sat with Jeff, Penguin, Jody & Catfish. I was glad they came. It was sweet of them. The funeral was a celebration, definitely, but not as upbeat as I know Papaw George would’ve wanted. At the beginning, we all stood up and sang Amazing Grace and I started crying then and cried a bucket of tears throughout the day. It rained today..but he wouldn’t have complained. It rained because we were sad, says Jeff. 

We drove out to the burial site and my shoes sunk in the ground as I walked. Bah, there is nothing for me to say about today. It was depressing; I was sad. It rained; my hair frizzed. People brought food; we ate a lot. I’m getting used to people bringing food, but I was kind of disheartened because noone from our church brought anything or came to the funeral. Suebelle & Murphy didn’t even come. I was grumpy, I think.

Tonight, I was scared to DEATH by this man..named Ronnie. On the phone. Seriously..prank call gone wrong or something.

Uncle Albert’s godson, Mikey has been given 24 hours to respond..It’s all too much. Pray for their family. He’s only 25 and has a little boy. 😦

Either I’ve been in a really bitchy mood..or you’re just an idiot. Got it?

I have been really upset for the past few days…and people have been major idiots, too. So, whatever.

Today was the visitation. Me & Jeff went at 2:00 and I got home about 5:45. Have to be there for my best friend girl because I love her and because I feel like family anyway.

Fake chocolate cereal is really odd. Ew. I hate it when people call me “Hilry” or..my favorite..”Highdgohshignglry”

Bro Todd is the greatest. He came by to see JeskAlger today.

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