i make mistakes, i’m out of control, and sometimes i’m hard to
handle. but if you can’t handle me at my worst, you don’t
deserve me at my best.
-marilyn monroe
Contrary to how I thought it’d be, I had a really good time in Jackson. I slept and listened to cds the majority of the trip. We got there and I automatically fell in love with the place we stayed. It was a bed & breakfast with spiral stairs and beautiful rooms and I loved it! We stayed in the Rosemary room (disappointing! WHO is Rosemary?) and my parents stayed in the Scarlett O’Hara room. The cutest rooms were the Cinderella & Rhett Butler rooms! Completely ADORABLE! :] So anyway, after I fell in love with the room, me and Rachel got ready for the wedding. It was at 6:00, but we made it there no later than 5:15, so I could sit by the book. I sat at the back by the book and handed out programs and laughed at these two guys, Jamey & Josh. (They cracked me up.) The whole experience was seriously humorous. The book pen went out, so we had to find a pen.. And, everytime me or Jamey would try to talk to people, they’d completely ignore us.. so we’d just laugh at each other. Especially because there were like 2708562 old ladies there who had no idea what he was talking about so when he’d ask if he could walk them to their seat..they’d say yes..and walk the other way. lol! And I was like trying to hand out programs and people would ignore me and not sign the book and I was getting aggravated! haha. So, as they would walk off, I’d be all snappy and make fun of them..lol. And Jamey would be like “DENIED!”
The wedding was beautiful. All three Baum girls were gorgeous. The wedding was pretty short and the music was good..especially Amy William’s song. I enjoyed that.. a lot. But, Emily, the flower girl, didn’t. She started bawling on stage. Ahahahaha. Hilarious. Classic. Adorable. ❤ After the wedding, we made our way to the reception..which was actually at the Bed & Breakfast we were staying in! It was fun. I watched my familia dance the night away and drink the night away, as well. But the drinking was more of Jason’s family. Especially his Uncle. Who..I wanted to slap. Mr. Perv! Gosh! haha. It was funny though. And the food was excellent. Amy & Jason left right after 10:00, so we watched them drive away into the night. By then, Rachel & I were SO tired. We were invited to an after party (traditional Harveston family thing) with Annese & the cousins, but we decided to just go to bed. So, that’s exactly what we did. We were going to watch City of Angels, but we decided to gossip about the family instead. And, finally, we fell asleep.
Breakfast was at 8:30 sharp. It was amazing. We had coffee, orange juice, fruit bowl, muffin, eggs, grits, bacon & two biscuits. YUM! I’m not used to breakfast, but that was just glorious! :] I wish my Mom would open one of those around here. She’d be good at it! We spent the rest of our time in Jackson sitting around with random bits of the family, saying our goodbyes and gathering up ice chests of food. And then, I started reading. I finished “Keeping the Moon” by Sarah Dessen. I lovvvvved it. I’m marrying Norman, kk? Colie is my ROLE MODEL! I love her!! Whenever we got home, I played around a bit and put pics on Myspace, went to Grandmother’s, was chilllll for too long, then I came home. Sam came over a little later. She hasn’t had a very good weekend, so I tried to cheer her up..but I sucked that up pretty much. I just didn’t know what to say.
I need something positive in my life right now. Honestly, I need time away. This weekend was just a tease. I need a good solid week away. I could go with Aunt Dolores & Uncle Gary and stay in Missouri for a while.. but I’d end up being lonely. Elisa works too much. I could hang out in Lufkin with Aunt Sharon for a while..but I’d run out of things to say and spend too much time online. Mom wouldn’t let me go stay with Aunt Lanette or Aunt Andrea. And everybody else is too close. I could go see Uncle Blake for a little while.. but Robin would try too hard for girl time and I’d probably shoot myself. I could definitely use the Orion time. But…you know the rest. I’ve been thinking about robbing a bank, hopping on a bus and riding as far as I could towards Illinois..but I’m not really up for jailtime. I’m panicing because I’m wasting my summer sitting here in this chair.
I’m a slut because I’ll wear shorts & a tanktop,
I’m anorexic because I eat as much as I want & don’t gain weight,
I’m a bitch because I don’t let you push me around,
I’m a liar because I won’t tell you everything,
I’m stupid because sometimes I’m wrong,
I’m ugly because my face isn’t perfect,
I’m a whore because I like boys,
I’m annoying because I’m not chill enough,
I’m a loser because I’m not friends with your group,
I use people because I do what’s best for me,
I’m fake because most of the time I’m happy,
I’m weird because I’m not like you,
I’m controlling because I get mad sometimes,
I’m clingy because I like to be around people,
I’m greedy because I like to be satisfied,
I’m naive because I’m younger than you,
I’m conceited because I’m proud of who I am,
I’m rude because my manners aren’t perfect,
I’m unappreciative because I don’t praise you.
Don’t try to tell me who I am because I already know
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