So it’s 4:30 AM and I’m laying on Sam’s couch. She’s asleep on the couch next to me and I’m laying here listening to Aaron Shust and being sun burnt. It really hurts. And this tshirt is burning it..and it SUCKS. But the Aaron Shust part is pretty good..and the DSL thing. *big yawn* I am pretty tired though. I could go to sleep. Nah.

So yeah. Saturday morning, I woke up at like 5:30 and the posse plus Mrs. Vickie went to Blue Bayou and stayed all day!! It was the most fun ever. Like Jeska said..POSSE’S FIRST VACATION! AWE. hehe. Anyway, it was amazing..just all day. Until it started raining and we had to leave and miss Blake Shelton!! *cries fo0rever*

So no me gusta burn. I so put sunscreen on it too…silly sun. Jeska looks like a frickin lobster. She ALWAYS gets burnt. Her fault!!!

I watched happy you tube videos all nite. I laughed and almost cried a few times. hehe. Well..yeah… sleep. See yawl!

Today was a really awesome day. It started at 5:30 when I actually woke up and went to Jeska’s at like 6:15. We walked around the block until 7:00. Honestly, it felt so good. I loved being outside so early and being productive. I wanna do that every day for the rest of my life. Starting…when I’m 30. Or tomorrow. We’ll see. Anyway, when we got back to Jeska’s, we both were just so worn out that we went to sleep..and I slept until 11:30. She slept until 12:30. Andddd, so I got up and took a shower and woke her up finally. And I got on with my day. Thursday called so Jeska & I went to the grocery store for Grandmother. I got 15 dollars today. Jeska had a doctor’s appointment at 2, so I took her home and then went and got rodeo hot dogs with my sister and got big trains, too! Anddddd, then I went to the orthodonist in Monroe! I got a pretty purple retainer..which I hate because it’s gay..but yay anywho! But mi amigos weren’t gonna be in Monroe ’til forever, so I went to Cato’s with Mom and got a shirt, a wallet and some earrings! I loveeeee my new wallet. And then I went to Ross. I was gonna buy me this awesome shirt I found..but then I found the movie “Wish Upon A Star” and I couldn’t resist!! It was my FAVORITE movie as a kid! So, I got to see Knocked Up with Jeff, Jeska and Catfish. I LOVED it!! GREAT movie! It makes me wanna have a baby REALLY bad. So yeah, can’t wait for a baby. I’ll be the best mom EVER, toO!!

Yesterday, I spent the day with Jeska and we went to Sam’s and played on DSL.. Later, we went to Jeff’s because his daddy grilled..and it was AWESOME! Then, I came home at 9:30 cuz I was in trouble.

I found Stephen Quave on Myspace. Oh, how things change.

xoxo, hil*

I thought I should probably update real quick.

Saturday, I drove to Monroe with Mom so I could get the rest of Sam’s present. I got her some wonderful earrings, a necklace and some pink fingernail polish to go along with her pirate figurines. I loved it all. I wanted to keep it..all. But, I bought meee the Kurt Cobain action figure for like 3 dollars. Joey made me! And, I bought the Kurt Cobain lunch box! One day, I’m gonna make my kids take it to school!! I can’t wait to make my kids listen to Nirvana!! :] Total grunge kidsss, yes. Exciting!! So anyway, that night, me and Meaghan Miller went to Sam’s party that night. It took us probably an hour or more to FIND her silly camp!! It so wasn’t my fault, but I got lost..TWICE! But, the party was fun. The cake was good! Mm-mm! Mrs. Penny made me smile all night. She’s the best.

Sunday was church. It was reallllly good. I loved it. After church, my family…me/Mom/Dad/Rachel/Dock/Aaron went to Johnny’s and ate with Nick, Angie and the kids. Fun stuff. And I went over to Roy’s and hung out with..with lack of a better word, the posse. I left right before they started Star Wars and got ready to go to church again. Me, Sam, Cat and Seth went to Fellowship for a youth night..and I about cried the whole night! I was SO nostalgic! It was just like old times minus everybody I used to know. There were all these kids there..that are becoming youth. It made me miss a lot of people. But, it was cool. I saw Adam Ballard and Seth Richmond–which I almost NEVER do. It made me happeh!

Monday….was..yesterday? Yesss. I went over to Rachel’s and watched Dr. Phil, Tyra Banks Show and this countdown on CMT..which I loved. It was goooooood. Anywho, I ended up going to Sonic with my J-hoes. And then to JJ’s eventually and playin around and watching Futurama & such. Anddd at like 11, I showed up at Sam’s again and spent the night with her and Cat. Didnt get to sleep until like 2:45 because of R Kelly & his amazing closet videos. :] Im in love with R Kelly being Trapped in the Closet!! All day, I just spent it online and bein’ lazeh. Finally, me and Sam went over to Aunt Dana and Uncle Kevin’s. We tromped through the pasture in flip-flops and took country pics that all sucked and then talked to mi familia for like 2 hours. Now, I’m at home..and not the least bit tired. I was feeling horrible earlier, but I feel better now.

I’ve been missing my JeskaLyn time. I miss my hookaheel.

XOXO, hil*

BEST FRIENDS . . .
they say they’re hard to find
& that’s because the best
are already mine.

Sooooo, yesterday was another trip to Monroe. =] Yesterday was pretty eventful, actually. I woke up and had to go to the grocery store for Grandmother..which was like 100 items on the list but I had help!! lol. Catfish is the best shopper! And Jody sucks. But, they were both amusing. Jeska is a pretty good shopper, too. Anyway, at 2:50, I had an orthodonist appointment and I had to get fitted for a new retainer. I’m getting a purple one. PURPLE! But it’s gonna cost like 165 or something. I thought that it was ridiculous to buy another one, but they insist that its important since Im getting my wisdom teeth out this summer or something smart. The lady had to do the impression twice because she messed up the first one and it really pissed me off. I’ve been having some anger issues..lol. Anyway, Monroe was fun. We went to the Altell store so Catfish could get a new phone and we played with all of the display phones. Anddddd, I went to the Mall and got Sam’s present. Most of it anyway.. Im gonna try to go back in the morning and see if I can get some more. So yeah..then we got ice cream and came home. We got to see Mitch tho!! YAY MITCH!

Today was pretty fun too. Me, Jeska, Jeff and Primm went swimmin’ at Riverton! It was pretty fun..besides the dirty water ‘n random stuff like that. I love those guys. Thennnn, I had to babysit. So I was sad. Oh yeah, I talked to Sam Smith on the phone for like 40 minutes this morning. Annyway, babysitting sucked. I got 30 dollars though! ^.^ YAY ME!

Ohhhhh my gosh. I’m soo stressed at this moment in time.

 

Oh, buddy. Loooooving this summer time.

Yesterday, I woke up and had a HORRIBLE morning..trying to get gas. The stupid gas card wouldn’t work and then I spilled gasoline all over me! I was so depressed! But, then I went over to Jeff’s and got him and went up to the school to get our report cards. I made a frickin C in Chemistry. My first C all year! I was SOOO mad. Jeff, of course, made all A’s and most of them were over 100. He’s so smart! After that, I went to Sonic to get some ice cream and we both got cookie dough blasts..and they weren’t very good. We went over to Jeska’s and got her and took her to get her report card. Soon after that, we went to Meaghan Miller’s house. I honestly thought it’d be really awkward, but it wasn’t too bad. She has a really cool room and awesome Titanic posters!! Me gusta! Mom wanted me to come home and clean soon after that, so I came home. I thought I was going to Danielle’s, but her mom didn’t want us there because she had to go to work or somethin. So..I ended up going over to Jeska’s with Jeff. We talked for a long time about a lot of stuff and had a huge Dr. Phil moment. I love those silly kids sooo much. :] Primm came over and we hung out for a while. Well, actually, he just talked to Mufasa on my phone! About 10:30, I left and went to Sam’s.

I seriously felt like a bum..like I was just going from house to house. I love that feeling. I love not being at my house and just traveling from friend to friend. So yeah, over there, I played on DSL a lot and pretended to watch some movie about a Tuscan sun. At 3, I started talking to Eric and Will and Meaghan on AIM. It was sooo weird talking on AIM. I felt sooo old school and wanted Brad to get on! I miss being hyper at 3 am and messing with people on AIM. I miss chat room parties and all that stupid stuff.

So yeah..we went to bed at 4 and I woke up at 9 and got ready for Monroe… We left from Jeff’s at like 12 and it was like me, Jeff, Primm and Meredith. We picked up Sarah and Derek at Quik Mart and headed to monroe. Shrek was STUPID! I totally got bored with it. But it was alright. After the movie, we went to Taco Bell and ate the normal quesadilla. YUMMMMMMM! And we got custard from Eskimoes. OMG, Jeff’s was SOO great! lol. It was bright blue and it was so intense that it made you laugh when you ate it. I’m totally serious. 🙂 So, we hung out at the mall afterwards..and tried to meet people. It made me happy that I knew like most of the people Lauren and Sarah were trying to meet. Liiiike I knew Jeffrey from Romancing the Stone and the guy from Spencer’s..and JAYYYYY. I mean, JOSH!

I couldn’t BELIEVE that I ran into Josh today. He works at Hot Topic now!!!! It’s SO cool. It makes me realllly happy!!!! Remember when me and Jeska always went to Underground to see him?! YEAHHHH! Anyway, after we got home, I hung out with Primm and Jeff at Jeff’s, my house and Primm’s! Then, my dad flipped and I had to come home…(every day). Primm, Jeff and Roy are all watchin a movie at Jeff’s right now. Jeska is out with Jody and Jesika. And I’m at home alone…..I totally hate this.

Carribeangurl05 [12:03 A.M.]:  well u should go to bed
NoShoesGirl08 [12:04 A.M.]:  im not physically tired
NoShoesGirl08 [12:04 A.M.]:  i’m tired inside
Carribeangurl05 [12:04 A.M.]:  eh thats a tougher problem to solve

Yeah, I get that a lot. *sigh* So..how’s me life? Pretty busy, I’d say. Yesterday, I went to church. We finished “Facing the Giants” in Sunday School and I almost cried. It was such a great movie..I just believe that nothing is impossible with God..so much. It’s pretty much the WHOLE truth! NOTHING can be impossible when you have God on your side! It’s unbelievable. So after church, I went to Jeska’s and we sat there for a lil while and then went to Grandmother’s and ate lunch–leftover hamburgers and ice cream. Later, we went over to Sam’s and played on DSL..well okay, JESKA played on DSL. I watched a bit of the cheerleading version of Bring it On, A Cinderella Story and Forrest Gump and talked to Spiffy on the phone for like an hour or something. When it was time for the Thompsons to head to church, me & my home girl J-Lyn rolled up to Sonic to get apple juice slushes and they tasted like cake icing…so gross. We went to my house and Jeska straightened my hair..and burnt my finger. (It hurts so bad. I hate burns! ESP. on my FINGERS!) About 9 something, we went to West Monroe with Mama Vickie and Aunt Angie. Uncle Albert started to come but…bluh, we dropped him off on our way to Village. (We saw Coach Crockett (big) at Village buying ice cream!) We went to the movies and saw Spiderman 3 at 10:15. It got over with at like 1 something. Anyway, it was a great movie. I loved emo Spiderman. He was freakin’ SEXY. I wanted him….right there. haha. We got home at like 2:30 after going to Walmart. Jeska bought a Clint Black CD. So much for not being a country girl.

Today..never really began. I woke up at like 12 at Jeska’s and ate some baked beans and watched Dirty Dancing. I looooove Johnny & Baby. At some point, I came home and fell back asleep. I read a little bit and got online..I mostly had a down day. I went on a freakin’ GOOSE CHASE for my Mom looking for ice cream salt that NOONE sells. Whores. Some time, the J-kids & Primm (which I guess could be a J kid if I called him Justin) came and got me from Grandmother’s and we went to Johnny’s and ate pizza with Jody, Penguin, Catfish and Jessica Girod! Jeff hit me in the face with a clod of ice and I think I cried. It freakin’ HURT. But he didn’t mean to. We spent the rest of the night at Jeff’s watching Simpsons and jumping on the trampoline until Primm brought me home.

The plans for the rest of the week (if the parentals allow) is swimming tomorrow about lunch time, staying at Danielle’s tomorrow night, going to see Shrek 3 with Meredith, Mel, Kay, J kids, Primm & Derek. Thursday, I think we’re going to Blue Bayou!!! (I wish I wasn’t fat!) No idea about the weekend. Which honestly..summer is just a huge weekend!! :o)

Whatever comes our way,
whatever battle is raging inside us,
we always have a choice.
It`s the choices that make us what we are,and we can always choose to do the right thing.
– Spiderman

I’m having fun already…tons! I’ve got to spend time with lots of my friends already! I’m really wanting to hang out with Kolter ‘n Peigen soon! Lalalala. I’m so exhausted. But not sleepy. I slept all day. Maybe..next Friday or something..I’m going to spend a whole day by myself. I need it. I have to go buy Sam’s bday present that day though. Oh my Gosh, I need a job so badly. I have 40 bucks right now but 20 of it isn’t necessarily mine. And I owe Jeff 13 dollars. For tradition. I always buy our food at Waffle House..but I was crying outside the other night, so he paid for them. I always cry. I’m such an effin’ panzy. But honestly, when I get like that, I don’t want to cry. I want to smoke a whole pack of cigarettes. lol I haven’t smoked in sooooo long.

[ S U M M E R ] iS..
waking up to the sound of a lawnmower,
spending everyday with your best friends,
the smell of cholorine in your hair, anxious
for next year but still missing  the last,
thinking you’ll find love, staying up late &&
sleeping in, bonfires with friends, saying
good-bye to drama `cuz for the next 3 months..
YOU [ D O N ‘ T ] CARE !

I’m so glad I’m friends with Primm now. But I do miss Roy. Sometimes, I feel like the posse exists…but it’s like a pair of shoes in a showcase. I mean, when people look at them, they look wonderful and pleasing to the eye. But, if they aren’t getting used..they’re sorta pointless. I feel like Primm is taking Roy’s spot sometimes. Like tonight, Julie called us the posse again. But, Roy wasn’t there. And somehow, it just felt..right. I mean, I miss Roy, that’s not a lie. He’s still one of the best guys I know and if I was having a problems, I’d go straight to him after Jeff and Jeska and Sam. But, we don’t really get each other anymore. And it’s beginning to be a problem. Life has begun to be a problem.

It’s SUMMERTIME.

Summer 2007! Can you BELIEVE it?

Last night, on my FIRST day of summer, I went to the movies with Roy, Jeska, Jeff, Amanda and Primm! I had SO much fun. Then, we went to Waffle House!! It was seriously..the best time I’ve had..in man..oh my gosh, I love those kids! ^.^

Today was Grandmother’s birthday party. I enjoyed it. I really just hope she enjoyed it! That’s all that matters! Sam came towards the end and now I’m at her house!!! YAY!! lol. We took pot head pictures. SOOO COOL.

I get carried away….

 

Today, I took my last Chemistry, American History and Psychology test ever. Tomorrow will follow with Advanced Math, Spanish2 and English3. Tomorrow will be my last class hour with Senora…and I’m so bummed about it. I made a C on my Chem test, definitely aced my AH one and made a 100 on my Psych test. I’m going to make a C/D on my report card in Chemistry. But honestly, this year has been worh it..every bad grade, every memorized definition word for word, every night I didn’t get to sleep until after midnight studying, doing homework EVERY evening…every thing I put into this year..nothing can beat how I feel now. I feel so accomplished. I made an A every six weeks except for this one. I worked so hard this year..harder than I’ve ever worked in my life. Chemistry has taught me so much more than balancing equations, pH, 22.4 liters and polyatomic ions. It’s taught me how to work for what I want. It taught me never to give up and to always believe in myself. It taught me not to slack, but to go the extra mile just because. It’s done so much.. I’m really sad leaving it behind. Physics will take its place next year..and I’m so glad I get to have Mr. Foy again. Mr. Hillman announced today that he’s not leaving us. THANK GOD. I would’ve dropped Calculus in a SECOND if he left me. But, he’s not going anywhere. I’m so happy..so glad. Mr. Hillman is everything to me…only reason I’ve passed math. Aww, sweetest thing, I lost my worksheet and after he made joke about it flying out of the car when I go around the curve in front of his house, he just gave me an A. He’s so wonderful. Senora got Teacher of the Year. I’m so proud of that woman. She definitely deserves it plus tons more recognition. She’s so amazing.

Funny thing, I graduated from 6th grade five years ago today. I know, that’s cheesy, but it means a lot to me. I’m so glad I remembered. I finished the 6th graders slide show tonight. Dock better pay me!! lol. I’m so broke. I’m looking for a job..sorta. I may turn my application in to the Cleaner’s..if I think about it.

So yeah, tomorrow = my last day of Junior year babyyyyy. I’m definitely bummed, but still excited! I’m praying that it’s an amazing summerr. I know it can be! TODAY IS JUSTIN CARR’S BIRTHDAY! AWE I love him. Anyway.. no idea what’s goin down this weekend. Saturday is my Grandmother’s bday party at my house. Hopefully, I’ll be home for that. Jeska is going out of town soon….i’m super sad about it. I’m going to suffer with out her while she’s gone.

Anyway, I read this book called Come Back the other day. I reccommend it to every teenage girl in the world..especially ones who have gone through anything like molestation or drug abuse. Omg, it’s so good. I started reading it three nights ago. I didn’t put it down until close to 2 AM the night I began–on a school night. I just finished it yesterday and it was probably one of the best books I’ve ever read. It gave me so much insight and while I’m not suffering with any of the severe problems Mia was, there were still conflicts within myself that the book brought to my knowledge. Mia is my hero. She is so strong and Claire is, too. I would give anything to just spend a day with the two of them. Reading their book made me so proud that there’s such amazing people and rehabilitations/schools in the world. When I grow up, I want to work with teenagers, teenagers that other people say are “garbage” and whatever else they say. I know that there is good in every person and everyone has potential to be successful and to succeed at anything they want to do in life. I have such a strong desire in my life to help teenagers like that. My heart aches for every child and every parent dealing with issues like these. If you know of any program I could get involved with or anything I could do, please let me know. I’m only 16 right now, but I believe that no one is ever too young to help. I admire them both. I will never forget their story.

Well, well, well.

Unknowns are over and I know I at least -passed-. It was actually really fun. :] Last week was just the greatest week. We didn’t wear uniforms all week! lol. It made me super happy ^_^ And yeah, Thursday, we had fun day and it was SOOO much fun! We played with water bottles and by the end of the day, we were all soakin’ wet! Mrs. Jones got dunked in the dunkin’ booth and I laughed a lot. The junior class made me really happy. They’re so [silly!]

Friday night was Graduation. I went with Jeff and Jeska just like last year! ^.^ Super fun stuff right there. We mainly went for Peigen and Danielle! They were both BEAUTIFUL! Peigen didn’t have the greatest night, but we tried to make it all better for her! After it, we went out onto the field and hugged everybody. I didn’t even cry. I almost did though because of JEFF! lol. He kept saying “next year, it’s us..” *SADNESS* After we left, we went to Sonic to get something to eat. Daniel came up to the car and was like, “During graduation, I just realized that next year, that’s gonna be you guys up there. And when yall are gone, who am I gonna look up to? And not only that..I’m going to be the one that people are looking up to.” lol I totally made fun of his soap opera moment, but honestly, it’s soooo true. I can’t believe I’m a senior. When I glance down at my hands, I see this class ring..that just isn’t supposed to be there yet. I can’t believe I’m growing up like this. I’ve had my ring for 5 or 6 days now…and I already feel naked without it. It’s just so hard to realize.

Yesterday was lots of fun. We spent a day together..just the three of us. It was the best day I’ve had in some time. We jumped on the trampoline, spent time at Jeff’s, went to Riverboat Days, listened to Bo & Jr. sing country and Bon Jovi, ate nachos, rode the fourwheeler, spent time at mi casa, ate at Sonic that night…It was just really fun.

Well, today has sucked big time. Church was great. The rest…not so much. I did get to clean Peigen’s van a little bit before mi padres went insane the second time. And I got to see Peigen & Emily!! ^_^ Yay!! Well I’m OUT. ^.^ Kisses!

 

there are only 3 things a girl needs in this life.
love to make her  weak.
alcohol to make her strong.
& friends to pick her up when they both
make her hit the floor.