I’m crying out, I’m singing loud.
You could be all I need…

There’s no place I’d rather be than safely tucked away by your side.

It’s the only place I know I can’t be hurt,

just resting, listening to your breath upon cheek, soaking up your heat.

Knowing that in this ridiculous, crazy, confusing world,

there’s somewhere I can go to be safe.

To feel safe, to breathe… to be

 

Credit due to: x_little_madam_x’s xanga site

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The end.

I just feel SO stupid today.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Anyway, the concert Friday night was a lot of fun! I really enjoyed it. Puddle of Mudd was GREAT! And we met some cool kids. Pretty fun stuff.

Yesterday, we watched movies. My Best Friend’s Wedding, Runaway Bride & Speak. I enjoyed them all and cried in the first one! lol.

So, what’s REALLY been going on in my life though? Hrm….I’ve been worried about Jeska a lot. She’s been having some health problems and they suck. But she does really good when she takes her MEDICINE! lol. Grr!

And hmm..the thing that I had been REALLY worried about..well, I’m not worried anymore. And I’ve been talking to Sam a lot this week and I just can’t WAIT ’til she gets home for the summer! I’ve lost a couple more lbs, I think. And right now, I just want to lose like 30 and I’d be happy. But turns out, I’m happy anyway. ❤ Well Im out..I dont feel so well.

 

You are the source of the life
I can’t be left behind
No one else will do
I will take hold of you

I need You Jesus
To come to my rescue
Where else can I go
There’s no other name by
Which I am saved
Capture me with grace
I will follow you

This world has nothing for me
I will follow You
This world has nothing for me
I will follow You 
 
 
The other night when I was seeing DecembeRadio in concert, they sang this song for the invitation..and it was so beautiful. 
It’s a very simple song with simple lyrics, but such a powerful message. i love this and it’s my prayer to Jesus everyday.
xoxo, hil* 

There’s a lot to say…more than I could ever dream of writing about. But, I never have time for explanations anymore.

I finished The Book of Fred and Speak today. Both were good. And I’m going to see Puddle of Mudd, 3DaysGrace and Blackstone Cherry on Friday.

But right now, I’m going to watch the Whitest Kids You Know!

Well, spring break is coming to an end. I still have a couple days, but it’s halfway over. Yesterday was pretty great. I spent it with Jeska, Jeff and Jessica Girod! It was fun. We played in the rocks and wasted a diet coke and a box of mentos. 🙂 It ended with me and Jeska rushing home from Jeff’s at 1:30 because her familia was threatening to call the law on us. >.> <.< Yeah. Fun times.

Today, me and the J-girl came over to the house and Jeff showed up…so we chilled over here a while and then rode around for like an hour. We finally ended up going to the Locks & Dams. It was so great and just beautiful there. I forgot how much I love it. It’d been a year and a half since I’d been there last. I was with much better people today, though. It made me really, really happy. We sat on the rocks for an hour and talked about a lot of random junk.

A lot has been bothering me lately..just driving me insane..so I’ve been pretty secluded lately. Pretty much walking around with a Stay Away sticker on my forehead. But, I’m trying to get through it..just because I know it’s possible. Something I always knew would happen has happened…and even though I was looking for it, it still hurt just as bad as I’d imagined. So with that..among other random crap, I’ve just been bluh for a while now. But there’s so much going on with other people..it’s just hard to feel sorry for myself, ya know? What with all of the sickness in my friend’s families and all these problems they’re having, my fights with my Mom seem pretty miniscule.

 

But, you know what? I have the 2 best friends in the entire WORLD. Among other great friends! And JESUS! ❤ But, i’m not gonna lie, Jeska and Jeff mean the world to me. Especially lately. Jeff is really helping me adapt (ADAPT!) to all the stuff that’s going on and he’s pretty much the best friend ever. Plus, Jeska is helping me stay sane…and a girl! haha. I love her so much!

I love Hanson. I love The Spice Girls. xoxo, hil*

Stay out of my way, it’s going to be a day.

I remember what made it so bad. I remember what sprung my interest in a friendship with Megan.

I remember why I wanted to just fit in with the cousins.

I remember why I was a horrible person.

 

Well, I just typed up a HUGE entry about prom.

But, it’s gone now.

Guess it wasn’t meant to be.

I’m…angry. These are the times that try my soul.

So, anyway, to say the least, prom was amazing.

And yesterday was amazing.

And I have BEAUTIFUL, AMAZING friends.

Things have been……so bad and crazy lately. But who knows, maybe this is up to me.

We spent time with Penguin, Justin Carr, Jody and Victoria. I had a b-last, yo.

Tonight, I babysat Jeska. And watched sweet parts of Armageddon.

The end.

I got my prom shoes, purple purse, earrings, hair clips, garter…..gahh.. I’m in LOOOOOOOVE. I also got some hair removal. ❤ I’m so in love with this beingagirllllll thing. WOO.

Aunt Angie ‘n Uncle Albert ‘m AJ are comin up! I’m so excited…everything is just so fabulous! But i’m turning into a punk rock princess…will you be my garage band king?

OKay, I’m superouttttttt. *smOoch*