I’m SO tired.
I’m up way too early. I straightened my hair! OYO! I decided that I would dress myself with confidence today and be beautiful! lol. I’m so tired of being bluh and lookin’ like a hobo. ;]
TODAY IS FRIDAY! YOU BETTER BELIEVE IT! GET EXCITED!! I’m pretty happy about it, yes!
And after all, you’re my wonderwall.
I love you ©
So, it rained today. But I missed out. It rained during journalism and remediation and I couldn’t enjoy it. At 3:10, it had ceased and all that was left for me was the mud. I have tests this week. Three..I think. I have one in Advanced Math, but it’s simple ACT prep. I have a huge unit test for English..so I have to spend tonight re-reading old stories, letters and poems. I couldn’t be more excited. (Sarcasm) I think I finally got all of my articles e-mailed to Becky, so that’s a burden off, but I’m sure Nikki will find something wrong with my progress. And if she don’t, Nick will. For someone who doesn’t do anything, he sure gripes a lot. When I’m the editor, I’m going to actually edit and do my job. I’m not the greatest on assigning stories, but I’ll at least take editing seriously. And I hope Mrs. Folds doesn’t get it back, too. I mean, I’d love for the class to have structure that she could give, but I want to be in charge next year. I want to wear the cape and make the f’n whoosing noises. =]
I’m spending some time alone today. I’m not much on alone time, but I didn’t feel like hanging out or going to visit with the family today. Yesterday was very enjoyable. I went to piano and then Jeska & I walked a mile at Grayson after talking a little bit to Jessica, Ashley & Matt. Then, we went over to Jeff’s on the spur of the moment and jumped for a few hours. I’m in love with every single inch trampoline. And it couldn’t be set up in a better place. I was just laying there looking at the clouds and wondering if life could be any prettier. And the answer is none. None more black. ;] I don’t know if I mentioned it or not, but I finished the last Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants. The only thing that really affected me..that was it was the last one. It wasn’t really sad….or overly sweet. It was a great ending, but there just wasn’t much storyline..I expected too much of it, I guess. All I can do is wait for the last Harry Potter book. JK won’t let me down.
It’s getting closer to summer every day. Sometimes, when I go outside to get in my car, it just feels so much like summer. I feel like I’m getting in my car and driving to the church to go to camp. I’m ready in every possible way for church camp. I have the doubts, the insecurities, the anxiety, but more importantly, I have the need and the want. Jeska is coming with me this year. I am so grateful to be spending this experience with her. I hope she enjoys it as thoroughly as I do. I’m already dreading the purple wall! 13 ft., baby.
I heard from a semi-reliable source last night that there’s another concert inching toward us in time. ULM is supposedly closing the deal on it soon. (Oh, yeah.) Like I told Jeska, “Get your concert heart pumpin’ and your cds bought, ‘cuz it’s tiiiiiime!” aha. I’m talking Papa Roach, Puddle of Mudd and Hinder! I’m excited! I’m so very ready for that can’t hear anything, aching all over, thirsting&sweating like crazy, meeting new people, and loving every SECOND of it..night. I love concerts. It’s my passion and it’s a beautiful thing!
Spring break is getting closer. I think I’m going to be ALONE all week! Who wants to party? ha. Mi padres are planning on spending a couple of those days in Stilwater, Oklahoma. Town of the Cherokee Indians and summer memories. I’d love to go back, but I have a feeling that that week is going to be SOMUCHFUN here alone. lol. Well anyway, it’s getting hot in here and I’m running out of things to say and stories to tell, but be proud of me for writing this much. You better comment! I LOVE YOU GUYS! xoxo, hil* 
I guess I can say things have gotten better, but they really haven’t.
Grandmother is doing better. She’s been walking a little bit and I think she’s in rehabilitation now and she’ll be there for close to 5-6 more days. I went to visit her on Sunday with Jeska and Mom. Me and Jeska roamed the halls and a oldest son on Home Improvement lookalike doctor tried to give us money. hehe
I still haven’t got a prom dress. I went lookin’ this past weekend and ha.. that was a joke.
Amanda is down. I’m gonna go see her in a lil bit..but I am SO tired!! School is driving me insane. The GEE begins on Monday and I’m going to FAIIIIIIL! Science and SS both! I hate em!
Roy is back at school. Just thought I’d throw that one in. His dad was supposed to come home today. I dunno if he has or not yet. But I’m excited for them and keep praying.
I’m making some friend decisions right now and they’re difficult.
We got a trampoline and I’m so excited.
Well, off to piano, to walk and tan. I heart you faithful readers. (Joke)
xoxo, hil*
Well, I’ve had the worst morning in the history of Hilary.
Everything is my fault, I imagine. No idea why I even got UP this morning. I cried all morning about..well, various things. I’m fighting with most of the people I love. And I’m questioning my love for others. Well, not really, but it’s driving me insane. I fought with my Mom this morning and we both cried, so I just left. And then, I went to Roy’s and that was so pathetic, I wanted to slit throats. (a few, actually) So, I finally just left and then I fought with Rachel..so I ended up not going to Monroe to look at dresses or visit Grandmother..and Roy backed out so we didn’t go to Monroe. And now I’m grounded. After I fought with Rachel, I called and cried to Jeff…and then, I went to Jeska’s and we sat on the floor and cried together about everything for a while. This has been the worst start to a year yet. Roy’s daddy, Jeska’s papaw for two important things and then there’s these little bitty DRAMA stupid girls. It’s ALWAYS the same ones. It is SO childish! But, I just think that if someone needs space, i’ll give them as much as they’d like. I don’t want to make a friendship that doesn’t exist. I don’t really understand where this crap came from, but it just sprung up this morning and today has been shot. And, I’m grounded for the rest of my life. (Also Roy’s fault)
Jeska and Jeff are on their way to Winnsboro to buy a trampoline, methinks. I hope so. Not that I’ll be able to jump on it for a while, but yeah. Hmm, I think I’m going to go tan and walk in a lil bit…anything to get me away from this house. I told my Mom that I was going to turn into an alcoholic today. Or something. Blegh. I just hate people. I just want to see my Grandmother or JeffJeska. They love me…..so much. I don’t know what I’d do without ’em, i’m not gonna lie. Well, I guess I’m gonna go…*hugs* xoxo, hil*
My independence is calling my name, a doubtful voice divides my faith. My independence only hesitates, an unsure choice I can’t embrace. You’re gonna have to carve me, carve me from stone, right to the bone or I’ll end up alone, playing the role; of someone in control.
Life’s a journey not a destination. –Aerosmith (Amazing)
Grandmother is doing awesome. The surgery went completely great and she’s good! I woke up at 6 this morning and got ready and got to Grandmother’s about 6:50 and slept until 9:30 when the aunts decided to leave. And I basically babysat for the rest of the day. Me, Adam and Colby had a blast. We rode the fourwheeler, visited Dock, visited Mrs Doris and the babies, played in the woods, went to lunch at Sonic, played at the boat docks in the rocks and rolled down hills! Threeish, I went to the hospital with Rach and we visited. Aunt Sharon is stayin w/ Gmom tonight. When I got home from Rotown, I watched Tenacious D with the J-kids and rode around until 1050ish.
I’m so excited about tomorrow. Well..some of it. In the mornin, i’m goin to look at prom dresses (BLUH!) But then I’m going to spend the evening in Monroe with the posse + JJ!! It’s gonna be SO much fun!! Time to be CRAZYYY! Im SO happy about it. *yawn* I’m so tired. Let me get off to bed.
NIGHT! XOXO, hil*
My Grandmother’s surgery is at 730 in the morning! I have to wake up at 630 and keep the kids and BLAHH! It’s going to be a LONG day.
Yesterday was amazzzing! I ate crawfish with the posse! And we just spent a lot of much needed time together. I loved it. And the funniest thing was running into Coach Patterson! AT THE TANNING BED! I have so much fun with those kiiids. I’m sorry I just cant write today. Mr. Ralph is doin better tho.
Today was pretty great.
Me, Jeska, Sarah and Jeff stuffed ourselves into the Vette and went to Monroe. It was the greatest. We had lots of random drive around time and sitting in the car time while Sarah tried on her dress…and we got ice cream at the hospital! But we went to the mall and found Roy, Kami, Chris and Roy’s grandma… and we went to El Chico with them! AWE! It was fun! Cept I spilled my Sprite! LOL. I’m SUCH a klutz! Anyway, keep praying for Roy’s dad. They’re taking the biopsy tomorrow & everything..he needs your prayers a whole lot and so does Roy & Kami!!
By the way, I love my friends more than anything the world. Whenever everything crashes down on us, we still have each other..and it makes it easier.
Yesterday was fun. I went to Kaylin’s crawfish boil and I really enjoyed myself. I loOoOve Kaylin, Melissa, Will & the familia. They’re the best. I met two of Kaylin’s friends..Miranda ‘n Trey. Trey made me laugh..he’s a funny kid. Anyway, I had so much fun! I love my sister and her friends!
Then, I babysat. I babysat all freakin’ night. I got home at like 1:30. Nick woke me up and talked about nachos and I was like “WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?!?” But yeah, I watched Armageddon…and I cried my eyes out…it was so sad. They have a big screen TV and Dish now! I heart it lots.
Today = Walmart. Me, Jeska and Rachel went to Winnsboro to Walmart and bought face cleanser and deo. Yay me.
Well..I’m sitting here waiting for info on Roy’s dad. PLEASE pray for him.
So, this has been the longest day of my life and I’m really craving a nacho from Mobil.
It started out at like 7 something when I woke up and everything went crazy from there. I was running way late, so me and Jeska postponed school. I went over to her house about 8 and we studied Am. History a lil bit and chilled..and her mom brought us strawberry slushes and french toast sticks. And we finally ended up at school by 2nd hour. The rest of the day was pointless, so I forgot it. I got my report card though and I have, once again, all As and one B. The B is in Advanced Math this six weeks which is way better than English like last 6wks!
After school, Jeska & I hung out with Catfish, Jody & Seth for a bit in the parkin lot until we decided to leeave. We went and got my money from Mom and then went to Sonic and got FOOD. We met up with Jeff and rode around for a while until we ended up at the PARK..It was so much fun. We played forts..and attacked each others and played in the rocks. ❤
