HIYA.

So….today.

I stayed with Jeskalyn last night, so we didn’t wake up until…i’m gonna say about 12-1 or whenever Jeff came over and woke us up violently. We chilled and had a very awkward moment at Jeff’s. And then we went to the BANK and played with this coin sorter (WOW!!) I went home for awhile and helped my parents with the room and took a shower. Later, The Js came over and I made a BIG FIRE which was GREEN while they watched Mama’s Family and ate my food. Read Harry Potter at JeSka’s then went to Jeff’s.

We played CARDS!!! BS, black jack, speed and this STUPID game…SPOONS! AHHH! I HATE SPOONS! And…Simpsons Clue and watched The Simpsons and other random stuff…read exerpts of the Aerosmith biography and more fun stuff and left at like UNO oclock. So, now I’m…..sittttin’ at the hoebag’s house. Wondering if things will get bettah. Anyway, love yall.

WOOO.

Christmas was AMAZING. I got a freaking CAR. It was niiiiice. A chevy Cobalt..sand. Niiiiice! lol. Made me VERY happy!!! Our posse party was amazing….simply amazing. But Christmas was more about the presents. it was about the LOVEEEE! ❤

I’m sitting here with Jeff and Jeska and Thornton who is teaching Jeska guitar. She’s getting bettah. Today, we pulled up particle board all day and we’re going to be SO SORE tomorrow. I’m aging by the minute. I tried to play Twister today and it was pathetic. =[

I want Jeska to have sex with her guitar like Thornton. She’s cheating on her pretty little Starcaster. It’s been a good day. I SO WENT TO EAT BREAKFAST at Frances’, Sonic and McDonalds..lol. Toast, onion rings, a hashbrown, dr. pepper, rootbeer and a chocolate coke. HAHA.. Gosh, it’s been a good day. I don’t want Jeff to leave us tonight. It’s been a funnnnn day. But, I guess I’m out. LOVE you!

have you ever looked at a picture of yourself & seen a stranger in the background? it makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you; how many moments of other peoples` lives you’ve been in? were we a part of someone`s lives when their dream came true, or were we there when their dreams died. just think – you could be a big part of someone else`s life, and not even know it ❤

Today has been really indifferent. I had a lot of fun and it was like the whole school was in unity with one another. So, it was really fun. But, Coach Patterson quit today and I cried. It was -really- sad. Hmm, Sawyer became Mrs. Trevor Thomas today..and it was beautiful! And, Sam gave me my present..which is GREAT. A photo album, mirror, two things of awesome fingernail polish and two things of eyeliner, leggings and some GREAT earrings! I love it!!!!!!!! YAY, THANK YOU SAMBO!

Well…I’m out! ❤

So, I’m not going to say it’s been the best week, but I’d be lying if I said it’s been the worst. A lot of things have had me upset..I’ve been really sad…and then angry..and man, a lot of emotions. But today, something miraculous happened. I was like…you know what? I’M HAPPY. IT’S CHRISTMAS. And nobody is going to make me sad this time of year. Not a SINGLE person.

I went walking in the rain today with two of the best friends a girl could ever have. And it was so wonderful. It was just one of those times..that really makes you remember the good things life is made up of. I was cold and soaking wet…but I felt loved..and it’s such a good feeling.

I’m pretty much finished with -trying- to make people love me, too. I’m done with all that. Either you can be my friend or not, I’m not going to try to talk you into it.

Aaaand, God knows what’s going on and he has a plan…especially when I don’t. I’m so ready to get my $5 Sears gift card and do some major shopping ;] I am so happy. This is CHRISTMAS. This is about LOVE…FAMILY…FRIENDS…but most of all, it’s about Jesus. And, he is absolutely WONDERFUL. I can’t say it enough. MY GOD IS GOOD! =] And, YOU CAN’T MAKE ME SAD ANYMORE. I’m going to take this little moment in time to laugh at you. *……………..*

So, I’m pretty much going to go to sleep and dream happy dreams and wake up absolutely stoked about tomorrow! So…to the friends I really care about, -you know who you are-…I love you..and you’re the M to my M, the peanut to my butter, the x to my o..and all that jazz. *SmOoches*

You said the way my blue eyes shined,
Put those Georgia stars to shame that night
I said: “That’s a lie”
Just a boy in a Chevy truck,
That had a tendency of gettin’ stuck,
On backroads at night
An’ I was right there beside him all summer long
An’ then the time we woke up to find that summer’d gone

But when you think: Tim McGraw,
I hope you think my favorite song
The one we danced to all night long:
The moon like a spotlight on the lake
When you think happiness,
I hope you think: “That little black dress”
Think of my head on your chest,
An’ my old faded blue jeans
When you think Tim McGraw,
I hope you think of me

September saw a month of tears,
An’ thankin’ God that you weren’t here,
To see me like that
But in a box beneath my bed,
Is a letter that you never read,
From three summers back
It’s hard not to find it all a little bitter sweet,
An’ lookin’ back on all of that, it’s nice to believe:

But when you think: Tim McGraw,
I hope you think my favorite song
The one we danced to all night long:
The moon like a spotlight on the lake
When you think happiness,
I hope you think: “That little black dress”
Think of my head on your chest,
An’ my old faded blue jeans
When you think Tim McGraw,
I hope you think of me

And I’m back for the first time since then:
I’m standin’ on your street,
An’ there’s a letter left on your doorstep,
An’ the first thing that you’ll read:

Is: “When you think: Tim McGraw,
“I hope you think my favorite song”
Some day you’ll turn your radio on,
I hope it takes you back to that place
When you think happiness,
I hope you think: “That little black dress”
Think of my head on your chest,
An’ my old faded blue jeans
When you think Tim McGraw,
I hope you think of me
Oh, think of me,
Mmmm 

You said the way my blue eyes shined,
Put those Georgia stars to shame that night
I said: “That’s a lie”

I’ve gotten most of my shopping done and I feel really good about this Christmas. It’s going to be AMAZING.

You know..only like 2% of the world’s women think they’re sexy.

Seriously. I was just reading statistics and I read that.

DANGIT.

It’s been such a bad day. I’m just glad my week is over with. I was supposed to stay with Sam tonight, but she’s in Monroe with her family. Jeska didn’t want to stay with me because she was busy and had a lot to do, but Jeff’s over there. Guess she wasn’t too busy.

Eh, I’m just kinda lonely. My parents are in Monroe and so is Rachel & Dock. So I’m alone….have been alone for hours….and I just feel bad. I don’t know, I just feel really let down. Guess I’ll talk about my plans. Tomorrow, I’m volunteering at the nursing home at 2 with Jeska unless she has other plans. I missed Columbia Height’s Christmas party and I’m really mad at myself for putting my plans in the hands of other people again. Wooo. Tomorrow night is my family Christmas party and I’m going unless my plans change in the Lizzie McGuire department. Sunday is going to be SO busy. I have church at 10, eating at Uncle Earl’s at 1, contemp. service at 4, practice about 5ish, play that night….AHHH!

I need somebody to hold my hand tonight. I’m sorry I’m being lame….forgive me.

“no matter how careful you are, there’s going to be the sense
you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin
that you didn’t experience it at all. there’s that fallen heart feeling
that you rushed right through the moments
where you should’ve been paying attention.”

But I see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And thats why I love you
So dont be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Like a rainbow

Hi.

I think I was going to update this weekend, but then I just got really bored because nobody ever comments me anyway. Well, this weekend was one of the best weekends I’ve had in a really long time. My parents were out of town, so we pretty much just hung out all weekend with no care in the world. (The Osse, because Roy was at his speech tournament) So anyway, I had a fantastic weekend. I did a few things I could’ve got in major trouble for, but it’s all part of being a kid, right? No matter what happens, it’s all in the excuse of “being young” if nobody finds out and the house is spotless when the parentals arrive.

I got to see some really fun people this weekend and it made me really genuinely happy. And I got to hear the lovely stories of Justin Carr and Pengiun, so that made my whole weekend. And I -almost- got to watch SELENA!!! haha. I loOove my Selena. So anyway, amazing weekend that I’ll remember for years to come. Yesterday was subpar (whatever that means.) Jeska’s great grandpa had to be rushed to the ER last night, so after church, we went up there and spent a lot of time in the waiting room with food machines, the Saints game, a crazy man and Coach Johnson from the JR high. “SWEET!”

Today was a pretty good day except that it was very hot. I felt really bad–like I couldn’t even breath all day. I’m so tired of hot weather. I need snow! ❤ Snow, snow, come visit me, Louisiana is waiting patiently. So anyway, I’m about to go to Mrs. Mary’s house to practice for the Christmas play Sunday. (Ahhhhh!) See you guuuys later.

xoxo, hil*

such a cliche, but true….I heard this life is overrated, well I hope that it gets better as we go – Three Doors Down

This is a fantastic weekend. And I don’t wanna miss a thing.

I’m so ready for Christmas.