There’s not many things I can say for sure these days, but I do know that drama is rising up out of the shadows again. But, this time, I can’t really express to you how much I just don’t mind. It’s not really affecting me one way or the other. The only thing that is bothering me is that I’m bored with school! It’s not even really that stressful, but it is in little ways that add up to craziness. But, there are just as many little good things as little bad things! Or more! I got Hawaiian bread today. And church was fun. I know this is random, but I’m about to make Tiffany Williams a Christmas card, I think. I sent off a couple last night. Mrs. Vickie got hers today and she cried!! (AW!) So, my life is actually pretty dang fabulous. Ahhh, it’s ten o’clock! There’s so much to do! I can’t just be sitting here! (I’m wearing Valentine’s Day socks on, oh yes. Be jealous…be jealous…beeee mine ❤

So, did anybody tell you about that one time….? Mm-hmm, I didn’t think so! *SMUAH*

I had a really amazing weekend. Friday, I went to the Christmas Gala at Northwestern con mi familia y Jesica. It was good and I loved it a lot..and we ate at the wonderful Trail Boss!!!! I spent yesterday with my homiesssssss. Went to Jeff’s and watched Garfield and then played Nintendo 64 and he beat me a hundreds of times. Then we met up with Jeska..and played hide and seek all day. And ran around down town Columbia on foot. (My lungs still hurt.)

The Christmas parade was lots of fun. I got to spend time with people I had miSSed!! (Penguin, Catfish, Justin Carr, Peigen, Ashley Rogers ‘n Brian, Jessica Girod, Will, Kaylin, Kyle..and other kids) The fireworks were sooo romantic and wonderful. (Too bad for me-lol.) But anyway…..yep yep! It was so much fun..and I ran into a sign. IT HURT SO BAD! But I played it off like it didn’t-lol. Absolutely hilarious but hurtttttt. We went to Johnnys later and chilllled. ROY SHOWED UP! YAY! I had a wonderful time at Johnnys. I love mi amigos! They’re FANTABULOUS! Esp those kids I never seeeeee~

But yeah today was so much Christmas! I got a Christmas tree, we sang Christmas at church…and other stuff! We had hot chocolate at Grandmother’s. And it was great because Jessica took her first Lord’s supper tonight and everything is just so happy today!! I LOVE IT! Well see yall later!

I’m absolutely at a loss for words.

Life turns around so fast.

Shes not like that now. She knows better.
She knows now that people lie, and promises
can be broken as quick as they’re made.
She understands that she might never be loved

& he plays the guitar and sings a song of a sad hopeless love. The thing is, he’s n e v e r been in love but, the audience buys every word

She hopes he’ll see the real girl,
the one behind the quiet and self
conscious girl, the one who loves
her friends more than life itself and
laughs at things just because she
can and thinks life is all about
having the time of your life everyday.

Life is about those summer days and the sand between your toes and the smiles on your face. It’s about comfy couches, rainy days and those late night talks. It’s about top down rides and wind in your face, those are the moments you’ve never felt so alive. It’s about finding someone to hold onto and knowing they’re not holding anything back. It’s about holding hands, and pressing lips, giving it your best and having no regrets. Life isn’t only about the destination but the journey that gets us there

Don’t waste your time worrying about boys– boys will come and go. Don’t waste your time caring about the people who don’t like you — chances are you don’t like them either. Don’t waste your time worrying if people are talking about you — you affected their lives, they didn’t affect yours. Waste your time with friends — live for the moment, laugh often, be immature, do anything and everything. If it’s something you’ll regret in the morning, sleep late & when you wake up, laugh about it with your friends, because your friends are what matter most. When you have your friends…you have everything.

There you see her
Sitting there across the way
She don’t got a lot to say,
But there’s something about her.
And you don’t know why,
But you’re dying to try
You wanna,
Kiss the girl

 

 

So, I think everything is going good. Me & Jeska went to church tonight and hung out with JJ, as always. We’ve decided that we want to take him under our wing and make him our new little brother! He’s a sweet kid, really. But anyway…everything has been good. I think I bombed an American History test today, but I’m not worried yet. I have to memorize the polyatomic ions by Friday. I’m TERRIFIED!!!! I have such a bad memory!! But I can manage, I’m sure. Jesus help me! lol. I’m really happy because I’m getting freedom! I can drive now, so it’s fun. I’m not allowed to “run wild” as my mother puts it, but I can go tan and everything now. Yesterday, I went to piano by myself for the first time ever. Big milestone in my life! And me and Jeska watched the Charlie Brown Christmas special yesterday!!! And we talked about Christmas!

The NSU gala is Friday and I -think- we’re going. I hope so, anyway. Me ‘n Jeskalyn really wanna go and I wanna try to drop by Sam’s! 🙂 I miss her already. And..SATURDAY is the Christmas parade and I am -SOOO- excited! Christmas is soooo great. Next weekend, I’m going to be home alone b/c the parentals are gonna go to Arkansas…so I’m gonna BURN STUFF IN THE FIREPLACE! HECK YES! But anyway…I don’t know. I don’t really have much to say. I’m ready for Christmas and everything!!!! ❤

 

I’ll tell you all about my trip. Okay, we left about 7:30ish on Saturday morning and made it to Lufkin and then went on to Conroe. I rode with Dock and Rachel and that was an experience. NoOoOo lie. We stopped at Walmart in Many and I took a picture of a random guy with an AC/DC beanie on!! haha it was so funny because he had NO idea! GO ME! But yeah..on to Conroe, TX. It was amazingly beautiful. We stayed on the 15th floor and the scene from the balcony looking over the water was undescribable. It was a really nice hotel with mints on the pillows and everything. I fell in love with that lake. So anyway, we went to the wedding at 4. (Right on time, I may add. 4:00) And it started a few minutes late. It was so beautiful. I didn’t have my camera, but it was absolutely gorgeous. I’m sure Coty will send us pics!! He was the best man and my favorite cousin looked absolutely dashing! Chelsie was a bridesmaid and she was beautiful, as well. Monte and Marie’s eyes were sparkling. And it was about a ten minute wedding ceremony, but soo beautiful and wonderful. Then, we had the reception. It was nice. We had BARBEQUE. lol Texas Theme’d. It was all really nice and everything. But I was pretty lonely, because it takes me a while to warm up to family. But, I ended up talking to Coty for a while and I had fun. I made him ask a girl to dance, lol. It was too cute! And there was this guy…and he was ADORABLE! Not like hott–but adorable. His name was..John, I think. He’s Marie’s brother. And he’s real cute. Didn’t get to talk to him though. But he seemed sweet and his toast was real cute. And I met David’s girlfriend who was SO CRAZY. lol She fits in with our family real well. And Anthony’s girlfriend is crazy, too! She’s super funny. Um…Marie is going to be a really wonderful addition to the family. I’m very proud to call her my cousin-in-law! And Monte is such a dork–but one of my favorites, as always. My mom only danced to a couple songs..lol. And Grandmother didn’t dance at all. It was depressing. But I did enjoy myself. I rolled Monte’s car with Coty. We had fun doing that. But the hotel people saw us steal their toilet paper and yelled at me!!! But we RANN!! hahaha it was so hilarious.. Everybody drank last night except for me and my parents, lol. But I needed to by when the night was over–laugh out loud.

I took some pictures with my phone and I’ll put ’em on here when I figure out HOW! Blahh, I’ve just been SO tired this past week. I need a good hot shower and some SLEEEEEP tonight. Tomorrow is gonna be a kick, i’m sure. What does “it’s gonna be a kick” mean anyway? Who even says that? Who am I?

Aww you wanna know something sweet? Jeska and Jeff called me last night when I just arrived at the hotel to go bed and was singing “Livin’ on a Prayer” reallly loud and obnoxiously. They were listening to Freebird and called me to let me listen. Aren’t they the greatest? Well, I’m out. I had a good trip, was safe..and all that. So, thank Jesus!! And I only left my purse one time..at the reception..lol Chantea brought it to me this morning! Well BYE!

Hola! It’s been a great day. I woke up at 5 and got ready to go shopping with the greatest kids ever–Jeska & Jeff. And we spent a few hours in Monroe. There wasn’t a huge crowd and it was decent shopping! I actually didn’t buy anything. But it was all fun. I had so much fun at Antique Alley today! In the back of one of the stores, there is a room filled with CLOTHES and it is like a vintage heaven! I fell in love! lol I plan on going back and rescuing many of those old dresses and jackets! Definitely Jeff’s jacket! It’s all great. And I’m going to buy RINGS and I’m just SO excited about my new vintage clothes obsession. hehe

I spent the whole day with those kids. We went to Fred’s and Family Dollar, played in the rocks at the boat docks, layed around in the room, listened to their outstanding record, and burnt a couple things (like my deodorant!) Even if we’re not doing anything at all, it’s always the best day just us being together. We’re soooo cute! But anyway, I’m just sitting here now. There’s not much to say actually. I’m going to be heading out for Texas at 6:30 in the morning. I was supposed to leave today, but they had a change of heart or something such. Tomorrow will probably be long, stressful, uncomfortable and all of the other adjectives that go with riding 6 hours in a car with my mom, dad, and Grandmother. But optimism tells me it’s worth it! For Monte and Marie! 🙂

Well, I imagine I’ll go to bed now..since diet dr. pepper is making my throat and head hurt and I need to take a shower to prepare for tomorrow. Later.

we fall like shooting stars and autumn leaves
staying up later than the streetlights
promising what never could be
i cant be anything without you
i cant be anything without you by my side

I feel like I’m walking roads right now with no directions. But that doesn’t make me nervous because I’m not by myself.

A friend is like a teddy bear; you hug it & cry to it when you`re sad..you talk to it when you feel alone..it doesn`t matter what color, size or condition it`s in, it`s there for you no matter what

It’s funny how you never know
when it will be the best day of your life.

People said I’ve changed so much.
Well here’s the honest truth, I grew up.
I stopped letting people push me around.
I learned that you can’t always be happy.
I accepted reality.

let’s run away to a place where
the air tastes like rain
and the sun shines like Sunday morning.
you bring your laugh
and i’ll bring my sense of humor,
and we can taste the days, one week after another.

“Some people are just born with tragedy in their blood.”
-Donnie Darko

kiss me slow
and hold me tight

It’s been a really great day!

I got my drivers license! So now I can DRIVE! And my mom won’t have to come get me at Jeska’s!! YAAAAY! And I went shopping with Jeska..and I got Roy’s present and Rachel’s present and two little gifts for Jeff and one little gift for Jeska! And I bought an outfit at Old Navy. AND I GOT A NEW CELL PHONE! (7581097, call it kids!) It’s a RAZR and I love it. SO. MUCHO PHONE CALLS NOW! I’m EXPECTING EM!

So yeah, I had lots of fun. REALLY FUN! And I got Starbucks..Ooh, fabulous! It was just a great day. Me & my hoebag…had fun! TUNZO FUNZO! But the real reason I’m blogging is to say…..HAPPY THANKSGIVING..AND CALL MY NEW PHONE!

xoxo, hil*

You know, I really like The Fray. Just thought I’d throw that one out there. They make me smile! But anyway, today was such a waste of my time! I went to the dentist and that was that. Then, I went to my Grandmother’s and then I went driving around town and then I went to the grocery store for Grandmother and then I went back to her house and then to my house and then to her house again. *Sigh* It was a really boring day.

But I went to Jeska’s later because I missed her SOO MUCH and I had a great night! The three of us burnt a whole bunch of crap for a while and then we went to town. I bought a frappachino, a yoo-hoo and a hot chocolate from the store. Oh, wait–THE HOT CHOCOLATE WAS FREE. lol Silly Jessica. Silly Silly! But we went to Popeyes and bought food and played Mama for a while. And we just jammed for a while. But we spent a lot of time at Clarks. Me & Jeff invented this game..called BUMPER SWINGS..and it was great. It was the most fun game EVER.. and then, our chains got tangled up or whatever and we just kinda went *BAM* and fell..and it was just our feet resting on the swings…lol It was completely hilarious..and we were both laughing so hard that we couldn’t breathe and had no strength to do anything but lay there. ahahaha. But then we saw DRUGGIES. And we ran off into the warmth of the truck and jammmmmmed to Buck Cherry, Hinder, Nickelback..buncha bands like that..it made me laugh. =] 

Tomorrow, I’m going shopping again. I have to buy something to wear to the wedding and I’m going to try to buy Roy’s present if I can find it! Jeska saw it at K-mart, but we don’t have one of those! Last time I was at K-mart…I almost got kidnapped! (And then I did get kidnapped and I had to feed their ALLIGATORS!! AHH!) (hehe..Will!) No idea what I’m going to get Jeska or Sam. I’m soo dreading this weekend! Nobody is coming with me. But it’ll be fine. I’ll just spend a whole lot of time with my Dad. It’ll be fun. I love the optimistic Hilary! She’s a fun kid. Always knows that there’s something better! ❤ Hrm…

EVERYBODY HATES THE POSSE AGAIN! But I guess they never stopped. Oh well, never regret the things that make you SMILE!!!!! We spoke of our big road trip after graduation tonight. Jeff brought it up. I’m so ready. It’s going to be fabulous. We’ve got so many plans…I just hope they last. We can do this..I believe in us. We have this power…..NEVER UNDERESTIMATE THE POWER OF TEENAGE ANGST AND TUNES IN OUR BUCKETS! And the posse…POSSE POWER FOREVER!!

stay true and be you
live life to the fullest
and never look back
theres a reason for everything-
love till it hurts
laugh till you cry
have a little faith

 

WOO!! Howdy!! How ARE you?? I’m GREAT! ABSOLUTELY! TEN TIMES BETTER THAN I WAS TWO DAYS AGO! So yes, I am a very happy girl. What made me so happy, you ask? Well, I realized a couple things the other night (as I might have mentioned before) and everything is just getting better! :]

Yesterday was a good day. I got to hide in somebody’s closet for the first time in my life. Ahaha…I definitely laughed a whole lot. So hmm…church was good. Sunday school was great. We ate after church & me and Rach ate with Bro. Keith & Mrs. Mary. I don’t know where Sam was but I missed her. Me & Rachel were commenting on how we missed having friends at church–lol. I love my sister. Anyway, after church I hung around the house and took a lot of my stuff out of Rachel’s room..but now it’s sitting in boxes in this room and looks super trashy. Gotta do something about that tomorrow. About 7ish, I went to Jeff’s and watched Martina & Kelly Clarkson sing a Reba song and it was GREAT! And I carried my tune around in a bucket. MY BUCKET IS GETTING HEAVY! WHAT IF IT GETS TOO HEAVY? Then I won’t be able to carry my tune in a bucket anymore!! Hrmm…then we went to Rachel’s and watched this Nirvana special and i LOOVED it. Even though the guy was old, fat and looked like a school teacher. ahaha=] We tried to go to the park but the cops followed us, so we just went home.

ToOoOoday, I spent three hours of my life at Tracey’s while my mom got her hair did. Seriously the longest thing I’ve ever had to sit through. I spent a majority of my time in the car listening to Christmas music, making Christmas lists and being very chilly. I went to Monroe about 2:30 and slept in the car for an hour while Rachel & my mom looked at furniture in Ashley’s & Ivan’s. So we went to the mall and ate El Chico and I bought Jeff’s main present. And it was ON SALE! Uh-oh! Now, it means I have to buy him more small gifts. Anyway, I got my ACT results when I got home…and I made a 24. I did very well and I was proud of myself. My lowest was, of course, Math..and I made a 20 in it. Boo. But I’ll take it again in April with my homies and possibly do better. Agreed?

Jeska’s in DA and I miss her like crazy! She’ll be home some time tomorrow afternoon. So I assume I’ll spend time with her on Wednesday and then have loads of Thanksgiving fun on Thursday, maybe go early shopping Friday and then leave for TX about lunch time and have lots of free time to read Harry Potter! :] I’m still not positive if Sam is coming or not. I really hope she does so I’m not alone.

I had a really good talk with Jeff last night. We were talking about mi amigos and who they are to me and when he said what he said, it just hit me. He was absolutely correct! Some of my friends are the ones who pick me up when I’m down and help me to be a better person and keep me out of trouble and will love me unconditionally and all of the wonderful things about a friend. The others..are the ones who I can always count on to get in trouble with me and will always slap me in the face if I need it (and even if I don’t). I really like that. Some of them are the ones that when I say, “My head has been hurting for a week,” they’ll say, “OMG. You need to go to the doctor. You might have CANCER!” The others are who will say, “Will you shut up complaining already?” <33 And I love them both!

Well, I’m out now….I love my XANGA readers!! But it’s really just good to write. SEE YALL! xoxo, hil*

Someday we’ll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we’ll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we’ll know
Why I wasn’t meant for you