Life is GREAT! The fair was amazing. Read more, check out my latest blog on Myspace. I’m going to the fair tonight with Jeska, Sam, Heath & Roy while Jeffro is in Arkansas and will be at his Aerosmith concert tomorrow! I’m SO happy for him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Well, CATCHAYALATA!!

Life is amaz-zazing. (It’s a joke, get it, yo.)

It’s almost Halloween and almost Christmas…and almost out of school and almost GREAT!

Oh boy yeah…..life is great. Nothing has changed except my attitude!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

THANK YOU JESUS!!!!

So what if we lost? Now we’re just more prepared for next game.

Coach Cross is back for a while. It’s fun, really. Sociology is the best class ever.

Jeff tells good scary stories. You ever heard the one about the clown? It’s true..I promise.

Tequila loves me even if you don’t.

But it’s alright now…..

Peace.

I lied…it’s a perfect October day.

Outside, there’s this profound fragrence of caramel apples.

I turned down babysitting…..to hang out with my friends.

Supposed to have a Freddy night.

Loads of October fun. I’m excited.

I’m excited!

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I?
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference
The Road Less Taken, by Robert Frost

Everything is gradually getting worse instead of better.

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I miss Coach Cross already.

Today’s Dawn’s 18th birthday. Happy birthday babe.

I miss summer when it was just the three of us running wild in the hot summer air under the bright summer stars. I miss no worries and careless lazy days….

I’m tired of school, I’m tired of -EVERYTHING-.

But there’s always a light at the end of the tunnel. And one good day can rule out a whole week of this hell.

….It wears me out.

the friends who grew up with you
deserve a special respect. the ones who
stuck by you shoulder to shoulder, in a
time where nothing was certain, all life
lay ahead, and not every road led home.

My cousin in law got in a really bad wreck yesterday and they airlifted him to Shreveport. He might’ve broken his neck or a bone in his neck and he’s losing a lot of blood, so please pray for him, okay? Thank you.

Plus, life sucks…so bad. And my granola bar tastes like cotton candy. *dies*

I miss summertime. ..when all of the world was yours and mine. 🙂

Oh well, i’m off to school.

So, this weekend…has been like miserable, but wonderful at the same time. Homecoming was great. Fawn got Queen and Mo got Princess. It was pretty and everybody looked beautiful. I had a whole lot of fun all day long being crazy and random and stuff like that. I went to the Homecoming game that night and we won baaaaad. I’m not sure of the score..because me, Jeff and Jeska got really down..and we just up and left. It was a really bad night, so once we left, we had a lots of fun with a little bit of fire.

Saturday..was GREAT. I had to get up way early and go to Monroe with my mom and sister. I was aggrivated from the start. Everything SUCKED. I was just in a bad mood.. The stupid lady at Victoria’s Secret made me SO mad because she was an IDIOT. So, I was just in this HORRIBLE mood and I left my familia and walked off on my own. I was planning to go to Hot Topic, but it was too loud in there, so I was gonna go to Spencer’s but, I had to pass Romancing the Stone on my way and I decided to stop in there. And guess who I saw….JEFF! It made me super happy. So, I bought him and me some incense and an incense burner thing. I told him it was destiny that I saw him, so he told me it was destiny for me to buy him that thing, lol. When he left, I saw DUSTY from ONE WAY!!! Awww! lol. He waved at me cuzza I was wearin a One Way shirt! lol AWW! It was SOOO great to see him. At Wal-mart, i bought Dawn’s bday present, halloween cards, a knee brace, deodorant, a new toothbrush..and pretty much a whole bunch more stuff.

When I got home, I straightened my room and then headed back to Jeska’s to go to Monroe again. Me, her, Jeff ‘n Roy all got to go to Monroe together and have tunzo funzo. It was really GREAT us all going. We went to the Mall and Roy bought a CD at FYE, but we mainly just walked around and chilled. We saw Worm at F.Y.E. and that made me happy..and then we saw MATT ROBERTS! I was SO excited to see him!! I’d missed him so much! AWE! THENNN…we went to Waffle House. Billy Ray had moved to another waffle house! WE WERE SO DEPRESSED…but then, HE SHOWED UP! It was….FATE! And after he left, JUSTIN CARR SHOWED UP! Him & Ashley…Lauren..Ashley….lol ARE SOO SWEET! They make my day! So, all in all, it was a great day. I got to spend it with most of the people I love the most. And, I got to talk to Sam on the phone for a little bit! See, it included my favorite people!

I’ve cried a lot this weekend..and there’s been even more times when I wanted to cry. But, I’m always held together by my friends. -Always-…Hold on if you feel like letting go, Hold on..it gets better than you know ❤

When autumn comes,
It doesn’t ask
It just walks right in,
Where you left it last
&& you never know when it starts,
Until there’s fog inside the glass
Around your summer heart.

There was no one
But you and me
We would hide
From passing cars
And we would have the
Summer Stars

As long as you can find the stars,
or even imagine them,
you can convince yourself you don’t feel lonley.
       –True Confessions of a Heartless Girl

Oh buddy. It’s been a freakin’ week. And it’s not even Friday yet. Oh man. I stressed all yesterday and all night long. I didn’t even get online yesterday, so you know it was bad stuff. I had a Chemistry test this morning and now that its over, I’m not thinking about it..until I get my grade and drown in my tears. *cough* I mean..=] But, it was semi-okay ish yesterday. Me, Jeska, Jeff and Roy went over to Jeska’s and studied for ever. Made me happy. :] But I don’t know if I like being the neutron! lol. So, yeaahh. Piano was okay, too. I didn’t really get to play much because like I said, I was stressing majorly. After we got finished studying, we watched GNR ‘n ACDC dvds and stuff. We’re such cool kidssss. And I didn’t get to bed until midnight. Shooooooot mee!

Today was semi okay ish again. I took my Chem, Spanish & American History tests and no idea how I did. I know I bombed the AH one and did good on the spanish…so yeah. I’m real scared of my Chem results. *shudders* After school, we got sonic fooooood (like Chinese foooooooood from Dude, where’s my car?) and then spent the rest of the time piled up in Jeska’s room while me & Jeff studied for Advanced Math and watched Aerosmith. Roy came over and then we all fought for EVER. And I got absolutely ZERO injuries. (Was the only one who didn’t tho, lol.) I’m gettin’ tougher. =] So now I’m here…being sleepy.

I read my entry on here from last year this day..and I was a recovering emoooo who was still obsessed with HIM and BAM. hehe. But, every five seconds I’d hear a song I liked on the radio and flip out..”OOH, IT’S WAKE ME UP WHEN SEPTEMBER ENDS!” or “SUGAR, WE’RE GOING DOWN SWINGING!” hehe. Now I’m listening to “fallin in love is so hard on the kneeees” lol. From Fall Out Boy to Aerosmith…I think I made a good transition! lol. Still gotta love my Fall Out Boy though! I -always- will.

Today was SEE YOU AT THE POLE! day. I didn’t see you there. lol BUT I WENT! Oh, yeah. Me ‘n Jeska were the first HS kids there. We had about 20-25 kids there, I’d say. Enough for us all to pray aloud though. It was just so great standing in a circle with all of those kids that I love so much. I respect them all for coming out this morning. 🙂 Hope all of you were seen at the pole!

So, there’s only three days left of September. SOOO SAD!!!! Homecoming is Friday. Today was TWIN DAY!! The posse wore black shirts, but me and Jeff wore the same black shirt. and jeans and black converse! PIMMMPPPED OUUTTT! So sexy, I know! Errbody had twin feet<3 Tomorrow is PAJAMA day. I’m oh so excited! LAZY DAY! Soooo…im OUTT!

yeah

I’m sitting here listening to Staind. Everything Changes. It’s probably not the best song for me to be listening to. I’m actually supposed to be either at lunch or in Spanish 2 right now. But, I had to come home. I couldn’t concentrate..I couldn’t breathe in that school. I feel so drained…like every little bit of me has been drained out. I haven’t been sleeping well. It’s that time of the year..my favorite time of year..that brings everything back and makes me realize that everything…does change.

Last night, I went and saw Mercy Me and Audio Adrenaline in Bossier. It was a really awesome show. I had so much fun..and just an amazing time praising God. Everything was perfect. Seth had so much fun, it being his favorite band and all. I had a lot of fun with Audio A..but it was like one of their last shows and it was really sad when they sang the Goodbye song. Almost cried….seriously. I -loved- the My Father’s House song! I had SOO much fun with it. 🙂 It was also really cool being with 4 of my best girls, Rachel, Sam, Jeska & Kylie. But, we didn’t get home until 1:20 or so. Once we got home, I had to do my lab report and then take a shower. By the time I got to bed, it was almost 2:30. I woke up at 6 this morning and I realized a whole lot of stuff. So, I went to school and finally got through Chemistry (although I’m not too sure how.) Advanced Math was hell for me. I couldn’t concentrate on a single thing. I kept trying and the numbers would just swirl together… So, in Coach Cross’ class, I got him to call the office and now I’m at home.

I don’t like the feelings and the memories flooding back by the handful. When I close my eyes, I just get the feeling of the end of September. But really…life is just running away from me at such a quick pace. I don’t wanna miss it. Coming back to this September takes me back to all of the Septembers in the past….September and October have always been my favorite months…and contain the most fun and the most memories. It’s just something about that cool weather. I miss old Septembers. But, everything is going to be okay. I am happy, I’m just tired. The reason I’m not sleeping much is just because I’m busy…..or because it’s all in my head. But everything -is- perfect, I do know that. It’s just me that needs to change along with the seasons. I think I’m ready.

From every tear that had to fall from my eyes
From every day I wondered how Id get through the night
From every change life has thrown me
Im thankful for every break in my heart
Im grateful for every scar
Some pages turned, some bridges burned
But there were lessons learned

No life is a waste. The only time we waste
is the time we spend thinking we’re alone.

Years from now i won’t remember every
friday night or the things that made us
laugh so hard til our stomachs hurt, but
i will always remember that they were
the ones who was always there.

In life, God does not give you the people you want. He gives you the people you need ; to teach you, to hurt you, to love you, to make you laugh…to make you exactly the person you should be.

you learn a lot about people
when you listen to the songs
that mean something to them.

Okay, since I am oh-so-scared-I’m-shaking-in-my-socks about being a JOCKER, there was ONE icon and ONE quote from some chick’s site. Blinkblacktears with some x’s in it or something. Oh well, it’s not important! Have a good day!

Well, tonight was amusing.

It’s been literally the worst week…so today really made me happy. Everything has gone wrong this week pretty much. But, we went to the game last night and beat St. Mary’s 49-7 which was nice. But yeah..today was pretty much crap. I fell asleep in Bordelon -and- McIlwain’s class. I was bored and tired, so sue me. But I got a lot of reading in..go me and reading AR! And I said something semi-rude about Mrs. Jones in front of her..blah. So, it was just pretty much a bad day..because Journalism got my blood pressure all up. *long dreadful sigh* So, as you see, I was stressed. When I left the school, I told Jeska that I needed to take a hot relaxing bath. And I had that relaxing bath, but it was in the form of walking through the graveyard in the dark with my posse. aha. The wind was blowing and it felt so good. *long peaceful sigh* So, I walked around town and put my feet in the Ouachita river. Oh yeah, we also sat on the levee and watched the band at the watermark for like a song and half and they weren’t oh so wonderful, so we left.

Last night was good though seeing my Samantha Anne and Julie and their friends. I missed my Sambo oh so much! She rocks at life<3! SO..I’ve gotta do an English project, Sociology paper and Chem. lab report tomorrow. REMIND ME! But I’m getting up in four hours to go running and then get ready to go to the Newspaper by nine. I’m oh so excited. I’m also exhausted from this week. Like..exhausted to where my eyes are gradually closing, but I’m keeping them open with diet cokes and sunflower seeds. Eh, sleep is kicking in. I’ll catch you guys on the flip side…(if I’m still awake at 1 tomorrow.) LOOOOVE YOUUUU!

TAKE CHANCES . .
-tell the truth
-date someone totally wrong for you
-say no
-spend all of your cash
–fall in love
-get to know someone random
–be random
-say i love you
-get angry
-be the first to say i`m sorry
-scare yourself at least once a day
-sing out loud
–smile often
-dance in front of the mirror
-laugh at a stupid joke
-cry
-get revenge
–tell someone how much they mean to you
-let someone know what they are missing
-laugh till your stomach hurts
LIVE LIFE . .

It’s been a normal day in the wonderful world of Hilary. Nothing exciting..but every day is just a treasure! We did our Spanish thing and it sucked badly. Mrs Bordelon and Mrs McIlwain put me to sleeeeeep. School is KILLING ME! I need Jeska-music-fourwheeler-hoodie-coldweater time, please! So yeah, school was school and then we went to Francis’ and ate! It was mega fun stuff. I like spending time with just me, Jeska and her mommy. Then, we came home and listened to music..and it was GREAT! We discussed out certain songs bring break so much emotion and stuff. Hrmm, we voted for Homecoming today and I voted for the Lucero. Homecoming is happening way too fast this year! I -love- Homecoming week! It’s so random and unexpected. I went to piano earlier and actually played. I told Suebelle that I’d begin practicing because I need something for me to enjoy…I wanna take voice lessons..or guitar lessons..or something crazy.

Heey…I miss Dawn. Dawn…do you have a new number or something? Did I ever send you those books? I forget! I MISS YOUUUU!

Well..I’m gone!! ❤

i’ve finally learned what life is all about.
hanging on when your heart has had enough,
and giving more when you feel like giving up

i`m the kinda girl that
falls into her music
dives into a scene
and runs away from love.

it’s being comfortable.
it’s being able to laugh
at the stupidest things,
it’s being able to find
the funniest things out of nothing.
it’s having the best time with
eachother, and making the best memories.