Author: shoesluvsjesuschrist

Aaron left today……and I don’t know what the future will hold. I’ve been crying since like 7:30. And I’ll cry until I see him again. How will I sleep? How will I do anything? I don’t think i’m going to eat until I hear from him…..even if it’s like 3 weeks. He better call me soon.


  I can’t believe he left. It’ll never be the same. He’s way too far away.


 


Theres something different about me. I have “popular” friends and some that aren’t so popular. Lots of people say I’m pretty but I don’t try to be. I don’t want to be the popular person with friends who are backstabbers to them, I want to be the person with great friends who will never hurt me. I don’t want to be the popular girl every guy wants to be with because she is sexy, I want to be the girl only one guy wants to get with because he thinks I’m beautiful inside and out. I don’t want to be the girl everyone wants to be, I want to be me.. the person no one else can be…


I’m really sad…but I had the greatest day. Here, imma try not to leave anything out. I went to Jessica’s and the guys were there. I read a letter Jim wrote Jessica in 2002. Then I read a Spanish dictionary. Aaron said Ethan was milky. Then I made Ethan a pretty birthday card that said “Have an awesometastic birthday!!” We sat around a lil bit switchin seats and all cuz we’re silly..Aaron sat on my footstool and drew me the HIM symbol…which is so great.


Then we got n the car. Now i’m talking about 6 people in a 5 seatin’ car. We were SOOO SCRUNCHED UP! Ethan was in the front. In the back it was Jessica, Tyler, Aaron & then me. Ethan didn’t buy me anything to drink so I pouted. But my buddy Tyler gave me his ice!! Yum Yum! Me & Aaron ate it of course like always with our ice..and he made me eat the pieces that were in his mouth again. And we poked each other all day. Even until like nighttime.


We got to the mall and decided we really didn’t wanna see a movie. We went to Spencer’s and hung out…then went to HOT TOPIC!!!!! I bought Tyler some HIM buttons and me a HIM button but I lost it..oh well. Aaron bought a HIM wallet. We went to Underground then. He bought a HIM beanie. It was hotttt. Then he fliiped me off. Yep, he did that. And I freaked out. So did the Chinese man behind the counter. So I killed him because the Chinese man said to! And I kicked him a million times also bc the chinese man said to. Don’t think he’s horrible because he flipped me off, either. Cuz he’s not.


Then we got fooooood. Ethan & Mrs Vickie got Chinese. Aaron, Jessica & Tyler got McDonalds. I got Chikfila. But I got unhungry so after half of my french fries and a chicken strip thing, so I gave it to Tyler. We then went to FYE…and had funnnn! Cuz Kurt Cobain is sexy. “Say he’s hott…just do it Aaron.” “He’s hott.” “I KNOW!!” And so then I was like FREAKING OUT cuz i wanted some coffee!!! Aaron said it’d be REALLY good so I begged him to walk with me…and then everybody came! Woo-hoo. Everybody follows Aaron, lol. We went to the Coffee Cafe and I got 2 frozen cappachinos and one iced one. We ended up throwing away the one with ice and Tyler drank the other frozen one. I bought that lil boy so much stuff today. He’s like my lil brother though. Could be my brother in law one day…….HAHAHA. That was so a joke.


We finally went outside and all that jazz….found Mrs Vickie. Piled up in the car. This time, Aaron sat on my “lappy” ..LOL It was soooo silly. Then we went to Target to buy blank cds….then got back in the car. He sat on me again cuz it was COMFY!! lol. We went to Sonic and I got some nasty sweet tea… The ride home was amazingly coool. We jammed…and I mean JAMMED! Mockingbird was a good jammin song lol. Listening to HIM was the best…Number one for Tyler. 3, 5 & 9 for Aaron..and 16 for me. Jessica sang number 3 really loud….and we all had a time crackin up. I cant wait to go listen to my cd. I hope it’s not in the car…which I know it is.


I’m officially a skank. I went to the gameroom. GAH IT WAS HORRIBLE! We all felt so skanky!! “Do you feel skanky?” “Yeeeeep.” “That’s cuz you are!” “Thanks Tyler…thanks.” It was fun though…the pool was great. Taking pictures was great. THE MUSIC GAVE US A GOOD LAUGH! We spent 75 cents on a song we all hated. Cuzz it played the wrong song-lol. Soooo hilarious. ‘I SWEAR I DIDNT PICK THAT ONE!’ “suuuuuure jessica.”


We got to the house and there’s a UHAUL in front of their house. Turns out, his mom and grandpa had it out…a big argument and now they’re going home tomorrow morning. I cried..so much. I tried to hold it in so he wouldnt feel bad..cuz he said people crying around him made him uncomfortable. But then I just busted…and he didn’t mind. He let me cry on his shoulder for a while and he hugged me alot. And he sat in my lap some more.


Then we went for a ride with everybody. He didn’t sit on my lap this time so I was kinda confused…but then we held hands. And it made life better. I still have butterflies. And i’m still crying. It was hard core amazing. I called him when I left Jessica’s and he was like Do you miss me yet? and i was like…..MMHMMM. He’s supposed to call me alot. And Tyler’s gonna write me, I hope. Tyler gave me a lil football to remember him. And Aaron gets his license in October….so yay. Ya know what that means??? It means he’s comin to see me, cuz i’m Hilary, hookers!! And Tyler’s comin too! I didn’t get to say bye to any of my girls. I assume I’ll catch them later.


This post is long enough. I just got a lotta more hurt poured on me by my girls…so i’m gone to cry and pray and be depressed and sleep….. if I can sleep that is….which I know I can’t. So I’m gone to lay in my bed and listen to Aaron’s favorite songs…..


“Don’t know that I will but until I can find me
A girl who’ll stay and won’t play games behind me
I’ll be what I am
A solitary man”


Tyler likes this one


“Kill me
I begged and love said no
Leave me
for dead and let me go
Kill me
I cried and love said no
Kill me
I cried and love said no”


I like ’em all.


BlueRainBliss: *hugs*
KoreanPirateCapN: *hugs*
KoreanPirateCapN: you are the best little sis ever
BlueRainBliss: youre the best big sis ever


BlueRainBliss: lol u think he looks skanky dontcha?
Argon Platypus: yep
Argon Platypus: lol
Argon Platypus: but i dno him


BlueRainBliss: And, you thought?
Carribeangurl05: he looks old


———-: wouldnt fall for a guy i had known for a week…especially if i knew he wasnt gonna be around
BlueRainBliss: you think I meant to?
BlueRainBliss: do you seriously think I meant to fall for him?
———-: doesnt really matter what i think…you did


^^that hurt^^ Rain, Smurfs & Fairytales, xoxo, hil*

Woo-hoo. Changed my AIM sn. BlueRainBliss.


The game almost made me cry. We lost 21-26. We did really good though esp. towards the end. We’ve gotten better. I bet Coach Middleton was worked up…..who cares about him.


I talked to my peoples today on the phone for like an hour today. It was….awkward for me. We’re going to the movies tomorrow to see the 40 yr old virgin! Woo-hoo. I’m excited.


Jessica needs to answer her telephone. I should’ve gone to 5th quarter. I saw Angela McDowell tonight.


Rain, Smurfs & Fairytales, xoxo, hil*

Woo-hoo. Hilary had a fun day! School was gay…then I went to Jessica’s (No WAY! lol)


We got up there n Kayla & Daisy came out! (Special & Ed! woohoo) Then everybody started pouring out and we had an awesome time. We went down to Jessicas and played ball in the garage again….Jessica hit Aaron in the face and i DIED laughing! Lots of hangin out…went over to their house again… Aaron’s mom made the comment that they couldn’t leave him in an empty house with us…wow. I felt horrible-lol.


We all fought like crazy today. He broke the skin on my arms twice!! And we were all screaming and pinching and hittin n killin each other! It hurt like crazy man! Pulling the hair on his arms was great..he was like freaking OUT…haha i loved it so much. He broke my bracelets. *dies* Yep, the jelly bracelets that are supposed to be like “sexual crap”…mmhmm. And then he died out laughing…and I got mad…for like a split second. And he was like “WOW I FINALLY DID IT!! YAY FOR ME!!” and i was like “you’re gay.” He chewed on them and beat me in the arm with them. And I tried to hit him in the face…woohoo. I’m good. Acting like a kid is great. “I’m soooo 17.” “and soo mature!” “are you kidding me?” “yeah….” “oh good”


Then as everyday, we had our ice fight!!!! Me, Aaron & Jessica sat on this lil metal couch thing and put ice down each others shirts n WOOHOO! Then Kayla, Tyler n Maegan showed up so we all scrunched up on this couch thing & Aaron was like on TOP of me..and I was eatin ice. He kept reaching his hand in my cup, putting the ice in his mouth, and putting it back in my cup!! Can we say GROSS? lol and i sooo ate it anyway and he laughed at me. I had so much fun today though…like more fun than usual. When my mom drove up I was like Oh crap…there’s my mom and she’s giving me a horrible look. And he was like “cuz you’re sittin by that guy…uuugh” LOL.. And he was like “I’ve never had friends this close-you guys are AWESOME!” lol when we were sittin on that thing all scrunched up! woohoo, i had fun.


I’m so happy right now but on my priority list, they are way over school. So i’m having a hard time caring. I haven’t done anything all week…or bothered to do anything. No homework. No nothin. Tomorrow’s gonna be the same thing. GAAAAAAAY.


Well, leave me some love! Cuz I Love YOU! RAIN, SMURFS n FAIRYTALES, xoxo, hil*

Hey you losers!!!! ❤ I just got home from hanging out with my gang! Woohoo, it’s so awesome. It’s like a lil clique…we’re together everyday! So anyway….I woke up this mornin n went to school n was all spunky….went to first hour…N WANTED TO KILL! Wow..Coach Johnson is sooo mean to me. And he moved Jessica for the 3rd time! SOoo GAY! DISCO DAN THE BOWLING MAN! Ran then walked in pe with megan n jessica. Interviewed Mrs Maxwell 3rd hour, did stuff in alg 2, went to lunch.., did crud in spanish, talked to jeff n roy about my refugees in 6, went to recess, took a test in 7.


THEN I WENT TO JESSICAS! For the first long long time we hung out with Daisy, Kayla & Maegan!  Then Tyler came down there n ran back up to get Aaron..Aaron later told me that he ran up there n told him he had to come down cuz i was wearing makeup! LOL…how funny. Daisy & Kayla left..so we hung out with Aaron a bit..n then mom came n got me. I’m so staying forever tomorrow since we get out at 12:30! lol like til like 8! w00h00, i h0pe.


Anyway…..I’m okay with the friend thing, so don’t worry about me anymore.


I’m so changing my AIM screen name though when I can think of something so help me!!! Gimme ideas….dealing w/ bein barefoot, music being awesome, uhhh..black fingernail polish-lol….come on..something. I NEED IDEAS AND FAST! lol cuz im soo tired of my sn. i’ve had it too long.


They can’t go home. I will so go talk to his parents tomorrow. WATCH ME! Kayla’s begging her mom to let her stay and Tyler wants to stay too. Aaron misses his job….so gay. He can’t work anyway-the grocery stores are still closed there. On the news, it says they wont open Jefferson Parish schools until at least October. So they can’t go. And i’ll throw a fit. LUV YALL! Rain, Smurfs, n Fairytales, xoxo, hil*


Im going to eat for the first time since Sunday night! woohoo! I dont want to though…and i’m not hungry. So I don’t guess i’m going to eat. How bout i’ll eat a hamburger…and not eat for like a week then. Okay, works for me. Jessica still hasn’t eaten, I don’t think. Water works wonders, I swear. Woohoo, we are cool! lol but dont worry about me n think im going anorexic or something-lol. I’m soo not.


–edit– “I heard something about you today” “UhOh, what?” “I’ll tell you tomorrow..” “Oh wow…umm…” “Yep…so whatcha doin?” “Wondering…” “haha, don’t tell jessica though cuz she told me not to tell you” “where’s jessica?” “ooh..now she’s outside” *door opens* “Ohh, okay..*dies*”


AND THEY ARENT GOING BACK FOR A MONTH!!!!! WOOHOO!!


 

He didn’t ask. I think he wanted to….but we didn’t have enough time. My mom came and got me too early…and we weren’t ever alone for him to ask. I think i’m going to go cry now.


Just to fill everybody in….I stayed with Jessica on Sunday night. I met some great people. K-RIS (ha), Aaron, Tyler, Megan, Kayla, Daisy! N umm…ethan. LOL You guys just don’t know. It was flippin awesome. I LOVE them sooo much! Well anyway, we hung out until like 10:30 or 11 on Sunday night…just chillin n being AWESOME! Mrs Vickie went n got us all slushies n we were just pimpin n all! woohoo. I had the best time!!! (Except when we thought we were gonna have to yell “RAAAAPE!”)


Me n Jess stayed up til 3 just talkin about Aaron & K-risss..(ha). “ARE YOU SERIOUS?” (loooooove.) We woke up at 9…got all ready n the guys came over about 1 or so. We listened to some awseome music n played cards!! But they quit battle n I was sad-lol. I SOOOO SKATEBOARDED!! Okay, Aaron held my arm and pulled me around…but I sooooo did. And then once I fell off…n they all died out laughing!


Tons of ppl came over last night for our “labor day gettogether” (mom wouldnt let aaron n them come over) So I hung out with Haley & Kylie….kinda ignored them a lil bit cuz I was so….sleepy and stuff. I went n took a shower….then went to sleep. Jessica called me at like 9 and I talked to Aaron…..he said they were leaving Thursday to go home when they planned on leaving in November. So I cried….and I didn’t stop….until like….2 am. I cried everytime I woke up…I layed in my bed listening to # 16 on my HIM cd on repeat n crying…. I felt horrible inside..plus, Im sick!


School sucked today. I was SO depressed. I didn’t do CRAP. I was so confused and nervous. We got outta school and went n visited Jessica’s great grandma in the hospital and stole rubber gloves!!!! THEN…her great grandpa CHANGED MY NAME TO HUN -LOL…so hilarious. We got home n hung out with Aaron, Tyler & Megan. I LOVEE them 3! they’re soo my favorites. Megan cried like 3 times, lol. And Aaron was being horrible to her!! So I tried to kill him-lol. We all kept throwing the ball at each other..i almost hit jessica in the face…like REALLY hard…n we all DIED….hahahaha.. Me n Aaron sat on the ground while Jessica, Megan n Tyler ran around putting ice in our shirt and throwing it everywhere. (Yep, i started the ice war…& the cheezit war…) Megan “planted flowers” and made me all ICY! haha.. Awww when I showed up today, she gave me the BIGGEST hug!!! I was like AWW MY BABY GIRL! I really don’t want her to leave…..her n Aaron can stay forever. THEY CAN SO LIVE WITH HILARY! lol


But he didn’t get to ask me if I liked him…..bc we werent ever alone or w/e. Maybe he’ll call me later. Or maybe he’ll ask me tomorrow if I see him. *PLEASE TONIGHT*


WILL: I don’t much like pizza anymore, but cheese, I guess.


Dawn: 1. church camp 2. umm HIM-lol. Or…Relient K 3. Oh where to start. Walked down the highway at 6 am singing ‘if u like pina coladas’..ok im kidding-but thats all i can think of at the moment. 4. Ummmm not long 5. No boyfriend. Yes Crush…a biggg crush. 6. to grow up n be a good wife, mom n adolescent psychologist! YES MAAM. Yep, i do love you !!!!!! silly girl lol


ASH: 1. No ma’am. 2. No way. 3. Totally. 4. NOOOOO!!!!! lol 5. YES! 6. YOU BETTER!


JORDAN!: 1. NOOOO BUT IM SO GLAD YOU ARE! 2. YES OH SO MUCH 3.cry my eyes out n write…4. yessssss 5. yeah but i havent sent it! 6. Yep, don’t wanna leave it there too long.


Seth: 1. Aaron Smith! 2. Im perty country. 3. She’s unAmerican. 4. HAHAH I LOVE YOU!!!! 5. Hazelish. You’d say brown. 6. YESSSSSSS! LOL


Talk to you guys later. I love you all. Call me sometime.


Rain, Smurfs n Fairytales, xoxo, hil*


I’m in love with you
And it’s crushing my heart
All I want is you
To take me into your arms


–edit– i just got off the phone with him. Bad news: He still didn’t ask. He’s leaving Thursday to go home for good. Good news: He’s sooo calling me when he gets back home. I’m so tired of crying…I just wanna talk to him all night…and he still doesn’t know if I like him or not. Maybe now he just doesn’t care.

I’ll so answer your questions later, kids.


I’m just in a bind right now and have no idea what to do. He’s leaving Thursday. And i’m so sad…and confused. Pray for me, PLEASE. I really need it. Thanks..i love you all. And i’ll tell you about my weekend when I get home tomorrow from facing him. I’m so scared.


Rain, Smurfs & Fairytales, xoxo, hil*

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Ok guys, i’m going to Jessica’s. Have a great Labor Day!! ❤ Rain, Smurfs & Fairytales,  xoxo, hil*

I know I probably should’ve just edited instead of updating again, but heck. I like new entries. So what yall doin? Im sittin here listening to crazy country music. I LOVE country music so much…I love everything about being country.


I woke up around 9 this morning because Grandmother called and told me that Aunt Sharon heard from Uncle Blake…(AWESOME!) I cleaned my room and the livin room and sat here bein’ COUNTRY! Then Sam came over n we watched FORREST GUMP..n I cried so much. Then we went to Sonic n said RAR! We got ice cream cones n a glass of water..which by the way costs 27 cents…GAAAAY! It used to be free!


I was gonna go to Sams n wash her car but im grounded so i cant go anywhere..bluh. I’m so going to Jessica’s tomorrow after church though!!! WOO-HOO! Im excited..really, I am! If you’ve noticed, i’m being crazy switching my music. Last night I had Spice Girls..lol. Well i’ll EDIT later if I do nething…luv u all!


Rain, Pina Coladas, & Kenny Chesney,


                        xoxo, hil*


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