Author: shoesluvsjesuschrist

Hi all my faithful readers!


I should be in bed because I’m going canoeing in the morning with some cool folks. Also, may I add, i’m going to drown. =) Anywhos. I went with Sam, Seth & Jacob to visit Grandma Carolyn today and she seems like she’s doing pretty good. Then we went back to Sam’s…and then went to LU..which was AWESOME again!


The class was amazing once again. I took notes..it was yay. I SAW JUSTIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Man, I didnt realize how much I actually MISSED him until I saw him and i was like…JUSTIN!!! Ahhhh… anyway. I sat at a table with Jeff n Kylie and ate potato chips! And I saw Jordan! lol I’d never met her in person before so that’s really cool!


I sat with Kaylin durin church…and the preaching was so awesome. He preached on the choice of the cross. The worship was great..everything was just so great. I wish Sam would’ve been there tonight, though..I needed her alot. And Kaylin talked me into going canoeing! And I’m gonna miss Sam..alot. I wish I was spending…the day before my birthday with her. Imma get her to stay with me tomorrow night, though. I gotta clean my room..I gotta get ready for canoeing..and I gotta stay up because I’m talking to Jesse and Sam.


I love you guys…..xoxo, hil* (who has to get up at like 5 in the morning)

Wow, today was fun, oh so fun. Of course, I got my hair cut OFF to my shoulders. And then I went to McDonalds with my sister. I didn’t do much all day until life university! It was really good again…in class, Mel talked about the crucifixion and it made me cry..


After class, we ate sandwiches and sat around and talked. Sam came tonight and it REALLY made me happy! I had such a great time! lol Soo..I think we all had the giggles…lol or everything was just hilarious! The skit..was SO hilarious!! *sings hallelujah* *knocks over a speaker* gosh i almost died!! they are so funny!! The worship was awesome! Mustache made me laugh! hahahah…The girls signed and it was good!


The preaching was so awesome tonight. He preached on…stuff. My notes are in the car, so I cant really go into detail. But he preached on like do you love the bible and do you let the bible pattern your life and stuff. It was so awesome. I love Tony Pangle! I LOVE JESUS CHRIST! Alot of kids made alot of big decisions! We all went and prayed with our youth groups and it was awesome…I cried and cried and cried and cried and hugged and hugged and cried and hugged. haha.


Then I went to Abbys..we all piled in the burban lol In the backseat it was me, Chris, Paige & Primm..lol it was very…CROWDED! But we had fun at Abby’s..they all played pool & I sat around with Jessica & Kylie for awhile and talked…then talked to Matt n Abby…then talked to Haley & Amber…stole abby’s clothes lol called Sam..called Kaylin..then just hung out on the couch & it was fun..they are all so hilarious..it was like me, abby, haley, jarrett, blayne, & clint all on the couch lol them kids are funny. And just so yall know, im not gonna turn 15 on Sunday..imma turn 18 lol…YAAAY!! Just decided I’d let ya know..since im cool and I look 17 lol


I do have a pic of my haircut on my computer, so if you wanna see, lemme know. Well I got home at midnight…n I talked to Sam..I miss that girl! I’m going to see Grandma Carolyn tomorrow! YES! I’m so glad! Then I’ll go to LU again tomorrow night…life is surely good. I cant believe tomorrow is the last night. It breakssseseses my <3! Well I love you guys! Thanx for the comments! XOXO, hil*


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Landon is having heart surgery today and he’s in New Orleans. I’m TERRIFIED..please pray for him. I’m so scared…We havent been keeping up..and Memaw Shirley called this morning and told us he was down there. Tony and Skylar are down there without parents or anything, only a cousin. I know they’re terrified as well…PLEASE PRAY! I believe in the power of prayer…please..please pray. I love you all. I’ll keep you updated.


PUSH: Pray Until Something Happens!!


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HE’S DOING GOOD!!!!!!!

Hey LOVES!! Whatcha doin??? Not much here..just listening to awesome music!! yay, lol. So let’s see about my day..it’s been long. I woke up about 9 and left for Monroe about 10! We went to McAlisters and I got a yummy grilled chicken sandwich on an onion roll! YUM! Then we went to Walmart n I got my pics!! They’re not the best but i love the one of me, danny n tommy! hehehe..so we shopped all day until forever. I bought a skirt at old navy and some khakis at Stage! I bought a bracelet at Hot Topic!! yay. It says Music = Life! woohoo. I went n got frozen coffee stuff and it was yumm..made me hyper tonight lol. I made a bottle of water cold by holding it in front of the air conditioner in the car…and it WORKED!!!! It took 30 minutes, but it worked! lol


Church tonight was SOOO good again! The class was great!!! We talked more about the apostles and presidents and famous people who believe in Jesus..it was so good! We talked about the lead singer of Korn leaving because he got saved. He left the life of everything he wanted..to live the life of everything he needed, ya know. Why would he do that?? Because Jesus is REAL.  ABBY put glitter all over me lol so I would look 70s…fun, hehe. So after class, I stood around n talked to Jeff about Satan…LOL!!!!! They faked a big wreck scene tonight and it was really great for everybody to participate like they did. And it was really great and effective. But I knew about it ahead of time so I didnt get the real effect. The worship was good..except for all the lil kids around me were talking…through everything.


So, Tony preached a faith factor sermon. Hebrews 10:38. He preached on Joseph from Hebrews 11:22. True success is doing what God wants you to do with your life. You can’t always count on friends and family, but you can always count on God. God never abandoned Joseph, and he’ll never abandon you!! Joseph resisted sexual temptation everyday. We need a faith to be saved by, a faith to live by, and a faith to die by. Those were my notes, lol.


I hung out a lil bit with some ppls after church..tried to say hi to everybody. And then I came home and rocked out to some Third Day and now I’m here. I talked to Abby a lil while ago and she said we could go see a movie for my birthday, yay. But when??? Hmm..IDK! We’ll talk more tomorrow night. I wanna do something with like Kaylin n Will n them *tear*….


I needa call Sam like right this second but it’s midnight-lol. I needa talks to her..see what SHE wants to do for my bday..lol. I wanna HANG OUT WITH EVERYBODY…gosh…people, EMAIL ME about this NOW!! xoxo, hil* Jesus loves you! hehe..God bless!

Life Unversity was AWESOME again tonight!!! I had the best time! In my class, we talked about some awesome things and wrote down alotta verses again. Then we talked about how some of the apostles died for Jesus!!!! It was so amazing. And I didn’t know Simon Peter was married. Or how he died. Gosh..


We had bbq sandwiches and I just stood around with Kylie n Jeff..WE PLAYED A FUN GAME TONIGHT! lol we ran around and hit people with those noodles you play with in the pool! oh it was so fun! My arms hurt though lol cuz ppl were pulling me everywhere and ramming me into tables and chairs, lol.


Tony preached on love tonight. We know God loves us. But do we love God? When’s the last time you got alone with God to tell him you love him?? The love of your life should be the Lord! Psalm 116:1-2 says “I love the Lord, because he hath heard my voice and my supplications.2Because he hath inclined his ear unto me, therefore will I call upon him as long as I live.” We love him because he gives us his attention. See, it says because he HEARD my voice! God gives you his undivided attention like you’re the only person in the world when you pray. When noone else listens, God does. Then we love him because of his affection. See, it says he “inclined his ear unto me”.


THE MUSIC WAS GREAT, TOO! JASON SANG “WHAT IF I SAID JESUS REAL LOUD?” It was so great…and she barely bugged me tonight. It was great. I love you all so much but I gotta go watch Phantom of the Opera and then go to bed. I have to wake up about 8 to get ready for Monroe n then I gotta go get glasses fitted and try to pick up my pics. Hope so..pray lol. Im scared they wont be there. Well hunns, ttyl!!! I ❤ you all so much!!!


Bible study was great tonight with the clan. We talked about Tony’s message. Well bye! XOXO, hil* Keep up the comments! They brighten my day!


 

I’m leaving for Life University in 15 minutes. I can’t wait. It’s such a blessing. I LOVE IT!!! I haven’t done anything all day. Im so excited about the second night of LU, lol. Too excited, I think..lol.xoxo, hil*

HEY!!!! God is AMAZING!!! Wow, this morning I woke up thinking nobody was coming…and i was a lil down but then…everybody came to LU and WOWW!! It was soo awesome!


I went to Kylie’s today bc I hadnt seen her since b4 her cruise & we watched Dazed and Confused. They lost her luggage so she didnt have her good clothes but she found some and then we came over here and hung out and she went home to get ready. Sooo, I got ready n Me, Haley n Kylie went up there about 540. IT WAS SOOOO GREAT!!!! hehe. I LOVVVVED it! I took Mel’s class..and omg, im gonna learn so much! We wrote down like 24 verses fast and it made me laugh. I love Mel so much! lol


We ate nachos & then chuuurrrrcchhh..! The band played and it was great music…except somebody..who angers me..was there (No, not Seth!) and it distracted me at first because I cant STAND them..but then it got okay. Tony preached about following Jesus. It was a great sermon and I took notes…n then it was over.


I saw lotsa ppl I dont ever see!! Like Kaylin and Will!!!! hehe…made me happy! N then I hugged Bobby Ray n he was like ‘girl you get prettier every time i see you’ and that made me..SO happy. Earlier, Elisa mailed me a letter and I was like this is gonna be the best thing about my day. But then Bobby Ray told me I was pretty…and it topped it..but still the letter was awesome. Now I gotta write her AND Aunt Dolores cuz she gave me the address! hehe. ANYWAY…and I got to talk to Kyle!!!!! And Tony Pangle!!!!!! Wow, life is so great. I love everybody so much! hehe…Imma miss Kaylin and Will while they’re gone. Well, i’m off to bible study with the clan.. xoxo, hil*


I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!! You’re all special in your own ways!

Wow, the devil has really been working with me this week. First, Sam & I were fighting a little bit. Then, they upset me with my pictures. I’ve been fighting with my parents. They took my cellphone away because I talked back. Now, nobody wants to go to Life University. I really need Life University this year…I need to hear some good preaching. And I think I’m going to get alot out of it. But the devil is tempting me. Making me not wanna go because I’m scared I’ll be alone there. I hate sitting by myself. And if I end up sitting with people, I’ll be distracted by them and I won’t have Sam to go to the alter with me and be a good example to my lost friends. I’m scared I’m going to act up because of who I’m sitting with and I wont pay attention. I can’t do that…I need this week of Life Unversity.


There’s some personal issues I’ve been dealing with lately and it’s been hurting…blegh. Just pray for that. Anyway, I would love to go to Mt. Pleasant but I can’t skip out on LU because I think that’s what God wants me to do. Maybe, i’m gonna hear something at LU this week that I really need to hear. Or maybe this is all just me and I just WANT to go to LU because of the past years. Idk, i’m really confused. But honestly, I really wanted to go to Mt. Pleasant this week.


I went tonight and it was..so good. Mr. Keith preached a WONDERFUL sermon..Trevor got up and did a lil bit of drama, too. Reed n Saw sang and it was gorgeous. Some man (Reed said his name was Jerry, lol) sang a song about being rescued and I almost CRIED. I just..wow, i’ve been so depressed this past week and I’ve been so totally away from God. I’ve been unfaithful because I’ve been ungrateful. But HEY, I’ve been rescued by JESUS CHRIST! Man, isn’t that AWESOME? Anywho…after the sermon, I hung out with Reed, Saw, Mrs Mary n Trevor lol. It was funny..Trevor talked to me alot. We all talked about getting my haircut n Saturday Night Live and how I was gonna go live with em and Reed was comin to my house..and my mom said “how much do you EAT?” ahah it was hilarious. It was so fun just sittin there fellowshippin with them..christian fellowship is the greatest. =)


Just pray for me, please. I need it…..thanks you guys. And pray for Life University! And be there if you can make it! I love you all…Jesus loves you! And so do I! xoxo, hil*

Everything is great with me & Sam. We realized some junk n we’re happy again, lol. Yay, huh? I know you all are estatic and all that. Thanks Dawn & Kory for my comments!!! Now you can comment again since I posted again-lol. But yes, everything is great. Monica, Kory, Laura, Dawn, Bessica, Seth, n Davey (i think thats all) had a good talk tonight. I’m listening to love songs and they aren’t really making me too sad tonight. Okay, a lil sad. lol. But im mostly happy…optimistic tonight, losers! 😉


So anyway, I have a list of love songs I want on a cd, can anybody download them for me and burn me a cd?? I’d so love that, lol. I dont know anybody who downloads music really nemore. Oh well…talk to you kids later. I gotta go to church in the mornin so I better go to bed!!!! <3xoxo, hil*❤


thats especially for you, Monica Lou!!!

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Hey loves…i’m so glad I have people to read this thing, lol. I actually got 6 comments….man that makes me so happy to know I have 6 people out there who care enough to comment me, lol. I ❤ each n every one of you so much! lol. As alot of you know, i’m going through a crazy time right now..havin some friend problems..and some mental problems..*cough* lol no im not mentally ill YET! hahaha But i’m just in that mode where im a lil depressed and think i’m a horrible person and nobody cares about me..lol. But it’s a really stupid thought, bc I know theres ppl out there who love me n I love you guys so much! Thank each n everyone of you for bein’ there for me…all the time.


Anyway…I woke up and me n Rach went to Walmart to get my pics and the IDIOTS didn’t have them!!!!! WTC?!?!? Yeah, i almost cried…it depressed me really bad. I HATE WALMART!! THEY DO SOMETHING RETARDED EVERY TIME!!! *cries* Goodness, im so scared I’m not going to get them at all….*is horrified*…You guys don’t understand how I am about my pictures…esp these. These are the only things I have to remember some people. I want my pictures..*cries*. What do I do? Im so scared…They’re the ONLY things that if people mess up, they cant replace. And I was gonna get Will to scan ’em for me Monday…*cries* I HATE THIS!!


So we get home and my parents are already home! What the crap. I was so looking forward to being home alone tonight. Rachel’s going to Smoking Not Litterally’s party for his bday..yay. I’m glad she’s going. She nevers goes anywhere without Dock nemore. So anyway, I wont be home alone. I’m gonna watch Phantom of the Opera though..all by myself. I love watching movies by myself, lol. It’s my relaxing time..so I’m going to watch some movies and have some quiet time..listen to some music. Probably write some letters, hopefully anyway. I haven’t sent anything off in a while since the cards & Elisa’s letter. I need Aunt Dolores’ address so bad! And if Greg doesn’t send me the pic of me n Danny, imma have a frickin’ heartattack! Gah! I’m looking forward to Annese sending me pics soon, too..but she’s really stressed right now with finals and all, so it’ll be a lil while before she does it, which is okay. I also needa clean my room, but im not sure if I can handle that task right now, lol. I need to practice a song for revival, but I need Rach to be here to play it on the piano…of course.


I’m completely dreading school. I have to go clothes shopping next week..I really don’t want to!! I do like buying pens, pencils and paper, though! lol. I’m not as excited about Life University anymore now that I’m having conflicts with her. I was expecting it to be our week, but blegh. Now i’m just like scared I’m gonna go and sit by myself the whole time. That’s probably what I need though, so I won’t have any distractions. I’m scared she wont come because of me. And we’re not gonna have comfy chairs, lol. But I need some hard preachin’..and Tony Pangle does the job. I love Tony-in-the-box so much! I miss Milldale like crazy. I miss alotta stuff right now. Man, things are so hard right now…


I had fun in Monroe with my sister though. I love my sister so much! I dropped the dogfood on her and I thought she was going down..lol it was hilarious. We both laughed n laughed. That stupid dogfood is like the size of a small child! lol. And it’s a mini bag!! And, I held up the color checker outter thing to her face..lol and she was like..MAKE SURE NOBODY’S LOOKING!!! hehe 🙂 She wanted me to drive home but I was having a great time listening to 90s music. We heard that Inside Out song by Eve 6 or something…ya know..& it brought back old memories…of Tony, Amber & myself jumping up and down in Rachel’s room singing that to the top of our lungs while Rachel was in the shower, lol. Brought back memories of the blue car…the blue car reminds me so much of Tony & Amber. Those were the days…my favorites, by far. I love 90s music..it’s the greatest. Thats what we keep the satellite radio on. So I can hear Hanson & Spice Girls! SPICE UP YA LIFE!


I can hear Mom talking to Monica on the phone….talking about jobs n junk. She was talking about all her family moving away and she’s one of the only ones who stayed here bc she loved it here. I love it here. But I miss my family so much! Uncle Blake moved to New Orleans, Aunt Sharon moved to Lufkin TX, Aunt Lanette moved to Diboll -then Houston, Aunt Andrea moved to Austin, Aunt Dolores moved to St. Louis, Aunt Jan, Aunt Dwanna & Uncle Darrell all live in Monroe, Aunt Denise lives in Quitman. I don’t even know where Aunt Terry lives. Just Uncle Kevin & Mom still here with Grandmother. I love my family more than anything in the world. Do you guys no how much I love them? They’re the best!! Really, lol. They are! Chantea lives in Diboll n Felecity lives in Dallas. Im not sure where David lives. Blegh, I miss em all. I love my family reunions. I’m hoping to have a big FAMILY REUNION/THANKSGIVING CELEBRATION at Caney! Aunt Dwanna said we’d be there from like Wednesday to Saturday or something. She said I could invite Sam and she could come on Thursday night after goin to her Grandmas and all that. This is a big long post about nothing because I WANT TO RAMBLE!! I’ve been needing to talk..so I’m talking! I need a popsicle. Gmother said she made purple and red ones for me! Yay. I’ll get one tomorrow! Ooh, I needa write Tyler Duran a letter!! I need a picture of me to send him though.


SO WHAT ARE WE DOING FOR MY BIRTHDAY??? EVERYBODY COMMENT AND TELL ME WHAT WE’RE DOING!!! lol. I wanna do at least SOMETHING. lol. I’ll be 15! So old, yet so young. I just talked to Jessica Alger on the phone for like 30 minutes. Aww. I miss that girl alot! She wants to go see a movie or something for my birthday…she’s coming to Life University, too, I think! Yay yay! Well I gotta go..comment me, lol. Help me get more than Seth! lol ttyl xoxo, hil*


I open my eyes
I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I’m lying here tonight
And I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain

Chorus:
How could this happen to me
I’ve made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t

How could this happen to me
I’ve made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I’ve made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me