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Whatcha doin? You’d think I’d be well-rested and everything. I slept til 3 today. But im still so frickin tired and stuff. We went and got family pictures done at the church for the directory. We never take good pics so they werent anything to brag about. Me & Rach took a cute one with Grandmother..rox. This cute lil guy took our pictures and he laughed like Tony Hodge!! I was like how cute is that! He laughed after everything he said lol. He was like “say…MONEY!! *laughs*” Twas adorable. So, dock rented a house and me, rach n mom drove over there today and checked it out. It has potential, lol. It’s pretty old and yeah. It can be cool though! =) I want him to buy Aunt Dana’s house, durn it! Well, Sam’s gonna be 18 tomorrow and I don’t get to spend the day with her! *cry* Yeah, she’s going to Julie’s so thats cool. I ate a cookie dough blast today. It was great. Well. . .I wanna rent a movie but I guess i’ll do that tomorrow.

I’ll talk to you crazy kids later. I ❤ You!!! xoxo, hil*

You know a dream is like a river
Ever changing as it flows.
And a dreamer’s just a vessel
That must follow where it goes.
Trying to learn from what’s behind you
And never knowing what’s in store
Makes each day a constant battle
Just to stay between the shores.
– – – Garth Brooks, “The River”

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HAD SUCH A GREAT TIME IN LAFAYETTE!!!

The drove up there was fun, we listened to some good music and stuff. It took about two hours but we finally got there about 330ish. We stayed in a ghetto Ramada motel. It sucked MAJORLY! But we finally got over it and I texted Jen Jen to tell her I got there and we started walking around while my Mom, Gmother and Rach were taking a nap. So Jennifer called and I talked to her and her mom and then we walked over to this store called like Tunz Music or somtehign and this guy was like DJing..like mixmaster..ing. Whatever it’s called. It finally got annoying so we went back over to the motel. We all got ready to go and went over to the mall for a little while n then over to Randol’s. The food wasn’t all that great but Jen Jen came and saw me!!!!! I was so happy!!! Yay!!! She stayed about an hour and it was great! When she left, Sam told some old man to dance with my Grandmother!!! “She likes your moves!” it was HILARIOUS!!! Good job, Sammie!

After the lovely time at Randol’s, me, Rach & Sam went and saw Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants at 9:45. It was such a good movie, you guys. It was exactly two hours long and I cried the last 30 minutes of the movie nonstop. I felt like a 5 year old but it was so sweet and…..awwwwh. I cried like a BABY!!! I was surprised Rachel and Sam didn’t slap me! Blake Lively was a GREAT Bridget and she was such a whore (LOL)! “Sex on the beach would be gross!” hahaha. Eric was too cute! Man, hott. Yes! Alexis Bledel was a really good Lena! Kostos was SOOO hot!! Amber Tamblyn was a really good Tibby and the lil girl who played Bailey was so sweet!! Brian was NOT how I imagined him!! lol. He wasn’t even American. America Ferrera was an okay Carmen. She was so fiery it wasn’t even funny. Yeah, I started crying right after Carmen called her daddy and she started crying. Yeah. SADNESS!!!!!!!!! Thank God for my sister and Sam! I’m buying it the day it comes out. No joke.

Then we went back and went to sleep (me still crying!) We all 3 had to share a bed and it was so hot and uncomfortable but it was ok. We woke up this morning and went…SHOPPING! I bought a shirt from Hot Topic that has a lil no smoking sign and says “there are cooler ways to die”. It rocks. When we were driving, a man beside us was smoking and I put the shirt up to the window and he had the OMG-est face !! hehehe. I bought a sticker that says something on the lines of “are you stalking me cuzz that would be super cool” and a button that says Made in the 80s and a Darth Vader button for Sam! We went to Raising Cane for lunch and ate chicken strips. “SMELL ME! I SMELL LIKE GUY” “you smell like guy and chicken.” hehe. The ride home was great. Sam and I wrote notes on my phone because we didn’t wanna say “certain stuff” outloud ! haha Im sorry Sam! Forgive me! I’m not like Bee, I swear I’m not! Well, I better get going. I have a few more things to do online! I think I might change my look! Well, I’ll talk to yall later. I </3 You! *hug*

xoxo, hil*

Hey yall…what’s goin on? Not really very much here. I’m eatin popcorn…about to look at my new seventeen magazine. How is stuff ? Stuff is good here. Kind of. James told me I wasn’t a silly little girl, but I beg to differ! lol. Uhm..Justin is leaving tomorrow and that makes me real sad. I think Kaylin left like today for cheerleadin camp. At least I’m going to Lafayette tomorrow! Its ok though. I’ll be back Thursday. I can’t wait to go to Randol’s! Jen Jen wants me to meet up with her and I just might. I dunno what our schedule will be like though! I’m trying to get Sam to go and if Tammy will babysit Ashton then she just might be able to! I’m hoping Seth can babysit Austin, too.

So I took a NAP yesterday! But Jessica Alger called and woke me up. Boooo. Today has been great though. Austin came over earlier and he got online and started talkin to Will and we were just sittin here crackin up! He’s like GIMME ALL UR MONEY!! IM A BLACK MAN! hahaha.. I love Austin so much! He said Rachel and Dock were the beauty and the geek! How cute is that. It’s kinda sprinklin a little bit. (YAY!! RAIN ROX SO MUCH!) Well, I dont really have anything else to say, so I’ll leave you with some lil quotes. I </3 You!!! XOXO, hil*

I dont want the world to see me, cause i dont think that they’d understand. when everythings made to be broken, i just want you to know who i am…

~* it is better to burn out than fade away *~ That was in Kurt Cobain’s “suicide note”.

i always knew that looking back on the cries would make me laugh, but i never knew that looking back on the laughs would make me cry

kissing him was like dancing in the rain.. its an exciting sensation that you cant help but fall in love with

True friends see your tears before they ever fall

woooooooooooot!! it’s been a super great day!!! hehehe. I dunno why but I’ve just had this SUPER great weekend. Last nite me, rach and amanda went to monroe! We went to walmart and amanda bought lil light up rings for her friends! We went to Tinsletown to watch House of Wax. It started at like 9:55 and we got there a few minutes early so we got some frozen lemonade and went in there… THE MOVIE WAS FANFREAKINGTASTIC!!! It was SCARY and HORRID and GROTESQUE…but so awesome. We screamed and hid our eyes and yelled at the TV and freaked out..and it was AWESOME!!! Amber works at Tinsletown so she snuck in and caught my eye during the movie and we thought she was a wax woman…HAHA we almost screamed!! lol After the movie we met up with Amber and Allison at the Waffle House and we ate some yummers chicken sandwiches with really long names! haha.. We didn’t get home til 2…and then I fell out on the couch and slept til 9 this mornin.

We went to the river today about 1130!! Amanda left today and I was sad.. So let’s see. Billy Ray & Vickie, Shay & Bubba, Hunter & Chelsey Hall, me & Rach and Mom & Dad all went up to Riverton and had a big day =) It was GREAT fun! We went in this lil bayou thing and I was SO scared of alligators!! haha, im so not a dork. Hunter tubed a lot and it was great. Just a great day…im tired now. The Sisterhood movie comes out Wednesday but we’re going to Lafayette to Randall’s that day for Grandmother! Today is her birthday!! YAY!!

Well i’m frickin tired of writin cuzz im tired of bein awake!!! lol. I guess i’m gonna go. Talk to ya laters. I love you! XOXO, hil* sevenfiveateohatenineate….call it kids.

Woah!!!! I’ve had a FANTASTIC weekend!!

I went to Grandmothers about 12 and had a party and it was great! 10 out of 12 kids were there! I was SO proud!! I take pride in my family! Sam was SO happy cuzz Bryan came! Silly girl. Bryan couldn’t miss Grandmother’s 81st bday party!! hehe. Amanda came!!!! During the day, Aunt Dana wanted to go out to her house to get the car and she showed Sam around and then we rode the fourwheeler to the creek and back. Maurly had to drive us back there, lol. She’s a good little driver! So we went back to Grandmothers and then me, sam and amanda went to Video Giant and rented Saw & A Cinderella Story. Amanda’s parents and lil brother, her, me & Sam stayed out at the country house with Aunt Dana, Uncle Kevin and Maurly. We watched the movies and I took a bath in a BIG OLE bathtub! hehehe. We finally got to bed about 1:45. Me & Sam got to sleep in Maurly and Neely’s lil beds in the old sleeping porch. It was so cool thinking Meemaw used to live out there in the old days. Aunt Dana woke us up this morning and we sat around and listened to Janis Joplin, Queen and Aerosmith while gettin ready for church. I couldn’t really concentrate in church this morning so I decorated my mom’s calendar. haha I was like a 4 year old. So there was a big storm last night! Aunt Dana has a tin roof so the rain was glorious! It rained this morning during church, too! We didn’t do much at Grandmother’s today. They fried fish but it wasn’t too good, lol. We all just really sat around and looked at pictures and talked and took pictures and stuff!!! Sam left so we all left and now we’re here. Rach n Mandee are takin a nap so I decided I’d get online for a while!! IM GOING TO SEE A MOVIE TONIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hehe. Well I better go! I love you! XOXO, hil*

BTW, I was told to take this lil Family Guy quiz. I wasn’t exactly satisfied or appreciative of this, but I was….Lois. Copying and pasting that thang wouldnt work on mine. Sue me.

Hey Losers, what’s crackin?? not much here. im about to go to my Grandmother’s 81st birthday party! Drop by today if you wanna talk to me or something. Nobody will even notice you’re there. Parties are so crazy at my Grandmothers cuzz there’s so many ppl there! Anyway. I got my sister’s old cellphone. 7581097. Yeah ok neway. I didn’t do a thing yesterday. I slept alot so I couldn’t sleep this morning and I stayed up til 430!! Gah!! Yeah. Well, I watched the end of Mulan and then Uptown Girls. I texted Amanda for a while and yeah, who knows when she’s gonna be here. Probably around 4 today. Well there’s only one thing I cant live with out and that, my friend, is you. So, leave me comments!!!! Sorry for the short entry! I’ll write more later! I love yall so much!!! XOXO, Hil*

Call me today!!! I’ll love you forever! hehe.

Hey, guess what? I’ve had me one HECK of a lazy day! I watched Garden State earlier and it was SO cute! It made me wanna fall in love and be carefree like her! =) ANYWAY. It also made me wanna run around in the rain!! hehe.. Well, I went to GRandmothers earlier and Mom helped her decorate and clean and such and I took a looong nap! I’ve been sittin around doing nothing listenin to music! I’m gonna post some lyrics and a quiz! =)

Alcohol:
Brad Paisley.

I can make anybody pretty.
I can make you believe any lie.
I can make you pick a fight with somebody twice your size.
Well, I’ve been known to cause a few break-ups,
An’ I’ve been known to cause a few births.
Well, I can make you new friends, or get you fired from work.

And since the day I left Milwaukee,
Lynchburg an’ Bordeaux, France,
Been making the bars lots of big money,
An’ helpin’ white people dance.
I got you in trouble in High School,
But College, now that was a ball.
You had some of the best times you’ll never remember with me:
Alcohol; Alcohol.

I got blamed at your wedding reception,
For your best man’s embarrassing speech.
And also for those naked pictures of you at the beach.
I’ve influenced Kings and world leaders,
I helped Hemingway write like he did.
And I’ll bet you a drink or two, that I can make you put that lampshade on your head.

‘Cause since the day I left Milwaukee,
Lynchburg and Bordeaux, France,
I been making a fool out of folks just like you,
An’ helping white people dance.
I am medicine and I am poison,
I can help you up or make you fall.
You had some of the best times you’ll never remember with me:
Alcohol.

Yeah, since the day I left Milwaukee,
Lynchburg an’ Bordeaux, France,
Been making the bars lots of big money,
(Helpin’ white people dance.)
Yeah, I got you in trouble in High School,
But College, now that was a ball.
You had some of the best times you’ll never remember with me:
Alcohol; Alcohol.

**********************************************************

–Goth–

Do you wear black eyeliner?: sometimes
How much black clothing do you own?: alot
Do you think about death often?: no
Do you want to die?: no
Are you a social outcast?: I dont THINK so…
Are you pale?: nah..
Do you cut?: nope
Do you like Hot Topic?: oh yes!

–Skater Punk–

Can you skateboard?: No!
How often do you go into Vans?: Thats a real store?? HAHA..
What’s your sneaker brand?: Er, the only shoes I like are converse and sketchers.
Do you do stupid stuff with your friends?: YES
Are the long skater cuts hott?: hmmmm
How much do you get in trouble?: A lot.
Do you listen to the bands who are considered
“posers”?: Yeah, I do. Don’t shoot.
How many piercings do you have?: My ears.

–Prep–

How often do you say the word “like”?: Too many times to count.
Do you shop at Abercrombie and Fitch?: Nope, just go in to smell the cologne.
Are the A&F models hott?: Yes
How many purses do you own?: a handful
Is lipgloss a must?: No
How often do you wear makeup?: never hardly
Ever had a manicure?: no
Rock music is bad, right?: No!!!
Are you ever ditzy?: Yeah lol
Do you own high heels?: Yeah
Have you ever said “Oh my gosh”?: Yeah
Are you a cheerleader?: Heck no.

–Hippie–

Is your hair long?: Yeah
Are you a vegetarian?: No
Do you own a tye dye shirt?: I used to.
Do you want peace?: Yes
Do you want to save the animals?: Yeah lol
What do you think about the war?: Sux.
Have you ever made a peace sign with your two
fingers?: Too many times.

–Gangsta–

Are you from the ghetto?: No
Do you own “bling bling”?: Naaah
What do you think about do-rags?: They crack me up.
Do you like rap?: Only Eminem.
How about hip-hop?: Bahh..its ok.
Was Tupac truly the greatest rapper in the world?: Of course.
What do you think about afros?: They are hilarious !!
Have you ever said ‘fo shizzle’?: Yeah
How about ‘oh, snap son’?: HAHAHA, i have been caught saying that a few times.

–Frat–

Is life a party?: Heck yeah.
How often do you get drunk?: Never
What’s the point of getting drunk anyway?: Not sure.
Do you care about your grades?: Yeah
Do you need attitude adjustment?: Yeah lol

–Emo–

How often do you cry?: A lot
Do you have an ex?: no
Do you have an acoustic guitar?: i wish
Are you emotional?: yeah
Do you like soft music?: yeah
Do people understand you?: no
Do you write your own songs?: sometimes
Is your hair dyed dark?: No

–Jock–

Do you play any sports?: no haha
How important are they to you?: gotta love football
How important is your reputation?: only half way
Do you pick on the geeky kids?: noo!
What do you think about football?: LOVE IT
Are you considered a bully by anyone?: no

–Geek–

Do you wear glasses?: yeah
Do you get good grades?: yeah
Are you smart?: yeah
Do you use an inhaler?: HAHA no
Do you stick pens and calculators into your shirt
pockets?: my dady does hehe
Does your mom buy your clothes?: sometimes lol
How often are you on the computer?: all the time.
Do you get picked on?: “you’re a freak.”
Are you single?: yeah
Do you want to be single?: not real sure.
Who was your first kiss?: Nobody
Haveyou ever had a bf/gf?: No
Who was your first bf/gf?: STOP..ur makin me sad
Have you ever asked someone out?: nope

xoxoxoxoxoxox, hil*

It’s amazing how talking to certain ppl can make me so happy! U kno how depressed I was yesterday? Well by 2 AM….I was so happy!! Oh yes, i argued with Seth…but I forgave him and yeah. It’s not like I’m backing down though. I’m still standing strong and firm against it. Nobody’s gonna make me back down so dont worry about me giving in. I talked to Eric for a while & I talked to Matt Champagne & Will, of course!! I love Matt’s advice, lol. It kills me!! Me & Eric were like ” i wanna be matt when I grow up! ” hahah. Aren’t we silly.

So, my sister is babysitting Austin Roark this summer. Thank God she doesn’t have him today. My Mom & Grandmother are in Monroe. Rachel is in Monroe and Dad is at work so im sittin here ALONE!! I ate a turkey sandwich a minute ago. yuup. Well, i have to watch white noise, are we there yet?, & garden state by tonight so I better start watchin ! TTYL,

xoxo, hil*

Yeah, im sittin here and im kinda real sad. I miss James…so much. And Sam’s like CALL HIM!….Yeah right. Im like about to cry but I dont want to since my mom is like right here in the same room and she’ll be like WHATS WRONG?!?? Yeah, sometimes I only cry out of my right eye. lol So anyway. Sam could go see James tomorrow if she wanted to….and I miss him terribly. 😦 😦 😦 😦 😦 😦 😦 But she’s being a super great friend and she’s like I dont wanna see him without you…but…I dont want her to miss out!! Yeah im just real sad.

Carribeangurl05: well id rather not think about that
noSHOESluvsJESUS: Yeah, me too.

Anyway. Well let’s see. We rented White Noise and Garden State last night but I havent watched either of them. I started White Noise but it kinda got….ehhhh. Sam got sleepy, so yeah. Anyway, we didn’t go to sleep at all last night. This mornin about 7 we went to Sonic and got breakfast and then came home and she left and I slept til 3. Yeah, im a LOSER. And i’m not goin to church because i’m a bigger loser. *sigh* I dont feel good….my stummy hurts and im just all blah today!! I MISS ARLENE AND JAMES!!! GAH!!!

Ok so…tomorrow is Thursday. I think Aunt Sharon is coming down. She better!! I miss her!! And she said Bryan might come down unless he has to work!! YAAAAY! So..lets see! Grandmother’s party is Saturday! Her 81st birthday party and her birthday is Monday! Im SO happy! Yeah, im still all sad so dont think im gettin happy, lol.

I been talkin about GBC and my old friends and stuff this morning and i’m just ready to go sit in mah room and cry about crap but im also not in the mood to feel sorry for myself because I HATE doing that. Well, I really dont wanna keep writing about pointless things that won’t matter in the long run.

Some advice : Life really does fly by when you’re not looking. Enjoy it because one day you’ll wake up and your old friends will be gone. You’ll understand way too much stuff and you won’t be that sweet little kid anymore. Of course, I still am that sweet little kid, but I wasnt for a while. =( But all my friends? Well, they’re not exactly all stayin in touch. We’ve all moved on. Also, your opinions of people…they’ll change. There’s this guy I used to be in LOVE with…I mean ask anybody. I was forever talkign about him and yeah..i so wanted him. And now, I wish he’d just stay out of the way. It’s really kind of depressing to think about, but i cant STAND him now.

My parents just left for church. Oh, im sooo…not feelin good. Im sad and lonely. Sam’s goin to Natchitoches w/ Julie for freshman connection or something and she won’t be back ’til Saturday. Kylie and I…have some tension right now. I’d call Jessica Alger but i’m afraid I’d get off on one of my “Im depressed..” kicks and she never understands mah problems, lol. Everybodyz at Driver’s Ed and I should be there but mom wanted me to take from tammy this fall. GAHHHH…* Cries * I’ve got to quit writing. Byeee xoxo, hil*

I’m not supposed to love you,

I’m not supposed to care

I’m not supposed to live my life,

Wishing you were there

I’m not supposed to wonder,

Where you are and what you do

I’m sorry i can’t help myself,

I’m still in love with you..

Dedicated to “Our Guys”

Ok i wasnt plannin on updatin cuzz I know im not gonna do a dang thing today but….blah. I didnt go to sleep til 230 last nite cuzz I was waitin on Will til like 145 to get online and he finally did and I talked to him for like…10-15 minutes maybe and I got tired so I thought about going to bed and then actually went to bed. So yeah! I cleaned a lil bit this mornin and talked to Sambo the ho on the phone! And I just said “Jesusssizzle” SOoOo.

I feel so wise. Do u ever just feel wise? I’m like an old grandma sometimes. No im kidding. Im not wise. Im childish. Ahhh. Im confuzzled. Ok im gonna stop rambling! XOXO, hil*