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Hey Sweetums! How are you??? Wow, im lovely today! Except for im snifflin!! I think it’s Jeff & Julie’s fault! Or something! Agh!! So…lemme tell you about my WEEKEND!!! Ok so I rushed home Friday and got ready for graduation and stayed on the phone with sam/katie for evers….finally got ready and left..went and got katie..went to graduation.

Graduation was beautiful…kinda. Ok maybe it wasn’t. But my bestest friend in the entire world was beautiful!!! Werentcha? Yes! I didn’t cry….until I got in the car with Sam and Katie. It was a pretty good graduation. I sat behind the Thomas’. I cheered for all my lovely little seniors!! I saw this very unhott but used to be hott guy and his girlfriend and I was like….woah. look who that is, mom. hahaha. So after graduation I roamed around lookin for Samantha and I saw DEVON!!!! And then we took a picture of Coach Denison with Katie’s phone, haha. I laughed!!! So we took pictures and all and w00t. Went to Sam’s and changed clothes…SAM COULDNT GET HER SHOES OFF!!!! Poor thing! So we went to Grandma Carolyn’s and that was fun!!!! I love Sam’s family! Esp. her uncles! haha…yes. that sounds…bad. but not supposed to! After everybody left we packed up all the food and headed to honk at the Tucker’s and they followed us to….CITGO!!!!!!! Oh ya gotta love Citgo! We got some gas and acted like sillybillys!!!! And we were OFF TO THE CAMP!

We finally got there and sat around…watched Friday the 13th but I fell asleep (that is a retarded old movie, Jeff…..i mean….no its not) I cant really remember all we did because I kept falling asleep during movies! We played 90’s Trivia and KATIE WOULDNT QUIT SINGING!!!!! Yep. twas an experience! “I dont really sing like this” “then WHY ARE YOU DOING IT?” lol. So….anyways…during Scream….me, jeff and julie fell asleep and so they went to bed and I slept on the couch until Sam and ’em woke me up! Then I was happy…..and we had fun!!!! At 5 we made virgin MARGARITAS!!!! Cuzz….it had to be 5:OO to drink ’em!! Seth was our bartender and the margaritas tasted like V8 splash! hahaha!!! But it was SO fun and SO messy! We played kareoke and all…went to see the sunrise but was already risen…fell asleep. Sam woke me up and we took Katie home about 9 and then I played with “devon’s baby”! hahaha. Brokenhearted Sam and I sat around listening to love songs. My song is the brown eyes blue song and Sam’s guy’s (hah) song is YOU WERE ALWAYS ON MY MIND!!!!! Julie and Jeff finally woke up and we had war with a mattress….Why doesn’t Jeff leave bruises? Jeff went all spastic kickin me in my STERNUM! haha..thats a funny word. Me & Seth always lost until the time Julie played…we pinned ’em down!!! YAY! Anyways….we finally left about 7.

Sam came over about 830 and we ate McDonalds and I fought with my dad about Micheal Jackson (yeah what are the chances?) and we talked about church camp, velvet revolver, band names….three dog night and such! When my parents went to bed, me and Sam sat around deliriously talking about our weddings and dancing with certain people! aww! Sunday was church and then my piano recital which EVERYONE SCREWED UP! Except for the children, lol. We ALL stopped….lol. Even Dale! Anyways….church last night was for the seniors and we had a lil party after wards! I cant believe all my sweet lil church seniors are going bye-bye! Imma miss ’em SO MUCH!!! Sam, JR, Josh, Derek, Abby….awwww. So….we had a Oklahoma meetin and I am SOO EXCITED! On Sam’s lil signing sheet I wrote ” when you were little you wanted to be a gymnast, a rockstar and a cowgirl..but you finally decided on being a princess” or something! She IS the darn princess crazy fool!

Well kids…..you know how much I love you….but im GONEEEEEEE! xoxo, hil*

There’s moonlight on the trees
Paintin’ silver on the leaves
It’s so beautiful out here
I just had to stop and stare
That’s unusual for me
I had a happy heart of stone
No voice to answer but my own
Now I want more from the night
Since you waltzed into my life
You couldn’t leave well enough alone

Why out of all the people in this world
Why did you set your sights and single out this girl?
Oh, why did you have to go and make me love you?
Why’d you have to go and make me
Why’d you have to go and make me love you?

In an instant sweet and strange
Everything about me changed
Whether I want to or not
I come to you with all I’ve got
And I’ll never be the same

Why out of all the people in this world
Why did you set your sights and single out this girl?
Oh, why did you have to go and make me love you?
Why’d you have to go and make me
Why’d you have to go and make me love you?
Tell me why
Why’d you have to go and make me
Why’d you have to go and make me love you?

Maybe this is just a dream
Or maybe this was meant to be
I just pinch myself and wonder why

Why out of all the people in this world
Why did you set your sights and single out this girl?
Oh, why did you have to go and make me love you?
Why’d you have to go and make me
Why’d you have to go and make me love you? -Jessica Andrews

–edit– WE’RE WATCHING THE PRINCESS BRIDE IN FINE ARTS!!!

Wow. Things are so stressful!!! But i’m enjoying every minute of everything! I really am! Thanks be to God! I just realized…..hey. God is gonna get me through all this. I’m just so excited about what is to come!

Yesterday was really fun…after school we went to Monroe with Mom and bought a blue jean skirt and a shirt for Graduation and then some strawberry margarita mix!! And we came home….

Me: “Jesus is gonna cry.” Mom:”Jesus is already crying. You’re talking about sex on the beach.” Sam: “I think Jesus likes sex on the beach.” Mom: “SAMANTHA!!” Sam: ” THE DRINK! I MEANT THE DRINK!” Mom: “thats sacreligious.” Sam: “THE VIRGIN DRINK!!” Oh, I love my Sammie!

After Monroe, I went to the camp with The Thompsons and that was great. I got two tours! One from Sam and then one more from her Mom! I love them Thompsons! When we were leaving, a spider got on my leg and I freaked out and then the lights went off and we all screamed!! Hahah! They were all scaring me and it was so fun!!!!! Then I went home!

“Yall are gonna have to teach me to dance like a nigger.” HAHA…lovely times.

Well of course, I’m not really going to worry about Kylie’s decisions because though I care about her, I can’t control her. She’ll have to learn from her mistakes. So many times I told Jessica Lucero “I told you so.” Well, all I’m saying is….don’t make it a joke. Don’t gripe about everything and then do the opposite. That’s two faced and that’s not right. I know you, Kylie Elizabeth. I know what’s gonna happen.

Today has been just fine. I watched more of How to Lose A Guy in 10 Days with my PE class…and now i’m sitting here. I better go though. Graduation is tonight and i’m sure I won’t write until next Monday. Life is SOOOOO crazy!

convo between me and cody howard…..

“Are you just alone? Or are you worried..or crying..or scared..or weak?” “Yup.” “Well, whatcha worried or crying or scared and all that about?” “Sam is graduating tonight.” “Well Sam is a grown woman now and she can take care of herself now…so don’t you worry your pretty little head about it.” AW!

Well lots of love. Prayers, please!!!! I love you!! xoxo, hil*

Yes, I’m a girl
But that don’t mean
That I will not succeed
So go ahead and hate on me
But I’m just where you wanna be
Yes, I’m a girl
But that don’t mean
That I will not succeed
So go ahead and hate on me
But I’m just where you wanna be
I’ve got the power of the female

Hey. I’m having a REALLY bad day. Yesterday was really fun..but then I got all depressed. And i’m still depressed. But i’ll be ok tomorrow no matter WHAT she does. Because tomorrow is for Samantha Anne!! So, I went to mah house yesterday and took a lil nap and then went to the AWANA store! I only had 77 bucks, lol. I bought a flamingo pen, a fake pirate telescope thing and A FOOTBALL LIGHT!!!! It ROX!!!! So my parents left and me and Sam stood around and talked to Seth, Logan & Reed…. Then Reed was….an idiot and hurt my babygirl’s feelings and she was upset and I was upset… But Omg….we played VOLLEYBALL with a BALLOON! UNTIL IDIOT LOGAN PAULEY POPPED IT!! HAHA! Wow, it was so funny though. So we sat around and talked and then Reed left so we left (haha…just like Me & a softdrink.) So we went to Popeyes! Me & Sambo! We got out of the car and I was like “ooh..UBER CIGGERETTE SMOKE!! *chokes*” and the smokin guy said “oh its ok, i have one left.”!!!!!!! OMG!!!!!! BEIN SMART WITH ME!!!!! SKANK!!!! haha. Well we ate and had a sad time and then ate ice cream cuz we were depressed lil girls. All I needed was some sweat pants. I went home and slept forever.

Today has been AWFUL!!!! I got to school and Kylie told me she didnt break up with him. So I went on a psychotic rage. You should’ve seen me first hour. I was HOLY MAD! Then I got sad and wrote Jeff a note cuzz I was about to cry…2nd hour we had a test. I made a friggin C. I have a 93 in that class so i have to take finals…..WHORE!!!!!! And I almost cried. So then 3rd hour we watched the end of A League of Their Own and I cried (much needed) and started How to Lose A Guy in 10 Days. It was good for me to get into a movie because I was SO depressed.. Because I was still depressed, I ate ice cream at lunch. Katie cant come to the camp. Katie cant have a bday party here tomorrow. I’m so….mad/sad/angry/upset. KILL ME NOW!!!!!!

Leave me some uplifting words, PLEASE. I really need you guys right now.

I’m hoping Sam is coming to Monroe with me today. Who knows though because she’s not online. If she does come, we’re going to the camp afterwards to make sure it’s in tiptop shape. Who knows. My luck, everything else will fall down on mah head. I need Sam. I need a hug.

WHICH NUMBERS AM I TO YOU?
1= I like you
2= I love you
3= You’re funny
4= You’re cool
5= I want to call you
6= I want to hug you
7= You’re nerdy
8= You have good taste in clothes
9= I hate you
10= You’re boring
11= You’re lame
12= You have an awesome personality
13= You are the coolest
14= I don’t know you, but I want to get to know you
15= You’re my best buddy
16= I want to kiss you
17= You are so sexy
18= I want to talk to you more
19= I miss you so much
20= You’re special.
21= I will never lie to you
22= You mean everything to me
23= You’re beautiful
24= You make my day
25= I don’t know what I’ll do without you

I’m afraid to wear makeup it may smear

Because of you I could shed a single tear

When I’m around you I feel all right,

So come and hold me oh so tight.

When I was ‘round you I was glad

But now we are apart I’m so sad

If I tell you that I like you so

Do you think you would know?

I’m not afraid to wear makeup it won’t smear

Because of you there are no more tears.

-Ari Favia

YAY! I AM AWESOMETASTIC! hahaha. Ok….yesterday was great!!! I went to Sam’s right after school and we talked about drama. Then we went to walk and WE MET A PIRATE! Yep, all I can say. lol. Then we went back to her house and talked to my mom 30 times on the phone then her mom and yeah! So I went to Suebelle’s and talked to Lauren Meredith and Dale! I played my piece for Suebelle and she said I am READY and wonderful! Ok, Dulaney is gettin on mah last nerve! GET AWAY FROM MY SUEBELLE! ….I went to my house and got stuff together and then went to Sammie’s. I kept calling her Samantha and Sammie. No Sam. haha. We sat around online and her mom was like gah you’re here AGAIN! haha And Seth was like….”are you spending the night? gaaaah.” haha. Dontcha love ’em Thompsons? We went to bed about 11 but we talked forever about Tequila and Vodka…and stuff. Yes, it was GREAT conversations and I laughed so much. Mr Kevin said we were acting like 5 yr olds and he should seperate us!! HAHA! So, im NOT SLEEPY THO! I FINALLY fell asleep….

So, my sister went to a 3 doors down concert last night. THAT TICKS ME OFF! haha! ANYWHOS! Today has been great. We had a lockdown thing in 2nd hour so me and Jeff and me and Kylie wrote notes!!! Well, I better run off now! I ❤ You!!!! XOXO, HIL* Love forevers, The Smurf Princess

“You do bad things when you’re drunk.” “I do not. You made out with *insert name here* and *insert name here*” “YOU DID TOO!!!” “Don’t get all defensive..it didnt really happen!” HAHA

“*insert name here* is a pretty boy. I can just see you taking advantage of him.” “Yeep…I might do that…..more than once……..more than twice.” w00t!

Maybe I can’t stop the downpour, but I will always join you for a walk in the rain..

Laying there with your arms around me I felt so comfortable and safe. My heart was beating a mile a minute having you so close to me. As you played with my hair and kissed me I couldn’t help but smile straight from my heart. I could see how much you cared from the look in your eyes. It made me never want to let you go. To just stay wrapped in your arms forever. Where nothing else matters but me and you…

“I wish I could make him realize that he’s worthy of being loved. That he could be someone’s world. That somebody thinks of him every single night before she goes to bed and every single morning when she wakes up. That someone nearly dies with yearning when thinking of his arms around her. That there’s someone out there that dreams of someday living with him, marrying him, seeing him every day for the rest of her life, having children with him… That somebody loves him more than anything because HE is fantastic. He is THAT special.”

Kylie got a xanga!!!!! *REJOICES!* It’s Lilbeatnik!! AWWWW! Well anyway. Kenny Chesney got married yesterday. It’s a cover up. Ask Sam. Ask Dock. He’s a uber-fag. Yes, I know I just said “uber fag”. I should prolly be shot.

I went to Kylie’s yesterday! Awww. I bring out the kid in everyone, she says. I laugh and throw sunflower seeds at her. Yep. Thats how it goes. I have 10 more minutes in this class, thank God. I hate school! I’m so ready. Only like 7 days. Or something. Too Lazy to think about it. I’m so ready for summer. School has GOT to end today!!!! DRAMA HAS GOT TO END, lol. Yeah, im in a good mood, I promise!!!!!!! 🙂 I love you guys SO much!

Imma throw some heyz to yall.

Sam~You’re my bestest friend ever!!!!! WE HAVE GOT TO TALK TODAY!

Kylie~Im so glad you got a xanga! I ❤ YA!!

Jeff~WE’RE GONNA DIE!!!!!!!!

Will~I MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!! I REALLY DO!!!!!!!

xoxo, hil*

Yeah….alot to say. So…this weekend was great, I rekon. I spent time with my 2 best friends, of course. Friday, I went to village and got some bacon chedder fries chips and then rode out to the graveyard by myself and sat there a while. I went home and straightened up my room and Sam called and I went over there. We didn’t really do much but sit around and talk and comment on LJ’s and such, lol. We sat around on the couches and talked about “the dirty pole” and “Saw”. We watched a little bit of “Zipperface” and it made me laugh….lol. *walks onto a balcony with nobody around* *whispers “Help me.”* HAHAHAHA!! We watched PAID PROGRAMMING! It was great. all these old people singing. 🙂

I woke up about 11 or so and she tried to burn cds and I listened to cds in her room and we went to village and tried to make limewire work and yeaaaaaah. WE PLAYED PENGUIN SWING!!!! And this clock game..and crimson room, lol. I went home about 5 and called Kylie and she came over and chilled. We watched this hottest girlfriend thing and 100 greatest country songs. I took her home…and I chilled forever. I went to bed early and everything!

Mother’s Day was ok. Church was fantastic. Grandmother got the oldest mother thing and Casey got the youngest mother thing and I was like awwwww. My mom got up and talked about Grandmother and Mr Tracy got up and then Reed got up and talked and Mrs Mary cried….awwwww!!! Yeah, it was SO sweet! Everybody cried. We had baby dedication and they all cried and AWE! Then I went to Grandmothers and Uncle Kevin grilled so we ate and then socialized outside. I hung out with Greg, Uncle Kevin, Aunt Dana & Maurly all day! Me and Maurly kept FIGHTING!!! haha! And Uncle Kevin had to help me up like 10 times cuz Maurly kept knocking me in to the flowers and knockin my chair over and throwing pears at me!!! haha. I laughed so much!

So I went home and rode over to Kylie’s and we were so silly! We sat in the swing, ate sunflower seeds and looked at old magazines! So finally I came home and everything was great. I didn’t wake up til late today and we watched A League of Their Own in PE!!!! w00t! Well, I gotta go!!! XOXO, Hil*

There’s so many different ways to be connected to people. There are the people you feel this unspoken connection to, even though there’s not even a word for it. There’s the people you’ve know forever, who know you in this way that other people can’t, because they’ve seen you change, and they’ve let you change.

1.Puppies or Kittens? kittens.

2.Up all night or wake up early? up all night of course.

3.Spending the night in front of a fire or go out to a party? The fire of COURSE!!!!!!!!!!!!

4.In a hurry or there is always time to enjoy? always time to enjoy

5.Marry someone that has a great face or a great body? BOTH! haha just kiddin.

6.Would you rather gifts from that special someone, or Just spend time with

them? spend time!

7.Fly or sail? FLY!!!!

8.Camping in the mountians or in the woods? mountains

9.Hunting or Fishing? fishing

10.Go to the movies or to a concert? concerts!!!!

11.Monstertruck show or raceing? Racing

12.Have all the money you could want or all the love? love of course!

13.Would you rather roast marshmellows or hotdogs? marshmellows of course!

14.Soda or water? BOTH!

15.How many pairs of shoes do you own? 0. gah i wish zero.

16.Would you rather have snakes or spiders crawl/slither on you? neither. i hate em both!!!

17.Stars or city lights? stars!!!

18.Doctor or lawyer? Doctor

19.Ride horses or bulls? Bull. No Horse.

20.Would you rather go mudding on a four-wheeler or in a truck? four wheeler of course!!!!.

21.Go skydiving or white water rafting? uh white water rafting, im sure.

I have about 5 minutes to write. I just wanted to tell you that I love you very much and it’s a really great day. I just got a great grade on my Power Point presentation! Now im just sitting around waiting.

I dunno what Megan thinks i’m gonna do with a piece of paper that says Brian or what it meant, but it makes me laugh. IT WAS A LIST OF GRADUATION PICTURES! It amazes me how some people can take NOTHING and turn it into SUCH a big deal! Anyways. It really hasnt phased me any. I found a place to be alone now, so when my family is getting on my nerves, im just gonna get my bible, go to the graveyard and read. I went over to Kylie’s last night to take her some tatoos! I ❤ my Kylie!! I needa talk to Sam!!! I saw….who did I see? I dont remember. We’re prolly gonna talk to Mrs Ruby soon about graduation night. Wish us luck, PLEASE!! I love you guys so much but I gotta run!!! Hugs, kisses and comments!

XoXo, Hil*

One Rainy Wish by Jimi Hendrix

Golden rose, the color of the dream I had
Not too long ago
A misty blue and the lillac too
A never to grow old.

A there you were under the tree of song
Sleeping so peacefully
In your hand a flower played
A waiting there for me.

I have never
Laid eyes on you
Not before
This timeless day
But you woke and whoa
Smiled my name
And you stole
My heart away
A stole my heart away little girl, yeah
All right !

Golden rose, the color of the dream I had
Not too long ago
Misty blue and lillac too
A never to grow old.

Golden rose, the color of the dream I had
Misty blue and lillac too
Golden rose, the color of the dream I had
Misty blue and lillac too
Gold and rose, gold are rose, gold and rose.

It’s only a dream
I’d love to tell somebody about this dream
The sky was filled with a thousand stars
While the sun kissed the mountains blue
And eleven moons played across rainbows
Above me and you.
Gold and rose the color of the velvet walls surround us.

Dont feel like writing. Im depressed and I have no seniors. It’s Cinco De Mayo. Im gonna go cry now. I love you guys. Hannah’s Mama’s baby is due Monday. Im excited for her. Well….bye. xoxo, hil*

Count on me through thick and thin
A friendship that will never end
When you are weak
I will be strong
Helping you to carry on
Call on me, I will be there
Don’t be afraid
Please believe me when I say
Count on…

I can see it’s hurting you
I can feel your pain
It’s hard to see the sunshine through the rain
I know sometimes it seems as if
It’s never gonna end
But you’ll get through it
Just don’t give in cuz you can

Chorus:

Count on me (mm) through thick and thin
A friendship that will never end (ah)
When you are weak
I will be strong
Helping you to carry on
Call on me, I will be there
Don’t be afraid
Please believe me when I say
Count on…
You can count on me
Oh yes you can (ah)

Oo, I know sometimes it seems as if
We’re standing all alone
But we’ll get through it
Cuz love won’t let us fall

Im disappointed in the guys. But, I guess it’s not my place to talk about ne thing. Bye

Hey yall. I have like NO time to write today……Im sry I havent talked to you guys in forever!!! I’m getting along fine without my computer! YES ITS BROKE AGAIN! I’m actually not having withdrawals or anything. Today has been great but im DEPRESSED!!!! It’s Sam’s last real day of High School! Yeah, I know…its sad.

BUT It’s like im SO sad but im SO happy at the SAME time!!!!!! Gaaahhhhh……there’s NOTHING to say! But I’m jealous of Tiffa!! Who knew? lol. Yeah, imma dork! w00t. Anyways…i have GOT to run off now. Call me sometimes…..you know the #! And if ya dont, LOOK IT UP!!! xoxo, hil*

FOR SAM:

Today is the greatest day of our young lives
I look back at what I’ve known for so long
today is the day we leave our past behind
today we say our last goodbyes
memories in the back of my mind
held close by until the day that I die
good luck my friends make it to the end
I wish you all the best until we meet again
i can’t believe it seems like yesterday
just kids and now it’s time to grow up
that thought makes me feel sick now I want to cry
seperated for the rest of our lives
I don’t know why it turned out this way
we always thought things would work out OK
now I see everybody telling me what I must be
when all I want to do is go back in time with you
today is the saddest day of our young lives
today we go our separate ways
the sky’s the limit for each one of us
make good with everything you’ve got

Omg i’m eating cake!! And it’s like birthday cake…mmm!! Or wedding cake!!! MMM MM!! Yeah, so OMG HAVE U MISSED ME???? I’ve missed your comments and writing and everything! lol. So let’s see.. Saturday, I went to Monroe with Rachel and bought me a Ray Charles CD..and some other junk. It was a GREAT day! Can u believe it? So Sunday, the man from North Pole who got attacked by a Grizzly Bear came and talked to us. He cracked me up too! I was like JUDY! haha. So, Sunday nite we had a Oklahoma meetin and Sam’s stayin with my family..and im soo excited about it !

Yesterday was ok..I went to Sam’s and we walked and went back to her house and it was fun. We waved at Rita!!!! Awww. We’re too nice! lol. So, what’s been goin on? Oh yes. Squabble on the Live Journals. Woo Hoo! haha. Squabble, lol. Sounds like something chickens would do. lol. Maybe chickens DO squabble!! Yeah, we’re fighting over the word “dishappy”. Oh wait, it’s NOT a word!! Well, mega laughs. I’m so happy right now im like delirious. I wanna go to Sam’s….and i think im gonna. Well later I rekon I will. Anyway, today has been groovy. It’s Andrew’s birthday! Well, time to go!! TTYL!!!!! xoxo, hil*

I ❤ You!!