Hey!!! I felt like updating…not because I have anything to say…soo i’d like it if you read the post below this and commented on that one also!!


So, no more playing volleyball with Jeff in PE because they have to go to the stupid stadium!! If we have to go to the stupid stadium, i’ll die. Really…we went last year and I wanted to kill. *dies..* I love doing stadiums…on my own time. I’d actually like to do one right now…if I wasnt lazy.. I think i’d like to post pictures! this is BEFORE and AFTER!!!! SEE HOW MUCH WE’VE CHANGED!!! WOW!


Ok, so anywho…its time to go join the chat room party!!!!!!!!!!! MORE OFTEN, PLEASE!!!!!! AND COMMENT CUZZ U LOVE ME! xoxo, hil*

Hey…im at school. It’s been pretty good today..we’ve barely done anything, ya know. Somebody got in a you know what with you know who you know when!!! I lauged SO much….Yeah! And if you feel sad because I havent told you about it yet..i just found out..and i wouldnt tell you anyway lol ANYWHO! IM SORRY WILL FOR THE SHORT POST!! It was DEFINITELY like one of your posts….. hahaha..thats ok. It makes you unique! lol.


So…I just tried to draw pants for Brian but I couldn’t ever draw any good ones..Sam drew Hitler!!! LOL yeah. Ok so there’s nothing to say….I’m reading Harry Potter. I had a dream my pennecostal friend gave me an Earth Day card! cuzz I was thinking about sending one to will before i went to sleep…lol I WASNT THINKING ABOUT MY PENNECOSTAL FRIEND THOUGH, SAM! lol And I watched Finding Neverland last night and once again, CRIED. GAAAAH. *emotionalized out.*


I needa get back to watching Strong Bad emails…..i used to spend hours doing that. PLEASE DESIRE FOR STRONG BAD EMAILS COME BACK!!!! haaahaaa its such a good day. Sucks to be at school though!! SUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCKS!


BUT THATS OK….gah its like im hyper on the inside but not on the outside….writing..im writing hyper things…but i look dead. lol *SILLY!!!* OH yeah…we had an assembly this morning and we watched this thing on dignity, dicipline and uhh..something else. But yeah, it was cool for something you watch at CPHS! lol SOOo….i ❤ yall! xoxo, hil*

Hey! TODAY HAS BEEN SOOOO FUN! But im not gonna bore you with it…we rented finding neverland though and im buot to go watch it. Its been a lovely day though. Kylie and Sam are soooo silly! but im busy and i gotta run!!! SHORTEST POST EVER!!! xoxo, hil*

Ok heeeeey mucho to say!!!!


Went to Grandmother’s today. Visited..ate cake. Went to the Rec Hall with Megan…didnt skate cuzz we had 30 min til it closed. Met Brian at McDonalds…then we went to Dollar General and ran around and chilled in the tampon section, w00t. So…we bought some gum and then went to Megan’s cuzz Rita called all ticked…bah!! So then we went to McDonalds and we ate and Megan slid!!! Then they came to my house and we hung out and played Clue until 9. It was Miss Scarlet AKA whore with the revolver in the dining room!!!!!! Then we smeared black hair gel all over each other and while we were trying to get it off, Rita came…and *bah. They left me….*cry*!!


SAM EMAILED ME TODAY!!! We’re great again. Thanx 4 the support yall…MUCH LOVE!!! Yall are the frickin awesomest!!!! hahha. Well, hopes tomorrow is awesome. ELISA IS COMIN TO CHURCH WITH US!!!! YAAAAAAAY!!!!! Then we’ll go out to eat..call me or something!!! Maybe yall should come to church with me tomorrow night….maybe i’ll go to Grayson…one day. But not tomorrow! When Sam leaves for college, i’ll be with yall EVERY wednesday!!!!!! But for now, me and Sam are pimpin at the OBBC!! lol took Sam a while to realize that stood for old bethel baptist church…*love 4 Sam*


OK, IM GOIN TO BED!!!! KISSES!!!! HUGS!!!!! XOXO, HIL*


YAY I GET TO SLEEP WITH MAH RAMSEY TONIGHT!! haha rambo

boo, you whore. (hahahahahahah)


I just bit the inside of my mouth and it hurts like….BAM! But thats the least of my worries….xcept I keep biting it over and over until it bleeds because of my dang wisdom teeth coming in. This drives me insane. Uhm, we’re having cake at my Grandmother’s today for Uncle Blake and Aunt jan. Just when i’ve been resisting sweets, too. Gahh… anyway.


I’m ok, guys….and thats where it hurts. because i’m ok…and it seems the world around me is crumbling for so many others. I just wanna reach out a hand..but I cant. Not yet…not now. So, last night…I stayed up until like 3 because I couldn’t sleep…I worked a little bit on my box. I dunno why but I thought of doing one for Megan?!? Who knows. lol So when I get a new shoebox, i’m gonna try to make her one!! Cuzz boxes are the cool. So anyway, I wrote in my journal because i’d been avoiding it. Sometimes, when i’ve been writing in mah xanga, i can’t seem to write in my journal because all of my ecstacy has been drained- so I wrote last night about 3-4 pages. Then I got in my bed and listened to 98.3….love song requests. Finally went to sleep.


I woke up a while ago cuzz Mom called from the park and said to get up..so I went and took a bath. Not a shower, a bath. it was really weird…and now I just feel like I should go back to bed. I only got like 6 1/2 hours of sleep, HELLO!!! lol Well, I wanted to do something w/ Megan today but she signed off so abruptly last night that I didn’t get to discuss it with her. Maybe i’ll talk to her later. It -is- only like 10:40….maybe I won’t do anything today-like all week.


And of course, Sam and I haven’t spoken yet. I haven’t started Harry Potter cuzz im a crackhead slacker. But I will, jeff! Ok so, i’m about to go get ready…or sleep..lol Talk to you laters! Leave me love. You guys have been slackin with the comments!!! You have to beat the record of 20!!!!! hahahha! love yall! xoxo, hil* ….whats the diff. btwn and ??? The eyes are darker on the second…Gaahhh..!!!!!

Heeey..so today has been pretty much lame-o. I watched “Ray” and I cried!!! Well, that doesnt’ say much because I cant’ watch a movie without crying anymore. Gahh..oh well, ya know. Soo..then we took the movies back and went to Grandmother’s to visit Uncle blake..and i ate a rib and a bowl of ice cream and watched tv (joan of arcadia and some other shows)! Amber Tamblyn is rockin’ cool. Anyway, I just got home and brushed my teeth and now I think I’m gonna throw up…blegh.


I made a lil bitty collage of shirts to put over the chic’s boob on my wall. lol Yay for me! Well, me and Kylie were supposed to go walkin’ today but she didnt call back…wonder how babysittin’ went. And her and Sam were supposed to stay wimmie tonight but -you know-. So, I really think im about to throw up.. Jeff is making me read Harry Potter, so i’ll start on it after I finish The Last Vampire 2-but Jeff is telling me to read it TONIGHT! But no…cuzz im in LOOOVE w/ the vampire books!!!!!!!! I LOVE CHRISTOPHER PIKE!! OMGAAAH im RAMBLING, so im gonna go!! I looooooove you!!! Thank you for being wonderful!! MUAH! xoxo, hil*


Step by step, heart to heart, left right left
We all fall down like toy soldiers
Bit by bit, torn apart, we never win
But the battle wages on for toy soldiers

Whats up? Err….I just woke up like 30 minutes ago!!! hahahahha Im such a goofy slacker! But so is Adam Sandler, so its ok!!! I’m watchin Big Daddy and i LOOOOVVEEEE this movie!!!! and im talkin to will ! Im really happy today….OMGAAAHHHH the lights went off last night when i was AWAKE…and i was SCURRED!!! lol So when they came back on..i went to my room and sat on the floor and then did some workout things and then went to bed!! NOTHING CAN STOP ME FROM BEING FANFRICKINTASTIC! Cuzz Im just a kid and life is a nightmare!!!! w000t! lol HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY GO LUCKY! Ok-i’ll chill now..so you can leave me love! xoxo, hil*

I’m really upset right now…..because I’m trying to be mature and christian-like…and it’s backfiring on me. I apologized to Jonathan and Jessica on her xanga because we said some pretty hurtful things. I’m just scared that…she wont understand why I did it. I need a hug. I think i’m gonna throw up. Why when I try to do the right thing…it goes outta whack?


I’m asking people for advice….Arlene said I did the right thing and God will work out the rest. Brad said I did the right thing, too. But i’m still really upset although Arlene and Brad made me feel better.


I’m about to cry…or throw up. or both. Brad keeps making me laugh. and Arlene keeps making me happy…but..gah


LilLeNe42: u did what u felt was right and the good thing is that u told her b4 it was too late ya know and the good thing is that u did what u believed u didn’t back down even though things are crazy now


Seth said: If you did what your True Will drove you towards, then yes, you did the right thing


Now im about to cry because I love my friends… hehe…i need will or kaylin…i mean, everybody has given me great advice…but I really just need Will & Kaylin……..where are you?? Well, I can’t worry about it…that wont help any


He’s right. I can’t worry anymore. Thank you everybody, I love you guys. All I can do is pray about it….thanx yall
Well, im gone now. Pray for me please!!!! xoxo, hil*

hey kids, how’s life? great here. Uhm, i cleaned my room this morning so it’s actually awesome! lol. I think Sam is gonna come over here in a lil while to watch Raise your Voice w/ me! Well, im bored so im gonna post you some lil icon things and such! MUAH! xoxo, hil*


for Sam and all the other chics who are pretty in pink!  this is SOOOO sweet!! CANT WAIT! true for so many people…aww hehehe YES MA’AM! for all you mario fans!! hehe I ❤ Mario! AWWWWWWW! THATS TOO SWEEET! IIII WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOUUUU! just say it already…gah you’re actin like me or soemthinguh huh..LOVE THAT ONE! GOD BLESS MIDOL, lol! hahahah! more later cuzz sam is here


 

Quotes


“I’ll always be the dreamer and you will always be the dream.”


I dropped a tear in the sea, the day I find it will be the day I stop loving you.”


she wanted to tell him how she felt
tell him how many hours she cried
her heart out..  finally one day she
got the courage up to try.. he just
ignored her & walked on by..”


I don’t want to be that girl
that stares at you while you’re not looking
I don’t want to be that girl that gets jealous
if you talk to anyone else…
I don’t want to be that girl that cry’s every night
because she wants something she can’t have but I am,
so I guess that I have to live with it.


when hot isnt hot
and cold isnt
cold
when people start growing
young
instead of
old
when 1+1 doesnt equal
2
is the day I’ll stop lovin you.


Here’s a quiz cuzz its 1130 and mah AIM is broken



Basic Info….
[Marital Status] Single!


[Height] 5 foot something, who really keeps track of height?[Parents still together] yes ma’am! awesome!
[Siblings] Rachel {22} Tony {19} & all the other fakers out there!
[Pets] dogs..Max, Honey & Ramsey (mah sister’s dog) and then tons of cats.
[school/grade] Freshman at CPHS

Favorites:
[Color] blue, hello!
[Number] 3 and 7 and 13! lol 3 the most though!
[Animal] I love to be around puppies and cute kittens! Never much cared for anything scary like tigers and lions and bears! Oh my! But I love cows & chickens! Goats are always awesome. And then there’s llamas…who are cool because they’re llamas.         [Drink] Sweet Tea, Water, cherry & strawberry limeades        [Book] Aimee, number the stars, anything lurlene mcdaniel, Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants books, the midnight club by christopher pike is the BEST! and..all the last vampire and remember me books!
Do you…..
[Color your hair?] with markers!!!! hahah nope i dont               [Twirl your hair?] when i’m talking to people…
[Have tattoos?] nope..scared!
[Have Piercings?] ears..which are growin up so i culd juss say no..
[Cheat on tests/homework?] havent cheated on a test since last year in coach johnson’s class! lol and then homework…yeah when i forget mine
[Drink/Smoke?] nope!!!!                                                        [Like roller coasters?]  Kinda…get real scared though!               [Wish you could live somewhere else?] sometimes, but I would miss my friends!!!
[Like cleaning?] HA..actually sometimes i get in weird cleaning moods…but i never finish the project!!!                                   [Know how to drive?] well yeah…who doesnt know how to drive?


Have you ever…
[Been in a fist fight?] no ma’am! ALMOST hahah ok not really
[Kicked someone in the nuts?] accidentally                             [Stolen anything?] almost


[Held a gun?] yes but i HATE guns
[Drank?] yes
[Been so drunk you couldn’t remember your name?] no way!!!
[Considered a life of crime?] no I don’t look good in stripes and orange isnt really my color either
[Considered being a hooker?] lol No ma’am! SAm! lol
[Cheated on someone?] nope.
[Cried over a girl?] not in that way!
[Cried over a boy?] a million times
[Lied to someone?] more than i could count, sry kids.
[Been in love?] not yet. i hear its comin!
[Fallen for your best friend?] well…in a way!
[Made out with JUST a friend?] nah uh
[Been rejected?] scared of rejection.                                        [Been in lust?] Oh mah gahhh yes.
[Used someone?] yes..but i didnt even realize i was doin it
[Been used?] think so
[Been cheated on?] nope                                                 [considered homosexuality] Nope….


Currently….
[Current clothing] beta jammy pants and lifeguard shirt
[Current mood] bored…aggrivated
[Current taste] nothing.
[What you currently smell like] something from victorias secret…MMMM yeah baby lol
[Current hair] right on the top of mah head in a bun!!! sooo silly lookin!
[Current thing I ought to be doing] SLEEPING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!![Current cds in stereo] 70s music
[Current crush] lol crush? thats a joke 4 real! *ahahaha* but if you love me alot then you know who i “want”
[Current job] no current job bc i am lazy

The last time…
[Last book you read] the last vampire 2 by christopher pike    [last movie you saw] im about to go watch boys and girls and ray and raise your voice!!! but the last movie i watched was dude, where’s my car?                                                                    [Last thing you ate] chocolate
[Last person you talked to on the phone] some woman askin 4 Scott….
Do you…
[Play an instrument?] piano
[Believe there is life on other planets?] nah
[Believe it’s possible to remain faithful forever?] its possible, yes
[Do well in school?] kinda
[Have a secret crush?] LOL secret? i have no secrets!             [Collect anything?] used to collect bells….now prolly nothing [Care about looks?] sometimes…

Love life
[First crush] some kid in kindergarten                                   [single or attached?] single
[Do you believe in love at first sight?] yes
[Have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing?] Heck yeah!!                                                            [Are you a tease?] naw…except one time..i had a shirt that said it and it glowed in the dark..ooo i loved that shirt! and this really skanky guy who i would like to shoot called me a tease…
[Shy to make the first move?] yeah!!! scared of rejection

Are you a…
[Wuss] Yes
[Druggy] no
[Daydreamer] yes!!!!
[Freak] been called it a bunch of times.
[Dork] yes


[B***H/A**HOLE] yes, can be. try not to be
[Sarcastic] NEVER! haha                                                      [Angel] yep of course so
[Devil] naw!
[Shy] heccckk yess                                                            [Talkative] try to be
[Flirty] not really…
~~~~


“When a man takes one step toward God, God takes more steps toward that man than there are sands in the world of time.” -The Work of the Chariot









we will seek You first, Lord
You will hear our voices
early in the morning and late in the night
we will sing Your praises
giving You the glory
offering our lives to You
a holy sacrifice


“As His disciples, our lives must be a holy example of the reality of our message.  Even the natural heart of the unsaved will serve if called upon to do so, but it takes a heart broken by conviction of sin, baptised by the Holy Spirit, and crushed into submission to God’s purpose to make a person’s life a holy example of God’s message.”  — Oswald Chambers


LAYER ONE:
— name: Hilary Rebekah Nelson
— birthplace: Monroe, Louisiana
— current Location: Caldwell, LA


LAYER TWO:
— eye color: hazel green/brown
— hair color: Brown!! wish it was auburn tho
— height: need to measure…5 foot somtehing i know
— righty or lefty: righty!! yes maam
— zodiac sign: Leo! lol
— your heritage: Irish…
— the shoes wore today: pink flipflops
— your weakness:  Reese’s peanut butter cups baby!
— your fears: rejection, sry but really it is– your perfect pizza: pepperoni-extra cheese
— goal you’d like to achieve: having a family!

LAYER THREE:
— your most overused phrase on AIM: lol & omg
— your thoughts first waking up: I WANNA GO BACK TO SLEEP
— your bedtime: I try during the week for 10
— your most missed memory: many good memories…GBC memories



LAYER FOUR:
— Pepsi or coke: Coke
— mcdonald’s or burger king: mcdonalds


— Single or group dates: whatever
— addidas or nike: adidas


— lipton ice tea or nestea: lipton


— chocolate or vanilla: chocolate!
— cappuccino or coffee: Coffee/ umm ok i like both ask those who know me well


 


LAYER FIVE:
— smoke: No way..gross!
— cuss:  me? umm try not to!!!
— sing: in the shower!
— shower everyday: yes
— have a crush: believe it or not at the moment, no..gasp! But have had a few really large ones these past few years


— like(d) high school: yep!
— want to get married: Of course..to prince charming I might add


— believe in yourself:  I believe I can fly..(oh wait that is a song)
— get motion sickness: haven’t been known to


— think you’re attractive: ok these are silly questions, not how is a person suppose to answer that, if they say yes people think they are vain if no, then people think low self -concept…but no i dont


— think you’re a health freak: no
— get along with your parent(s): for the most part maybe
— play an instrument: play piano



LAYER SIX:

in the past month…
— drank alcohol: nah..
— smoked: like I said…ummm gross!
— done a drug: does tylenol count?
— had sex: now honestly, who do u think I am? NO!


— made out: no
— gone on a date: no


— gone to the mall?: yes!
— eaten an entire box of oreos: Nope, thank God
— been on stage: Nah uh
— been dumped: Nope, no boy so no getting dumped..whoo hoo?
— gone skating: No:(
— made homemade cookies: nope


— gone skinny-dipping: No


— Dyed your hair: No, all natural
— stolen anything: No



LAYER SEVEN:

Have you ever…
— played a game that required removal of clothing: lol yeah one time


— been trashed or extremely intoxicated:  no


— been caught “doing something”: nooo

LAYER EIGHT:
— age you hope to be married: I don’t think you can plan that.. when I meet that guy I feel is the “right one” I guess…hmm well I think a good age would maybe be like 25, 26..but like I said can i really plan this?
— numbers and names of children: 5-embry, horizon, andrew, rainy & something else


— describe your dream wedding: BEACH!!!


— how do you want to die: in my sleep of course!
— where you want to go to college: not sure right now….will confused me


— what do you want to be when you grow up: successful psychologist


— what country would you most like to visit: EUROPE!



LAYER NINE:
— best eye color? what’s behind the eyes is what really matters, someone’s whos eye’s “sparkle” from personality!


— best hair color? brown
— short or long hair: long
— height: I have tended to be attracted to taller guys
— best articles of clothing: ??


— best first date location: i think as long as having fun together…


— best first kiss location: at the right moment…ideally walking barefoot on the beach with the sun setting in the distance..j/k although that would be cool

LAYER TEN:
— # of drugs taken illegally: don’t do drugs, drugs aren’t cool
— # of friends I could trust with my life: a few!


— # of CDs that I own: I don’t know…ALOT


— # of piercing: 1 in each ear
— # of tattoos: negative
— # of scars on my body: hmm i would have to count



Last Person Who…
— Slept in your bed? kylie


— Saw you cry? Made you cry? uhm sam im sure lol


— Spent the night at your house? kylie


— You shared a drink with? mom?
— You went to the movies with? jessica and ppl
— You went to the mall with? my mom?
— Yelled at you? one of my parents probably
— Sent you an email? who knows

Have Your Ever…
— Said “I love you”? yep!


— Been to New York? nooo


— Been to Georgia? no


— California? no
— Hawaii? no
— Mexico?  no
— China? No
— Canada? yes
— Danced naked? …


— Dreamed something really crazy and then happened the next day? not the next dya


— Stalked someone? sure

Pick One…
— Apples or bananas? i like both
— Red or blue? blue
— Walmart or Kmart? walmart
— Math or English? English
— radio or CD? radio!
— drawing or painting? drawing


— High school or college? both

The Last Few Questions…
— Last time you went out of the state? summer


— Things you like in a Guy?  sense of humor, genuine, educated, someone I can truely be myself around and just click with, tall, dark, and handsome (J/K) ! (Although I wouldn’t MIND that :)..i suppose)


–Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? Nope I am single
— What do you think of ouija board? satan


— What book are you reading now? last vampire 2


— What’s on your mouse pad? pic of me sam and coty on daredevil falls


 — Favorite board game? clue
— Favorite magazines? rolling stone
— Favorite sound? christmas songs in the department stores around christmas and rain


— Worst feeling in the world? getting a terrible phone call where your stomach sinks to your feet cause something is so bad
— Do you like scary or exciting roller coasters? i wouldn’t say i love them
— How many rings before you answer? as soon as i can get to the phone


— Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? maybe.
— If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be? one of those beach bums who manages a bed and breakfast on the shoreline of a nice warm beach with clear waters


— What are you going to do after you finish this survey? sleep