Tiffa called me today. But I was at Grayson. She told Rachel she wanted to apologize. I didn’t call her back cuzz I figured she’d call me back…well she hasn’t. I guess I was acting like a child and should’ve called but I didn’t and now its like 9:15 and im not really wanting to call anybody now. Let alone have to apologize and stuff. Maybe we’ll talk tomorrow.


Church was ok tonight. Sam was kinda mad and I was mad for her! lol. I feel her pain!!! We talked about Blue Collar Comedy Tour stuff all night..lol. Gotta love the hick town! *MUAH* I’ll give u an update tomorrow!!!! *kisses for my hookers* (lol)


xoxo, hil*


 

Hey Hey, whats kicken? Not so much here. School was ok today. Everybody is over all the crap and they’re back to their normal happy go lucky selves again. Uhm..I found out some crap today….Tiffa was supposedly on the phone when Eric called me last Wednesday! *cant believe this crap started only a week ago*


RAR RAR im about to go to Sam’s!! Yesterday, we all went to Grayson (me, sam & katie) and it was greatly fun!!! Then I went to piano..i’m still not ready 4 festival. PRAY 4 ME! lol..


Eric, I apologize for saying i’d show your emails…I really wouldn’t. Because #1) She’d prolly think I wrote them myself #2) I’m not out for revenge #3) I dont wanna hurt you anymore…


Love yall (WILL, JEFF AND KAYLIN!!!! LOL)


XOXO, HIL*

Why do I even write in my xanga anymore? The only person who reads it is Will and I tell him everything anyways!!! But oh well, here I go anyway.


TIFFA WAS SHOWING RANDOM PEOPLE THE EMAIL I WROTE ERIC 2 WEEKENDS AGO! lol. Uhm yeah she was. It’s ok bc it didnt say anything I can be ashamed of, lol. And..if stuff gets outta hand (cuzz she’s still trying to hurt me..) Imma just show her Eric’s responses to my emails and see how they like that! Eric needs to make her stop…or I will-no threats. Promises!


Everything is rockin’ other than that junk! I’m not hurting at all anymore, lol… Smile though your heart is breaking! Im not even doin that! I’m genuinely SMILING!!!! YAAAY! Love to Jesus! lol. well imma go..love ya! xoxo, hil*

I didn’t write yesterday…uhm..it was a good day. I havent talked to anybody really…I slept forever yesterday cuzz I hadnt been getting good sleep. We didnt have church last night so I ate pizza and went to bed! I read SOTTP and then started the third one…its the only thing good about today. People keep looking and me and smiling and I just halfheartedly smile back…maybe when you stop caring about one thing, you stop caring about everything. I hope not though…..it’ll get better.


xoxo, hil*

Sorry about writing 3 times in 1 day…but Mrs. Debbie, Tiffany’s mom called my mom tonight…for no apparant reason. They talked and I graded papers and junk. Nothing got settled and everybody wants me to just leave it alone. I just hate how im blamed for it all.


 “There were so many things she’d lost”


“It’s cold in here-there’s no one left-but i’ll wait for you”


“I’m crying inside-but nobody knows it but me” xoxo, hil*

Hey-what’re u doin? Not so much here. Just got done watching Sam talk to Eric. It was a sad conversation, lol. So i’ve been so stressed out these past 3 days. We’ve eaten like 800 sweettart hearts. But its ok….sugar rush-headache-feel like dying, but thats ok…


I watched Secret Window this morning with Sam!!! It was SO good!! lol. I LOVED IT!!! We ran to Popeyes and ate then ran Rachel to Katelyn’s house…and came home. Started watchin the ya ya sisters, then took Rach to popeyes to get her car. We came home and watched the Ya-Ya movie and I cried! it was so sweet! lol. Then we talked to Eric, and now..here I am.


My family keeps griping at everything. Coty supposedly thinks this is funny..Im just stressed out and everybody is getting on my FRIGGIN NERVES!!! JUST SHUT UP EVERYBODY!! DANG!


I apologize to you, Eric, for venting bout you on here. xoxo, hil*

Hey Erhm….WHATZ KICKEN?!??! Last night was fun! We watched “The Forgotten” and it was soo good until it got GAY!! haha we screamed 4 times!!! lol. Weirdly, we went to bed at midnight!! lol. We talked about some funny crap before then though! lol. I told my mom that Eric emailed me and shes like “ooh no he didnt, imma go call him and gripe him out” lol. My mom is so silly you guys! So last night I put colors and bold-ed and made some words bigger on an email Eric sent me so I can send it to Tiffa lol…it was fun! Well…we still gotta watch The Secret Window and Divine Secrets of the YaYa Sisterhood..so i’ll write either more tonight or more tomorrow!!! Maybe something cool will happen!! lol. *MUAH*


xoxo, hil*

ok ERIC…..you know what? you made me VERY upset. VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY! Did you much care? I dunno. Honestly, i’ve been thinking and praying and I know I was as much in the wrong as she was!!!! I am just gonna stop talking to ANYBODY about my feelings because SOMEBODY is gonna go crazy! I didn’t ever talk about tiffany behind her back to my friends…i told them that she hated me and I told them the whole problem AFTER she griped at me ( since you think we’re gonna magically ‘talk it out’ )  YOU THINK ABOUT IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


You and Tiffa both needa get your FACTS STRAIGHT before you gripe at ANYBODY ELSE!!!!!!!!! OK?? I can jump down your throat all I want because I HAVE A RIGHT TO! I WAS NEVER ANYTHING BUT NICE TO YOU AND YOU…..oh gah……YOU LET YOUR GIRLFRIEND…..TALK ABOUT WHO WAS SUPPOSED TO BE YOUR BEST FRIEND!! AND WHERE THE CRAP DO YOU GET OFF SAYING YOU WERE ONLY FRIENDS WITH ME BC U FELT SORRY FOR ME??? WHAT THE FREAKING CRAP FOR MAN? IM NOT HELPLESS, IM NOT LONELY…THERES NO REASON YOU SHOULD FEEL SORRY FOR ME!!!! If you wanna take up for her-you go ahead……it shows how down right low you are.


NOW….for TIFFA: I apologize from the depths of my heart for talking about you behind your back. I know it was wrong and i’m in the wrong as much as you were yesterday. As if you didn’t know, i’m human and I fall just as badly as anybody else. I’m not the best person in the world..I do apologize for that…I didn’t know I was saying anything that would hurt you…I just thought i’d tell my friends the problem and how much you hated me so I hated you back. YOu know for a fact I never had a problem with you until you had a problem with me and thought I was after your boyfriend…. CAN A GIRL NOT BE FRIENDS WITH A GUY WITHOUT WANTING HIM?!??!?! GAH! IM SORRY, OK? I never meant for any of this to happen…but it still gives you no right to tell Eric who he can and cannot be friends with nevertheless……


ERIC…im so fed up with this crap. ESPECIALLY YOU EMAILING ME WHEN YOUR GIRLFRIEND CLEARLY SAID FOR US TO NOT SPEAK TO EACH OTHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YA KNO WHAT? MY MOM IS SOOO TICKED AT YOU!!!!! SOOOO TICKED!! AND MY MOM DONT EVEN GET MAD AT ANYBODY!! YOU FRIGGIN CALLED MY HOUSE AND ASKED MY MOM WHERE YOU WERE ALL INNOCENT LIKE AND THEN YOU CAME AND LET TIFFA GRIPE ME OUT……THAT IS SO WRONG!!!


AND DO YALL NOT REMEMBER ME CLEARLY SAYING I DONT CARE THAT YOU’RE DATING? I DIDNT GIVE A CRAP…I STILL DONT AND I HOPE YOU GET MARRIED AND NOT EVER HAVE ANY FRIENDS OF YOUR OWN!!! THE CATS!!! OH THE CATS! SAM…THIS IS WHERE THE DANG CATS COME IN!!! SO ERIC..YOU LISTEN HERE AND YOU LISTEN GOOD…YOU’VE MESSED UP BIG THIS TIME…I’VE NEVER GOT MAD AT YOU BEFORE BUT THIS IS WHERE I CROSS THE LINE! ABOUT 3 DAYS AGO YOU EMAILED ME AND TOLD ME YOU’D NEVER LET TIFFA GET IN THE WAY OF OUR FRIENDSHIP AND WHAT DID YA DO?!?!? HUH? YOU LIED!!!!! LIKE ALWAYS!!!! IM SO FED UP WITH PEOPLE’S LIES!!!!!!!!!! I JUST WANT YOU TO TELL ME HOW YOU GOT OFF LETTING TIFFA TELL ME THAT YOU WERE ONLY FRIENDS WITH ME BC U FELT SORRY FOR ME!!!!!


SO NOT ONLY AM I DISCONTINUING MY FRIENDSHIP WITH YOU BECAUSE OF YOUR GIRLFRIEND, IM DISCONTINUING IT BECAUSE YOU’RE A LIAR AND A COWARD!! OH BOY…YOU DIDNT SAY ANYTHING BC U DIDNT KNOW WHAT TO SAY?!?! WHY DIDNT YOU SAY…HEY HILARY…I’M BETRAYING YOU BECAUSE I AM A LIAR!!!! BECAUSE I WOULDVE RESPECTED YOU MORE IF YOU WOULDVE DONE THAT!!!! YOU SHOULDVE LET ME DOWN ONCE AND FOR ALL INSTEAD OF DOING IT PIECE BY PIECE!! YOU KNOW I ADMIRED YOU FOR A YEAR AND A HALF!!!!


I understand perfectly how Tiffa felt-thats why I appologize. But thats not where it stops. Obviously, YOU…mr. im just friends with you cuzz i feel sorry for you- didn’t tell Tiffa everything you’ve said in my emails…im not the kinda girl to tell stuff on people….but if she bothers me again….i’ll let her read them ALL!!!!! AND YA KNO WHAT? YOU SHOULDNT THREATEN SOMEONE!!!!!


SO now…for everybody else…..i’ve had a lovely day and i’m going to have a lovely night..i’m not worried about Eric and Tiffany…but Leslie keeps telling me stuff she tells me to say….by the way…IM NOT A SKANK!!!!! I COULD BLACK MAIL YOU TO THE MOON ERIC OLDEN!!!!!!!! Yeah…it was a fun-o day. Megan and I talked some…well i’m gone…..goodbye! xoxo, hil*


 

Hey-uhm..im kinda having a bad day..but not cuzza this crap…just cuzz Sambo the ho isn’t here and nobody has made me laugh! haha * many tears * So Megan supposedly wrote Eric an email……I dunno if thats such a good thing..Sam said it isnt… so my mom is TICKED at Eric!! HAHA ITS SO FUNNY..my house is crazy right now cuzza Eric and Tiffa! I love it! HAHA… I SO almost called Mitch last night!! Im like “IMMA GET THE COPS INVOLVED!!” hahahaha…it was great. Ya know….its all good though. Even though im supposed to be SO mad at Eric….gah I just feel SO bad for him..but i guess thats the way its always been. I’ve never been this mad at him before…cuzz we always said we’d get over anything! HECK two days ago he said Tiffa wouldn’t come in between our friendship!! OH MAN-i could tell tiffa some STUFF! I wont-cuzz i’ve always been a faithful friend but OH I COULD!!!! Well i rekon I g2g! BYE! xoxo, hil*