Oh gah…I have a need for my xanga right about now…


I went walking with Sam at Grayson and Tiffany and Eric showed up. Tiffany threatened to beat me up, lol. Yeah she was like crying and she was dragging Eric along like he was on a leash…She said ” I told Eric that he’s not ALLOWED to be friends with you anymore ” blah blah blah. She told me that Eric was only friends with me cuzz he felt sorry for me and all this jazz. I was in such surprise that the girl would randomly show up like that that I said barely three sentences!!! I was so MAD that I didnt say stuff right then cuzz I had a million words to say when she left. I mean…..Sam and I were in such shock that we didnt know what to do…so she says I can’t speak to Eric ANYMORE and all this jazz…We both are in need of your prayers cuzz we’re “all shook up” mm mm mm! haha! Yeah, she made me VERY mad!! She said the S word!!! haha.. Sam and I like screamed around and talked for hours and I think I cried out of shock..then I laughed like a crazy person…and I just had fun with it all. Eric was friends with me cuzz he felt sry for me..you know how PATHETIC I AM!!! HAHAHA!!! TIFFA DOESNT KNOW THE HALF OF IT!!!!!!!! I INTRODUCED THEM! HAHA..LOOK AT ME!!! IM SOOO PATHETIC! I DONT HAVE ANY FRIENDS!! Guess what Tiffa! Guess what ERIC OLDEN!! I’M NOT GONNA CRAWL UP AND DIE NOW!!! I’LL BE JUST FINE!!!! HAHA YEAH I WILL! I’m above all your CRAP..not the S word like you and your DIRTY MOUTH said!!!! Maybe it was for the best…I dont needa be caught up with people who are gonna be like that! First of all I was just mad at Tiffa!! Now i’m mad at Eric because he’s being SUCH a coward!!!!! IF HE WANTED TO SAY SOMETHING…HE SHOULDA SAID IT!!! Ya know what…i’m sooo not sad anymore. IF YOU READ THIS ERIC AND YOU WANNA SAY ITS ALL TIFFAS FAULT…NOPE. I WONT BREAK DOWN…BC YA KNO WHY?? YOU’RE SUCH A FRIGGIN LIAR AND A COWARD!!!!


SO now….*smiles*..guess what!! NEWS FROM OLD BETHEL! We’re gonna make a family LIFE center!!! YAY!! It’s gonna be bigger than Grayson’s and its gonna have sleeping quarters for visiting preachers!!! HOW GROOVY!!!!! hahahha!! im sooo excited!


(((((Sometimes the night starts closing in
And I’ve lost my way home again
I’m running out of places I can turn
Enemies on every side
Not a friend around for miles
That’s the time it really starts to hurt

PRE-CHORUS:
Beat me up and drag me down
I’ll never be afraid

CHORUS:
I will hold my head high
Lift my hands to the sky
Rise above all who try to bring me down
I will hold my head high

I know you said it’d be okay
Sometimes I question just the same
I wonder if my problems are too small
Then I look back and realize
All your pain and sacrifice
Oo, and how you suffered for us all))))) –Third Day

Well…yeah today was a lot better. After school yesterday Sam and I went to Grayson and walked for a while. I called Eric -mad I might add- and he didnt answer…he called me back when I got home at like 5 something. I talked to him about everything and it didnt really settle ANYTHING but thats ok…for now. I went to church and won 816 sweet tart hearts!! lol. Yay for me. I wrote Tiffa a letter this morning and Sam gave it to her….everythings gonna be ok cuzz Im not putting up with crap anymore. I DRAW THE LINE!! hahaha.


I had fun today-because Sam and Katie and me are MEGA DORKS who love Coach Denison!!! haha


I REALLY appreciate yall posting those memories…I love you guys!!!! YAY! Well GOODBYE 4 NOW! xoxo, hil*

Well hi…hows it going? I just dont care anymore…about people. I HATE PEOPLE! THEY’RE SUCH WHORES!! GAH! you cant rely on ANYBODY in this world!! DIEEEEEEEEEE! *grrs.*


haha ok im over that. Guess what happened today! Tiffa decides to confront me about some junk cuzz Mr. ERIC told her I wrote him a long email about how I didnt want him being around her or something. Ya know what Eric? THAT TICKS ME OFF! YEAH IT DOES! I dont friggin CARE if him and Tiffa are together! All I did was miss my friend and every friggin person starts jumping down my throat for it-ya kno what? NOPE. Not gonna deal with it! I don’t CARE about Tiffa anymore!!! OK? She came up and was all ” i heard u didnt like me or something ” and im like…HAHAHA no. u dont like me! and shes like blah blah……and im like ahhh *is all nice* But I told her- Eric was my best friend and you stole him from me…and all I ever was was hurt and you got everything you wanted!!!! SCREW FRIGGIN YOU


Sooo after all this crap, Sam still loves me and shes the greatest friend in the world! What would I do without her?!? Gahhh…I totally need our togetherness grayson time today….but my mom had a faculty meeting! Dang! So Imma buy Coach Denison a heart tomorrow-awwwh!! Sam & Katie bought him hearts today!! HAHA I LOVE YOU GIRLS! Ya know what? Pennecostals + girls with mustaches = TICK ME OFF!!!!! GAH!!! I havent been MAD…….HOLY WHORES I HATE PEOPLE


Well I better go ‘fore I say something to offend you more…..but ya know what? Sam said I can’t die because she hasn’t bought her matching clothes yet and because we havent got our pics on the cover of the rolling stone!!!!!!! hahahahahahahah thank God for sam


xoxo, hil*


*If you read this
*You must post a memory of me.
*It can be anything you want,
*it can be good or bad.
*Just so long as it happened.
*Then post this to your journal,
*And see what people remember about you…

Well…I just sat here and cried and cried…now i’m just….so crazy feeling…. so sad but so relieved….so calm….but so hysterical. Oh, i’m going crazy-I know. But everything will get better in time..thats what he said..thats what I believe. He’s one of the only people who I believe when he says everything is gonna be ok…He’s my best friend….


In other things…school was long today. I don’t remember anything..i never do….im so scared that I won’t be alone any more to email him back…we just need time to straighten things out. we can do it..right? Friendship like we have can’t die..I know that for a fact…because it never has…I mean me and megan still talk….ah i burnt her a nirvana cd….only good thing about today was smells like teen spirit was in my head.


Well…pray for me…and all the others          xoxo, hil*

Hey hey everybody, what u doin?? yeah. today has been a day!! It RAINED on me!! YAHOO!!! hehe. And let’s see. I got 100 bazillion emails and quizzer thingers from my crew. I talked to Victor-keep him in ur prayers. Uhm…I got the 3rd Sisterhood book! Gah Im sooo EXCITED!! you have no idea! I’m not gonna read it for a while though lol. How groovy of me. I’m ESTATIC! haha and I found a really cool site. like www.habbohotel.com !!! i’m smurfstomper, lol.


Well, I better run..ttyl!


xoxo, hil*

Hey you guys… guess who’s high on Jesus!! YEAH, ME!


WHAT IF I SAID JESUS REAL LOUD?!??! It’d be really cool. lol. So Nicole Richmond came home this weekend!! She’s so sweet, ya gotta love her! Church was great this morning. I’ve gotten so much more open about talking about Jesus..it’s really great. I thank God for everything he’s done in my life…this week even. Keep praying for me and some other people I have in mind..lol. And if yall wanna randomly drop in on me and come to church wimmie one Sunday night or somethhing, i’d LOVE it!! WELL I LOVE YOU!


I think we’re going to Johnnys or something tonight with the whole tribe (me, sam, seth, nicole, maybe more..) so this shall be fun!!! I love my church friends!


xoxo, hil*

MR. DRAMA ROCKED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


He did an impersonation (sp?) of ELVIS!!! IT WAS SO GROOVY OF HIM!! PAUL CAME AND I HAD SOOO MUCH FUN! PAUL IS A DORK! HAHA I LUV YA PAUL! OTR


ALADDIN LOOKED VERY NICE TONIGHT-I MUST ADD. IT WAS VERY COOL And then…..i dunno everything was great. I ate a hotdog and a brownie and sam’s nacho with paul. i WAS HOOONGRY! (SAM HAHA)


I LOVE JESUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!        xoxo, hil*

I’ve got your back, you’ve got mine. Like Johnny Cash said I’ll Walk The Line. –Bowling for Soup


So what’s up you guys? Nothin much here. I feel like crap today. Cuzz I didn’t rest all week and  I was sick. Now I’m dead ya kno. But its ok cuzz imma go see Mr. Drama tonight- lol!!!! Yeah! Rox, eh? I emailed Eric last night for 2 hours. It was uber long. I’m really hungry..I just noticed that. I WISH PEOPLE WOULD COMMENT ON MY XANGA NOW A DAYS! lol. I comment on everybodys. But thats ok…Julie stayed with Sam last night and Nicole is stayin with them tonight. Eric and Tiffany are coming to see Mr. Drama with us!! Awwh. Kinda awwh. lol. So, you know how long it’s been since i’ve gotten in real trouble? SO LONG MAN! It’s so cool now because back then I was always worried about gettin in trouble and i never worry anymore cuzz im not bad anymore. WELL-it’s food time for me. Come to see Mr. Drama at 6:30 at Old Bethel and gimmie a hug!! 


 xoxo, hil* 

YO YO YO!!! I got piano any minute!! lol. I love playing!! the piano that is! I gotta call Eric today….or something. Yeah, I dunno. This weekend is gonna be sucky, i think. But come to Mr. DRAMA Saturday at Old Bethel at 6:30 PM!!!!! LOVE YA! xoxo, hil*


-edit due to the fact that im sooo bored-


I’m trying to find my username on the GBC website cuzz I haven’t been there since my birthday!!! lol.. Yeah, everything is going great right now. I kinda wish I was in Africa on a mission trip, lol. I’m sooo crazy I guess. I have a major desire to do that though. If you wanna find a way to go, we could go together..lol U have no idea. I’m soo serious! Well I ❤ you


xoxo, hil*

hey-i’m at school. it kinda sucks..but im havin a GREAT day!! Everything’s going GREAT!!! YAY FOR ME!!! lol. Anywho-i’m ready for tomorrow night already. I gotta catch up on my sleep this weekend, MAN!! But if you wanna do something or something-i dont have to sleep!!! SLEEP IS BAD!! lol. Anywho, since i’m just rambling here at school…..i’ll talk to you guys LATERS!!!! BYE OH BYE!


xoxo, hil*