I haven’t written in a while and there’s no way I can catch up on the things that happened. Most things that happened can’t even be described with words, believe me, we’ve tried. A random guy came into our lives and threw us a curve ball, tripped us out… We stopped partying as much. Jessica’s wonderful grandfather, Mr. Bobby Joe Girod passed away. Jeska’s cousin, Joque was also killed. Jeska and Brian broke up and I threatened to do Spiderman push-ups on his face.There has been great tragedy this past week. But there has also been closeness.
We’ve grown closer to Crystal. And we’ve stayed countless nights at Rusty’s. We’ve partied on the sandbar and made a fire on the beach, we’ve drank so much tequila that we thought it would be fun to go skinny dipping at the boat docks, we’ve gone to eat sushi and most importantly, we’ve had days where we looked around and appreciated what we had. 🙂
Oh oh and me and Rusty made an AMAZING country playlist!!!!! ^.^ It’s soooo the best ever!!!!
I’ve cried more in the last weekend than I have in the year 2009.
Every day it gets closer to Rusty’s departure. And every day, I get more sad. I cry for longer periods of time and I try to keep my self occupied, but usually find myself smoking cigarette after cigarette with him in long conversation. Or listening to Skillet. 🙂
School started yesterday. If I can get through this quarter, I can figure out what I truly want to do. I just have to focus on passing school right now. It’s hard though since I want to be spending all my time with Rusty before he leaves.
But for now, I’m going to listen to country until I fall asleep. Tomorrow, I’ll go to Math and History. I’ll pay attention. I’ll try to start over. And after class, I’ll go home and love a little stronger. I’ll show everyone how much I care. And I’ll be happy. The real kind of happy that I feel whenever we’re all laying down to go to sleep at night.
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