There’s no place to hide….

the sun is going to shine, and the rain is going to fall.
in the end you might get burnt or wet, but that’s life.
so dance in the puddles, and bathe in the sun.
at the end of day, smile.

everything is going to be alright.

I’ve had a wonderful week. This no school thing definitely works for me. It makes me really hate school, but I know high school is the best time of your life. So, I love it…believe me now. The flood was completely awesome. It made me smile so much, but that’s only because it didn’t really affect me badly. I feel for the ones it did affect because I had so much fun with it. Today, I went to school for three hours and my Aunt Dana checked me out and took me to see Jorie. I was soo mad ’cause we sat in the doctor’s office for like an hour and a half or something. It was so miserable. But I have an ear infection and it is SO unfortunate and uncomfortable. My ear is all stopped up and I can’t hear and it’s so gay. Then, we went to McDonalds, dropped off my prescription and she brought me home. We talked about how everybody is growing up so fast. Y’know, I’m 16! Maurly’s already 8 years old!! *sigh* Liiiife is crazy fast.

There’s been some things bothering me lately, but not really bad things..just like little things. And Jeff always tells me that when it all comes down to it, all you’ve got is yourself and God..and you have to learn to love yourself and everything. Well, I do love myself, ya know? Because I mean, sometimes you have to love yourself ‘cuz you get thrown a lot of false mess from the world saying you’re not good enough and you’re not pretty enough and whatever. Well, I know I’m not the movie type girl. I’m not pretty. I’m not skinny. I’m not funny. I’m not even that smart. But I’m me. And I know that this world may never notice the my good qualities and features, so I’m going to have to. I might just be an ordinary girl to the world or to my school or even to my friends and family. But, i’m no ordinary girl to God. He made me especially and he created every part of me special. He knew when I was born that I wouldn’t be all that attractive and I’d have low self-esteem and I wouldn’t be popular and whatever..but you know what? God don’t make no junk! God LOVES me. He has allowed me to live on this world for 16 years and has continued to love me through all of the years that I’ve been immature and tried to break all of his rules. So, when the rain pours, God is always standing there with an umbrella..and even if you don’t look to him until you’re soaked, he’s still waiting with a towell.

Always remember that you were fearfully and wonderfully made. And another thing I struggle with is being 16 and never having my first kiss or my first boyfriend. That doesn’t mean that you’re not pretty. It doesn’t mean anything negative. It means you aren’t ready yet for the man you’re intended to spend the rest of your life with. God has a plan for you and He will -always- go through with his plans. Jeremiah 29:11 says “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Always have faith that God can do mighty things. In FCA this morning, we talked about God doing amazing things. The question was “What would make you more in awe of God?” And I don’t know what else God would have to do…because he has done so much for us. He created us and this amazing, beautiful world…and keeps us alive and breathing every day. He gives us food, clothes, shelter..and sometimes, we just reject him. We just have to come to a point to realize how much He actually does for us..and then..we will be in awe of God.

dear God,
i know he’s out there, the one i’m supposed to share my whole life with. and in time, you’ll show him to me. until then, will you take care of him, comfort him, and protect him until that special day we meet?

and let him know to be patient.

let him know i’m somewhere out there.

<33 Hilary