Out on the road today, I saw a Black Flag sticker on a Cadillac
A little voice Inside my head said, “Don’t look back. You can never look back.”
I thought I knew what love wasWhat did I know?Those days are gone forever
I should just let them go
Saturday was complete hell for me. I babysat all day and the kids went completely insane. Or maybe my toleration level was super low, but they were crazy. They fought, they screamed, they cried, they yelled, they wouldn’t listen, it was insane. But I got 40 dollars..so it was worth it. When I finally left their house about 9:30, I ran over to Jeska’s for a bit and it was so wonderful to see the J-kids. Seriously amazing to see someone with the same IQ level as me (close enough, anyway.) I got home about 5-10 minutes after curfew but I guess my mom thought I’d been babysitting, so I was safe. I was so depressed that day. I read Harry Potter and it depressed me…I wanted to cry.
Lovin’ you has got to be (take me to the other side)
like the devil and the deep blue sea (take me to the other side)
My conscience got to be my guide (take me to the other side)
Oh honey take me to the other side
Sunday was alright. I woke up late, jumped in the shower and power-drove (I’m talking 80 in a 40) to Jeska’s and got her up at 10:30 and we left by 10:45. Church was nice..it was a good sermon. Sam didn’t really talk to me, so I thought/think she might be mad at meeeee..but I don’t get it. I celebrated my mom’s birthday after church. (It’s tomorrow!) We had gumbo and cheesychickenspaghetti and some awesome cake. Goooood food. Every love letter written is another one burned. Anyway. Thennn, I watched The Naked Mile….American Pie movie. It was completely JUVENILE! I was SO disappointed! Like a bunch of perverted 15 year old boys wrote it. *vomit* Choir practice was GREAT. I love our new songs and Mrs. Mary is a wonderful singing teacher. I really enjoy working with her and my voice and everything. It’s super fun..plus, it’s going to be amazing when we start getting everybody ready for worship. I’m excited!
At a moment like this
I can’t help but wonder
What would Jimmy Buffet do?
Toooooday was sleepy. I completely failed (honestly, this time, i’m serious.) an Advanced Math test. But I can make it up..hopefully. If my mom goes to that meeting tonight, I’ll have 10 extra points in there! YAY! We went to The Spotted Dog today and I think I saw something I want to buy, so I’m gonna run up there sometime this week. Next time I go to Monroe though, I’m buying a present for my mom and Jeska! lol.
Stop tell me where you going
Maybe the one you love isn’t there
You’re going under
But you’re over it all so you don’t care about all that I had to see
I’d watch you wait until you come around
Around
Everything is going alright right now in my life. I mean, nothing is perfect, but in the middle of all the bluh and boring, there’s a bit where everything ties in with a pretty little bow! 🙂 Timeee don’t let it slip away, raise yo drinkin glass, here’s to yesterday. Anyway, I was really tired and just bluh today so I left Jeska’s cuz I was scared I’d be rude or something without thinking about it. Hrmm, I’ve really been thinking about college a lot lately. This time next year, my applications will all be in and I’ll be working on my senior project and stressing and having senioritis! lol. My mom has mentioned me living in Quitman during my college…and renting a trailer from my uncle, but I don’t wanna drive 30 minutes to class every day. I’d SHOOOOT myself. So, i’m just gonna…keep thinking and stuff. Well, I’m gonna go now..I need to finish Harry Potter tonight. (I’M GETTING THE FOURTH SISTERHOOD BOOK FROM MY SISTER FOR VALENTINE’S DAY!!!!! WOOO-HOOO!) So yeah, i’m OUTTTT.
Xanga 
Hey Beautiful, I think we need to take breathing classes because nobody breathes anymore. And you can’t live without breathing.
Seriously though, I’m sick of being stressed out. And being stressed out that im not stressed out enough. I don’t want senior year to be here next year.
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being a senior isn’t stressful, it’s boring……..haha
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The worst of being a senior is senioritis!! Seriously~and it’s not bad for you! It just sucks for the people around u who aren’t seniors! lol Cause you feel infinate and great and like you are the coolest thing since JELLO-all because high school is at an end. It’s a great thing. Senior year was like the best-most nonstressful year EVER for me! Seriously-freshman year and senior year rocked my socks!!! Not that I would ever go back to high school if u paid me! But yeah-good times-at least back then! lol And as I already told u-I wasn’t MAD at u-I was….upset..but not about something you would understand. It’s not a new thing. It’s the same “I’m on the outside looking in” deal that we’ve been over a thousand times it feels like and you just can’t get it. But I wouldn’t get it either if I were in ur place. You can’t understand unless you’ve been on this side of the fence ya know? Lots of things are like that and this just happened to be one of em. But like I said-I get upset-can’t talk about it~sleep~get over it and life goes on. All better! So yeah. I was gonna text ur mom happy bday but it was a crazzzy day and I forgot 😦 *tear* Makes me sad!!!!! I think u should def. talk to my mom about that other thing u know. Like I said..she is usually really good with stuff like that. I talk to her about my probs all the time and honestly, that’s probably when I see Jesus in my mom the most. She always gives me the best Christian advice and then parys for me too! I love my mom! Anyway~I’m off like a dirty shirt. ❤ lata
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