These are the memories that will not escape me

our lives are shaped
by those who love us
and those who refuse to.

Concerts are my soul. Kaylin’s boyfriend’s band is playing a show Friday night in Shreveport. I’m thinking about going. I really need some happiness in my life and this seems like a great way to achieve it.

If I could have anything right now, it would be going to Bruin with Melissa, listening to garth brooks all the way there and then getting drunk on the dock and talking about love, life and everything that goes with it.

Corey and I had sammich time tonight. I took a five hour nap and whenever I woke up, I was real hungry. But you know me, I have money, so I’m buying cigarettes instead. On the way to the store, Corey called and wanted me to pick him up because he was walking home from the gym. After I picked him up, we sat and talked for a while. He told my hand and kissed me every few minutes while I was on the phone with Jessica. ^_^ He makes me smile. What a fabulous friend to have. Then, we got hungrry and went to the grocery store to buy sammich stuff. We ate sammiches on the bed of his truck. Bread, turkey ‘n ranch dressing. That’s our shit! haha. Then, we talked for a long while about…anything I could make him talk about. I’m trying to get inside his mind, but it’s so difficult. Whenever he went to leave, we hugged and I have him the friend tap. It was so embarrassing. He was like…”Really? Okay, I’m leaving now. I’m uh, tapping out.” I felt so bad about it because I didn’t mean to. I just was getting some not so beautiful vibes tonight. I didn’t mean to give him the awkward friend hug. I love that douchebag with my whole heart. He’s so precious.

It’s true. We like people for their qualities and love them for their defects.

I’d really like this.

I hate how you can talk about girls and I can’t feel jealous, but you’re always so jealous.

I hate telling my friends that we’re just really close friends..when it looks so different from the outside in. Kiss me behind their backs, but always love me in their presence. Please. That’s all I need from you.

“Before we came to Tech, you’d always text me when it was raining and say you’d love to kiss me in the rain. It’s rained since we’ve been here and you’ve never called.”