What I`m looking for anymore
I think I miss that feeling of “I like you and you don’t know it” because I’m bored without it. I’m so bored without heartbreak. But, it’s okay. I have enough misery. I’m not missing out on sadness.
Now that she’s back in the atmosphereWith drops of Jupiter in her hair
She acts like summer and walks like rain
Reminds me that there’s time to change
Since the return from her stay on the moon
She listens like spring and she talks like June
I hate school. I’m ready to be the bandaid I’ve always wanted to be.
I’m going to Texarkana tomorrow to stay at William’s with Rusty, Travis, Matt and Crystal.
I’m soooo excited.
And Rusty leaves Tuesday.
That’s how I feel.
But I know that
I think I have become the mirror. I’m just looking at me now.
My medicine makes me not eat very much, but I am STARVING anyway. I hope I lose weight on it.
I have to drop my Brit Lit class. FUCK MY LIFE. I’m going to go to NOT fulltime student, my mom is going to hate me and I just might shoot myself. I hate everything about college right now. I want to start over in the fall.
Leave me lonely.
The only thing I’m wearing that I bought are my underwear and my class ring. I’m wearing Rusty’s white tshirt and vans jacket. Jessica’s jeans. Daddy’s shoes. Rusty’s necklace and lip ring! lol. YAY. I’m a bum.
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ANDREW BIRD ^_^I love you. I hate school and I hate feeling like a failure. Can we both start over? I’m going to be alone at TECH…
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